htech lab + semangat national day pics

found a photo album in my shutterfly account while going to upload pictures from 'adilah-azizah-liyana-zakiah outing.

got pictures from htech (histological techniques) lab session (slack habissssss! i think it was the last lab session for the subject), from the last french tutorial (my tutor's the dark-haired one), and pics of the AG12 malay girls at the back of Flavours, the AS canteen.

*the link has been removed. sorry.*

few pictures from thumbdrive (but no french tutorial pics)

finally! =)

Alhamdulillah~ akhirnya.. rinduku terubat jua..!

tak dapat dibayangkan betapa gembiranya aku dapat bertemu kembali dengan rakan2 seperjuangan. aku cukup terharu. rasa gembira bercampur sedih dan bersyukur silih berganti.. at several points, airmataku bergenang.. ku cuba sedaya upaya untuk membendung perasaan yang kadang2 terlalu overwhelming..

ahh.. aku dapat menarik nafas lega.

Terima kasih, Tuhan.. kerana memberiku umur yang panjang, kesihatan dan waktu untuk bersama mereka di bulan yang mulia ini. meski aku tidak dapat berinteraksi dengan mereka dengan sepuas2nya.. aku tetap bersyukur di atas ni'matMu ini..

meski seorang kawanku tidak dapat datang, lantas aku berasa sedih sekali kerana kami berdua masih diuji dengan perpisahan.. aku tabah, Ya Allah... jika ada rezeki, kita pasti bertemu, sahabat..

19.10.2007

di bawah ada beberapa gambar yang dapat aku petik sewaktu jalan raya kami ^.^ sebenarnya, ada banyak lagi.. tapi yang lain tu, aku simpan dahulu.. bila aku sudah dapat gambar2 lagi daripada kawan2ku, aku akan kumpulkan dalam satu online album.. selepas tu, baru aku letak linknya di sini.

wah... dah besar satu2 kawan aku nih! aszafirah, kamaliah, mardhiah, kak hairani dan kak ummu.. masing2 kelihatan lebih matang.. ada juga yang cukup bergaya! hehe..

di rumah ust ratnadumilah..

"awak nak buktikan kat saya kan.."
masya Allah.. tersentak aku bila mendengar ust mengungkapkan kata2 itu sewaktu bersalaman dengannya. terus aku menjadi sensitif.. aku hampir2 menitiskan airmata. Ya Tuhan.. terima kasih di atas peringatan ini.. ya, aku terlupa, bahawa aku telah menulis kata2 janji kepada guruku di dalam sebuah kad dulu.. hmm.. kad apa ya? kalau tak silap aku.. kad hari guru..
rasa terharu bersulam dengan rasa berat di hati.. terasa seolah2 aku tidak mampu untuk mengotakan janjiku.. Ya Tuhan.. berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk memikul amanah ini.. harapan guru2 serta ibubapaku..



huhu... kamaliah maintain muka ke pe...? =p it's great to see aszafirah, kamaliah and khadijah.. buat mel and dja, ana doakan persahabatan korang kukuh... moga takkan ada perang besar antara korang lagi. tapi yang pastinya, permusuhan yang dahulu kini berubah menjadi satu ikatan yang erat. alhamdulillah~ to me, that's one amazing miracle! Indahnya aturan Allah..!


kak hairani, murni, 'adilah, kak ummu dan nafisah.
Murni, pengorbanan anti takkan sia-sia, insha Allah..
Tuhan, berikanlah kelapangan kepada rakanku itu.. kurniakanlah rezekiMu pada keluarganya.. amiin~

naqi muzaffar. 2 tahun. adik murni. aku suka mendengar suaranya.. comel! and he was a good boy the whole dayy..! ohh.. aku mendukungnya dari traffic light sampai rumah ust suhana. fuh~ berat..!! bila tengah solat tu, rasa sangat yang pergerakan lenganku dah jadi slowww.. must be the muscles. heh.

bersama ust saniah

bersama ust damawiyah

di rumah ust suhana

murni, nafisah, 'adilah dan kak ummu

di rumah ust kamsinah.. nak dekat pukul 11 malam - walau penat, masing2 masih mengukir senyuman..
cuma,
buat seorang sahabatku: anti, ana faham yang anti dah penat, lantas tak sabar2 menunggu sesi 'fotografi' selesai. tapi, ana tak suka bila anti merungut tentang 'inefficiency' pemetik gambar tu.. anti kawan ana, and i care for you, my dear friend.. besar harapan ana untuk melihat anti bukan sahaja lebih baik dari segi penampilan, tapi juga akhlak. bila anti merungut sebegitu, ana terkejut sedikit.. coz that part of you is still there.
walau apa pun, ana tetap doakan yang terbaik buat anti =)


dear 'adilah, aszafirah, kak hairani, hazimah, kamaliah, khadijah, liyana, mardhiah, murni, nafisah, kak ummu...

thank you for the company.

kepada teman2 yang masih belum ku jumpa dan bertanya khabar,

im waiting for that day to arrive, let's wait together k? moga dipanjangkan umur.. and i want you guys to know that i'm missing you.. :'(

what i've been up to

assalamu 'alaikum, semua~

it's been more than a month since i last posted a proper entry.. lots of things have happened, and along the way, i gained new experiences and felt various, well, feelings. yupz.

let's see..


main examinations

all i can say is, sometimes i hate myself. why is it that whenever exam period comes, i would study late at night? why couldnt i prepare for my exams earlier? why, why, why have i not changed?

hmmm.... hamdan lillah, certain papers and questions were quite easy. and some, well, not to say 'not easy'.. rather, i didnt study or memorise those parts.. so, too bad, i lost precious marks there. takpelah, mungkin memang me deserve it..

the paper that i was most afraid of was molecular genetics. i failed my term test, my practical test, and i usually didnt do my tutorial, i knew that my CA percentage was near marginal.. i had really hope i didnt fail my CA component.. anyway, i could say that i studied hard for the main exam, coz i need to get sufficient percentage to ensure that i could pass the subject, never mind if it's a 'just pass'..

bila exam dah selesai tu.. rase lega jugak.. but negativity reigned.

coz i knew i screwed up a lot.
coz i knew i wasted a lot of time and opportunities.
yupz.

the results? a distinction (french ^.^), B+, B, C+ and C.

im definitely not an A student.

and yeah, my gpa dropped.. still a 3.pointer though. alhamdulillah~


RR'07

i was given the opportunity to be part of the organising committee. it's a great experience - got to learn how to organise an event, liaise with outside parties, do admin work, paper work.. plus, new friends =)

dari segi pembangunan diri, hmmm... memang banyak yang dipelajari. tarbiyah dari segi emosi, kepimpinan, keperibadian, spiritual... Ya Allah.. terima kasih di atas segalanya.

klw nak cerita ttg RR'07 kat sini, it'll take forever. heh. since im the sort of person who, after some time, looses the idea and enthusiasm to write and remember.. plus, it's cumbersome to find the right words.


a new camera... which drowned

the camera that we had since 2004 (or is it 2003?) had been showing signs of 'old age'.. so, we bought a new one, pentax 7.1 mega pixel, at a good price, $249. plus, we got free 1Gb memory card.

and then.....

during RR'07 recce, while a bunch of us were in a boat at kallang river, the camera slipped into the water.

yes.

it was gone. forever.

when we realised that the camera was nowhere to be found, i lost my enthusiasm and joy. all the way til the end of the recce, my mind was occupied with 'how to repay the money that my mother had paid for the camera'.. it was her hard-earned money. and i blamed myself for losing it.. although the fact was, someone else lost it. but i couldn't afford to blame or be angry at this person. all i could think of was to forgive him, and to not let him pay for what he had done. even though, at some points, the other me reasoned argued that he should.

but no. i was too busy feeling guilty for not listening to my instinct (i had a feeling prior to going into the boat that leaving the camera with other people+on water was a bad move), and for losing a new thing that belonged to the family.

hmm... ok, me mcm dah serik nak pegang camera sendiri. and aqila sometimes tries to be sarcastic and make me feel guilty. but you know what? i just dont give a damn about the incident anymore. i simply take it as a learning experience. anyway, aqila is insisting, or shall i say demanding?, that we get a new camera before raya. =S oh tidaaakk!!


ramadhan 1428H

alas! i live long enough to welcome this blessed month =) and i got the opportunity to mosque-hop on certain days for tarawih. and qiyam too.. tapi for that, me dapat dua masjid je: alkaff kg melayu and ghufran.

cuma... the last 10 days of ramadhan.. 1st few days dapat ah.. tapi sekarang smpi akhir ramadhan.. gonna miss 'em.. cheer up, wahai diri, pastinya ade hikmah di sebalik ujian ni.

and...

im not looking forward to raya... can we have another month of ramadhan?


iftar events

tahun ni, i didnt get to go to any poly/uni MS iftar.. ade yang clash with RR'07, or other iftar sessions.. oh well, insha Allah, klw ade rezeki, tahun depan me nak nak nak pegi, nak gi NUSMS, NTUMS, NPMSS, and NYPMS iftars..

the ones that i went were iftar with my 5 classmates - dina, fana, nana, rusy and tira, and iftar organised by impian. the latter was a good opportunity to familiarise myself with impian, its people and.. yeah, it felt great to be back in a 'madrasah students' bi'ah...

and... NI iftar! yeah~ it's good to be back, seeing the faces of the alumni, the comm members, and our friends from the different polys. plus, this time, there were also ITE students and few facis from RR'07. although... me tak dapat join the cleaning session, coz got grading. tapi takpe, me still suker, suker, sukerr. heh!


raya preparations

gone to geylang.. gone to arab st.. gone to johore.. the usual needs - clothes, tudung, kuihs - for raya have been fulfilled.. memang bagus klw kite settle benda2 ni awal2 ramadhan kan? jadi bila akhir2 ramadhan, tak usah kelam kabut, and kite boleh concentrate buat kerje2 lain.

in case you're wondering, no, i dont bake any cookies this time. tak kuasa..!

and as usual, the house, esp my room, needs tidying (err.. grammar betul ke?)


and speaking of grammar, someone has just finished taking her psle exams.. i hope she had done well, and that she will not be disappointed when the results come out (late november).. Ya Allah.. berikanlah dia kejayaan.. sesungguhNya Engkau Maha Mengetahui apa yang terbaik buatnya..


okie dokie, i think this is enough for now. untuk post ni je, it took me more than 1 hour to complete.

hingga bertemu lagi di post yang lain...!

-- fade to black --

videos for keepsake

Ramadhan Rocks v. Xtreme 1428


Logistics team with their antics
1st day, at CCAC, shortly before noon or afternoon, not sure..




nasheed performance by Saff brothers
morning of the last day




Feature in Berita Suria
22 september 2007, 8pm




feature in Warna Ramadhan
30 september 2007, some time around 6.45pm (the show itself started at 6pm)



cimg4899.avi


feedback by admin head
during post-mortem, 1 october 2007



cimg4923.avi

Iraq..

look at the everyday scene.

look at the families.

look at the houses.

look at the children.

and i wonder if those buildings still stand,
the families still complete,
the children still alive.

اللهم انصر اخواننا فى عراق

target sparring

14.8.2007 - my first training after 3-4 weeks of absence.










there were better ones.. but when i wanted to record a better demo of target sparring, my camera battery went flat. oh well~

pump it! LOUDER!

saw this video during one of the elf meetings. hilarious, i tell you! i was entertained by their antics. indeed.

=)

warning: for those who dont like rap/hip hop songs, n those who dont like to watch crappy videos, please dont bother to watch this. well, there's no porn or vulgarities .. so it's really up to you.

enjoy!

some worries

should sisters be in logistics? coz based on experience from seniors... it's hard to control the situation esp one the event day.

will the concept paper be a strong, persuasive and impressive one? coz we need a good proposal to get sponsors.

how will the budget be covered? will it be covered? again, concept paper~~

how about wet weather programme? seeing the activities lined up, if it rains, it's gonna cause some major delay, or even, change of activities.

will the pax get the message that we want to put across to them? or will they be too tired and exhausted by the end of the day that they just want to sleep in peace? or will they have too much fun that the message just cant get into their heads and hearts?

will i be able to handle the last minute changes, interruptions, problems, dilemmas.. on the event day? will i be able to make a decision that it is needed so suddenly? will i be able to execute quickly yet effectively?


and i have exams to worry about~

national poomsae 2007

the day started off quite bad..... i woke up to the vibration of my handphone - pei yong was calling. and i realised it was 8.40am. the bad news was, i was supposed to be at the toa payoh sports hall at 8.30am. worst, i had 7 missed calls!!

feeling guilty n sleepy, i told pei yong something like 'im going out of my house soon', or was it 'im ironing my clothes'... such a liar!! and it turned out that pei yong had sensed it. heh, since my voice was the typical 'baru-bangun-tido-nye-suare'.

keluar rumah... sempat gi mcdonald's beli breakfast.. huhu.. tapi nasib baik ku beli makanan, coz kat sana takde jual makanan yang halal lagi memuaskan.

and so, the place was quite crowded. at this point of writing, i cant remember whether there were more people during poomsae or during grading. lots of kids, teenagers, adults.. i even saw people from races other than malay, chinese and indian.

yanning and i were in the female single category.
peiyong, yanning and i were in the female group category.

female single category:

i saw few familiar faces.. from the IVP last march. it was straight away the semi-finals as there were only around 12-15 participants (i cant remember exactly how many) vying for the top 8 places in the finals.

i was pretty nervous.. oh, yes! but personally, i thought that single category is much easier to handle since you have yourself to control, to focus on. i cant really describe the feelings when i was there on the blue-yellow mat.. sorry, it was months ago, and i just cant recall.

suprisingly, i was among the top 5 scorers. so was yanning. so both of us managed to get to the finals! alhamdulillah~~~~~~

it was such a looooonggg wait for the final round. i couldnt sit still, or even eat the pizza that we ordered for lunch.

anyway, for tkd poomsae, we need to know 2 pattern. sam-jang and sa-jang.

sam-jang pattern is like this:



click here if you cant view the video.


the sa-jang pattern is like this:



click here if you cant view the video.


of course lah, my sidekick is much worst than the girls' in the video. their frontkicks are impressive too.

the final round --------

again, i cant remember how i felt, what i hoped, but i do remember that the pattern went quite well... until the last part. (oh ya, before i forget: we had to do sa-jang in semi-final, and sam-jang in final).

as i turned to do low block-punch-low block-punch-low block-frontkick-punch-low block-frontkick-punch, i suddenly, utterly did the front kick at the wrong order. (kicking is supposed to be during the last two sub-parts of the last part, not anywhere during the first two) fuh~ rosak, rosak~ n from there, my pattern was not in order.

i was disappointed with my score. if i had not screwed up that last bit, i would have gotten a higher position. i got the 8th place. tapikan, the trophy is the same as the 3rd place's (yanning got 3rd) but a bit shorter.

tapi bila pikir balik... masya Allah~ mudah je Allah nak tarik balik ingatan kita.. betape byk kali kite practise/hafal, dgn sekelip mata, you can forget. hmmm... me pasti, ade hikmah di sebalik ape yang berlaku. takpelah... Allah nak ajar me supaye lebih sabar and tabah dgn unexpected things, n redha dgn keputusan. n mungkin Allah nak balas dosa2 me (now that i think of it, it could be coz of lying to pei yong) dgn cara ni. nasib baik, bukan dgn cara yang lebih buruk.

liyana, nick, daniel, darrel, andre, janice, yanning and gui wen

tiffany, nick, bryan sir, darrel, daniel
grace, janice, gui wen, pei yong, yanning

female group category:

believe it or not, there were only 3 teams competing in this category. TP, meridian JC and a group from a club.

we were the last team to go.. meridian JC team score quite well - 7.something. ok, so we lined up at the side of the mat, walked to our positions (the walking part, i screwed up too, my hand n leg movements werent the same as pei yong's and yanning's -.-"), bowed, and got ready in the start position (the command is 'JOONBE' [june-bee])

and then, something happened.

yanning and i heard the commander saying the pattern name. while pei yong heard him saying 'start'. so, she started to move. yanning was suprised. I, was shocked! yanning quickly recovered and followed pei yong, while I was stunned. it was like, my body refused to move, my mind said "guys~ we should restart!".. but then, i started my pattern, quite rushing (and thus, incomplete moves) since i wanted to catch up with pei yong and yanning. i could hear pei yong saying 'slow down'.. maybe to herself n yanning (so i can catch up) or to me (so i wont go rushing all the way).

man, it was disastrous!!!!!!!!!!! while i was doing the pattern, i remember thinking that "oh no~ our hopes just went down the drain~~"

but we ended the pattern quite in unison.

click here to see the video.

and the most unbelievable thing is, we won the 1st place!! bizarre~ bizarre~ we were only 0.2 points higher than mjc. err... that was what people say ah... but main point is, it was a really close shave.

yeah~ this is one event to remember, dear self! quite amazing.. and to really think about it, we dont deserve the 1st place. for me, this win doesnt reflect our hard work, rather, it shows how a miracle can happen in a quick flash. and fortunately for us, that miracle was on our side.

while waiting for our turn

with the bronze-coloured trophies for single category.. we were waiting for our gold trophies.. heh.

beside yanning is girlene, bryan sir's wife. they got gold for mixed pair category.

yeah, we won something.. ^.^

at the hotel reception

"You have just arrived at the reception desk of a hotel in Marseilles. indicate whether you have a reservation. you need a room for 2 persons witha a double bed and a bathroom with shower and toilet. you want to find out more about your room (price, floor, etc...), the hotel services and the premises. you may want to add value by asking directions to a place of your choice."

above is the guideline for the french speaking test which i took on tuesday, 7.8.07. i must say, me n partner, we did a good job! ^.^ my tutor recorded a bit in her handphone. aiyo~ quite embarrassed ah... she wanted to show, umm.. im not sure who. -.-"

here's the dialogue:

dyana: bonjour, mademoiselle!

liyana: bonjour! bienvenue à l'hotel. je suis liyana, à votre service. vous avex une réservation?

dyana: non, je n'ai pas des réservations. vous avez une chambre pour deux personnes?

liyana: pour combien de nuits?

dyana: pour cinq nuits. je veux une chambre avec un grand lit et salle de bains avec douche et WC.

liyana: attendez mademoiselle....... oui, mademoiselle. nous avons deux chambres pour deux personnes. une chambre près du jardin et une chambre en face du centre commercial.

dyana: c'est combien, la chambre?

liyana: pour cinq nuits, ca fait quatre cents euros.

dyana: est-ce que le petit déjeuner et la service sont compris dans le tarif?

liyana: oui, mademoiselle.

dyana: et quelle heure le petit déjeuner?

liyana: de sept heures à dix heures.

dyana: d'accord. je prends la chambre près du jardin.

liyana: ah bon... comment vous vous appelez?

dyana: je m'appelle Dyana Rahman. voilà mon passeport.

liyana: merci... oh! vous étes singapourienne?

dyana: oui, je suis singapourienne. vous étes française?

liyana: oui, je suis française. je travaille ici, à Paris. mais je suis de Toulouse.

dyana: Toulouse? j'ai une amie à Toulouse. elle dit c'est trés beau.

liyana: oui, c'est super. j'aime Toulouse!

dyana: umm... il y a une station de metro près d'ici?

liyana: oui, c'est près du théâtre, entre la rue St Pierre et la rue Lily.

dyana: près du théâtre? entre la rue St Pierre et la rue Lily?

liyana: oui... voilà votre passeport, et la clé. le numero de la chambre est un un deux (112).

dyana: merci. c'est (à) quel étage, la chambre?

liyana: la chambre au sixiemme étage.

dyana: ah bon! merci beaucoup....... oh, où je peux changer des dollars?

liyana: pour changer des dollar... oh! il y a un magasin au bout de la rue. vous pouvez aller à pied.

dyana: c'est loin?

liyana: non.

dyana: ah bon.. enchantée!

liyana: enchantée aussi. bon séjour, mademoiselle!


want to know what on earth we were talking about???

here are some helping words:

bienvenue - welcome

à, à l', au - to, at

votre - your

vous avez - you have

chambre - room

pour - for

combien - how many

nuits - nights

grand lit - big bed aka double bed

salle de bains - bathroom

douche - shower

WC - toilet

jardin - garden

centre commercial - shopping centre

près - near

en face - opposite

petit déjeuner - small lunch aka breakfast

compris - is/are included

je prends - i take

je travaille - i work

de - of, from

j'ai - i have

amie - friend (female)

dit - say/says

trés - very

entre - between

étage - floor

je peux - i can

magasin - shop

à pied - on foot

enchanté(e) - nice to meet you

bon séjour - have a good stay

what's my major?

i kind of agree with the result. hehe..
maybe i'll take this into consideration. =)

You scored as History/Anthropology/LiberalArts, You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in History, Anthropology, or related majors (e.g., African and African-American Studies, Chinese, Classics, Cultural Studies, Economics, English, French, Geography, German, Greek, Hebrew, International Studies, Philosophy, Sociology, Women's Studies, or other Liberal Arts majors). It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it. Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal. History/Anthropology/LiberalArts 69% French/Spanish/OtherLanguage 63% Biology/Chemistry/Geology 63% Accounting/Finance/Marketing 56% English/Journalism/Comm 56% Religion/Theology 50% HR/BusinessManagement 50% Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health 50% Education/Counseling 50% Psychology/Sociology 44% PoliticalScience/Philosophy 38% Mathematics/Statistics 25% Physics/Engineering/Computer 25% Visual&PerformingArts 19% WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU? created with QuizFarm.com

Terima Kasih, Tuhan..

kerana mempertemukanku dengan mereka

ukhwah ini masih bertahan walau beberapa tahun telah berlalu

Terima Kasih, Tuhan..

kerana mendatangkanku kepada mereka

di waktu aku terkapai-kapai dalam hidup yang seolah-olah tidak bermakna

Terima Kasih, Tuhan..

kerana mengingatkanku

peringatan yang Kau sampaikan melalui mereka

Terima Kasih, Tuhan..

kerana menghadiahkanku teman-teman

ikatan persahabatan yang terjalin ketika sama-sama menghafaz KalamMu

Ya Tuhan,

rahmatilah teman-temanku itu

lindungilah mereka

tanamkanlah dalam hati-hati mereka ketabahan dan kesabaran

jadikanlah mereka wanita-wanita solehah.. anak-anak yang solehah

Ameen..

dia itu..

hari ni merupakan hari yang bersejarah buat kau, liyana!

kau tak pernah bermimpi yang kau akan berjumpa empat mata dgn orang tu. well, pernah jumpe ah.. as in, setakat nampak or ternampak je.. kau tak pernah terpikir yang kau akan duduk, berdiri, dgn orang tu kat tempat yang sama. kau tak pernah menduga yang kau akan berada dekat dgn orang tu - less than 2 metres!! 2 jam lebih pulak tu!

ape ke benda yang aku cakapkan nih?! hah, buat panduan kau (bila kau bace balik post ni), cube tgk balik kat diari/calendar 2007 'saturday, 21.7.07' dan kau akan ingat ape yang aku tgh refer to.

klw kau nak tahu, bila kau dgr name orang tu disebut sebagai salah seorang wakil institusi, kau rase.... "hahhhh? dia? alahai~~" hmm.. rase panik sikit pon ade lah. tibe2 kau macam dread gitu untuk berada kat tempat tu. bila orang tu datang, dan akhirnya kau nampak muka orang tu setelah.. mmmm.. let me see, nak dkt setahun..., kau tak rase ape2.. tak berdebar pon. yang kau rase ialah "hmm.. whatever. aku buat keje sendiri diam2.."

baguslah~ nasib baik perasaan kau tu dah lame terpadam. klw tidak, mungkin kau tak boleh duduk diam tadi.

terima kasih Tuhan, kerana memudarkan perasaan kawan aku yang sememangnya tak patut dan membuang masa. terima kasih Tuhan, kerana telah menenangkan hatinya..

cuma, aku harap orang tu tak kenal kau sape ah... or ade ape2 idea, atau hint, tentang kau.. ish~ malu sey kalau orang tu tahu yang kau pernah dotdotdot...

oklah, aku tak nak cakap banyak... seperti yang pernah kau katakan (dlm sms kpd seorg senior kau kat TP): "semoga hati ana tak bergetar disebabkan mana2 lelaki dan semoga tidak ada lelaki yang tergetar hatinya disebabkan ana", aku harap kau akan istiqamah, stay focused dlm mengejar cita2. jaga hati, jaga iman. haa, jaga pandangan jugak, sbb takut terkena panahan syaitan! minta dijauhkan...~

old blog??

eh, i just found an old blog of mine http://www.123freehost.co.uk/sites/khaulahufayrah/default.asp

wah, terperanjat sey...

i was doing a yahoo search for 'nor liyana'. saje je.. http://search.yahoo.com/search;_ylt=A0oGkjJAB59GUuwA_NBXNyoA?p=nor+liyana&fr=yfp-t-501&fp_ip=SG&rd=r1&meta=vc%3Dsg sekali, nampak the description:


a girl, age 13, muslim, studying in alsagoff arab school....get to ... teens : Nor Liyana. Home. Your Ad Here. The Spoken Word Dies, The Written ... Nor ...

and i thought... eh????? sape ni......??


wow! dah nak masuk 5 tahun sey.. and i dont remember creating an account in 123freehost!

EXTINCTION IS FOREVER.

i find this statement very intense, deep with meaning and seriousness indeed.

of three wishes

did any of you watch Three Wishes today, 10.30am - 11.30am on channel 5?

i did. and it made me ponder about wars, and lives, and sacrifices..

seeing the soldiers being hugged and kissed, simply surrounded by their loved ones at their homecoming event, when the officer said "fall out" and the soldiers broke into smiles of relief and happiness..

oohh~~ i was just so touched.

as much as they're americans, they're also humans. men of families, men of nation who go to war under the order of their country.

and some of them got injured, some of them died, while the lucky ones, truly lucky i'd say, finally got to go home.

mcm sedih gitu. and im not talking about the soldiers featured in the show just now, but soldiers all over the world. hmm... they fight, uncertain about their own safety, whether they were going to be kidnapped, bombed, ambushed, or shot.. only God knows how hard their situation is..

alangkah baiknye klw kat dunia ni tak de peperangan, tak perlu ade peperangan. jadi takde sape2 yang perlu takut, baik keluarge si askar, ataupon mangsa perang, kedua2 saling hidup dgn kebimbangan.. one is afraid to get a phonecall, or a knock on the door, that may suddenly bring heart-breaking news, the other one is afraid of going to the shop, or letting his/her child go out to play, for a tragedy might happen..

memanglah kite kat singapore ni sukar sangat nak empathise, nak bayangkan diri kite dlm keadaan yang serupa dgn mereka2 di luar sane... sbb kite belum tempuh war yang sebenar.. but for me, watching the show was enough to make me realise how peace is important, how family is important, how brotherhood is important. and how disruption of peace and understanding can bring unwanted doom and sadness. and loss.

just to be back home, safe and sound, is very hard and seemingly impossible for the soldiers out there. can you imagine??

i dont care whether they are soldiers or freedom fighters... in the end, they're just humans and they have their own families..




i pray that you will be safe. and ultimately, i pray that you will find the hidayah from Allah.. Ameen~

microtome blade

i feel cut off from my alsagoff friends.

jealous?

yeah, whatever.

a different light

went to ust sakinah's blog just now. seeing her camp explore's pics made me think: hmm.. what a small world indeed!

i mean, i saw lots of familiar faces.. from TP, Nur Ikhwan, Saff Perdaus, fellow madrasah students.. imagine, the people i had known first, now known by ust sakinah herself. wonderful isnt it, how fate gathers us together in the same circle, eventually =)

on thursday, i went to ahlulquranpts usrah.. you know, i think our usrah is a bit different. coz we dont have a permanent naqibah. but that doesnt matter, right? coz most importantly, the content and sharings are there. right?

during the last part, ust sakinah shared about her reactions when she got her exam results. i must say... it made me think (that word, again) how desperate i want A's in my results transcript this semester, how i had felt the sheer disappointment knowing i didnt work hard and thus would definitely not score well in my term tests.

all these lead to me reflecting, why is my motivation the want, the need, to get in the TOP 10% of the cohort? why is my motivation to be on the same parr as the malay girl, who has the same name as me, who is in the top 10 students for 1st year? why..?

and why isnt my motivation based on the desire to please God? why do i feel a bit estranged from the fact that Allah is always there for me? why do i not trust and put all my hopes and prayers in Him?

why everytime i face failure, or even sense failure, i quickly become discouraged? why cant i be stronger, realising that Allah has me in His hands?

why am i so afraid that i wont reach my goal of getting the A's? is it super important that it blinds me from the pure intention of seeking knowledge?

think, my dear self,
think of your primary intention.
the others will come later.
once you set your innermost intention,
sure about it, work within it,
then you dont have to worry.

dear self,
remember what you have written and meant here, ok?
remember the mist of feelings that shrouded you when you wrote this:
inpired, worried, sad, hopeful..
may you perceive things in a better way now.
in a different light.

watch this space for more info..!

i want this. i want that.

sometimes i wonder
what's best for me.




my term tests are over. and i can safely say that the chances of any improvements are somewhat tilted to the no-no land.

ok, im being merepek. just ignoRe.

i would really like to spend time with my friends this term break. hmm... i'd like to see khadijah, kamaliah, aszafirah, mardhiah, liyana, huda ibrahim.. mm.. who else?

and i would like to go rockclimbing!!! sape2 nak gi rockclimbing with me??

and i want to play badminton in the school's sports complex. or jog around the bedok reservoir park.

i dont want to go to cca trainings or meetings. or any project meetings.

i just want to sit and talk and joke (or more likely, listen to jokes) with my friends whom i've long ceased spending time with them, let alone seeing their faces 'live'.

oh!! and i want to see Hazimah and take a tour around RP.

eh, before i forget: the tkd poomsae is indeed next week, 17 june. *lemah sey semangat biler pikir yang aku ni belum practise!*

ok. enough said.