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ahhhh...it's good to be writing here again..lots to tell but limited time and privacy to write.. so, now, it has passed midnight and the people in my house are sleeping..and im having the mood to write.

so.... school starts on april 24th. sch orientation is on april 20th & 21st. and TPSU's orientation 10-12 april.

i once wrote that im gonna be alone in TP, i.e. the only alsagoffian the.. hazimah's @ RP.. but now, i dont im gonna be ALONE, like, literally.. coz there will be other madrasah students who, insha ALLAH, are gonna be my TP mates...hehe =) i found out there's gonna be irsyadians, arabiah-ian(s) and maarifian(s).. not sure if there is any new mwtian too..

for the time being, im trying to find info on biomedical science and the related subjects such as biochemistry, histology, immunology, pathology..and other -logy.. a bit difficult though..i've tried woodlands regional library and pasir ris community library..but so far, i've borrowed only 2 books.

another problem is that....those science books that im trying to find and then read are obviously THICK..if not thick, then the fonts are small! ish~~ i dont like, i dont like, i dont like!! tapi, nampaknya, mulai sekarang aku kenalah sesuaikan diri dgn buku2 mcm tu.. -_-'

you know, i've been thinking..all this while, some people keep saying that im gonna be busy as a poly student.. poly life is gonna be busy, busy, busy... got no time.. limited time.. and those words are, frankly, poison to my ears. i dont think im gonna accept that fact anymore. im just so sick of being pessimistic!

yeah, yeah..i know that your intentions are good, people. and i know very well that the fact is quite - if not really - true. but i dont want the thought of it hinder my plans for other things... i dont want this 'busy' factor keep me from doing other activities... hmmm..

i've told you that i dont like teaching people, right? that i dont think im good at it? but it seems like im going to eat my words.

hmm.. right now, im teaching my younger cousin, preparing her for PSLE. and yesterday, my sister called to ask if i can teach the twins too! for PSLE! ... and i thought..."i'd like to help...but i lack expertise...i've no experience. that'll take a lot of commitment! that's take all my weekends!..what if i cannot cope?????? but i dont want to disappoint my aunt and my sister.."

ajar farah hari sabtu, petang. ajar haneesah n haseenah hari ahad, petang. then hari sabtu dan ahad, malam, pun ajar orang... bila nk gi tahfiz???????? mcmane dgn ahlulquranpts?????????? mcmane klw ada projek, assignment???????????????

s.a.c.r.f.i.c.e.
s.a.c.r.i.f.i.c.e.
s.a.c.r.i.f.i.c.e.........................

and my dad's like, "oh good! PSLE is very important..help them.." you know, that sort of thing..even though he does question if i have the time..if i can cope.. it clearly seems that he wants me to take that job.

and take the job i did. my sis called again petang semalam. i didnt get enough time to think through. and so, im going to start teaching the twins this sunday.

i really hope i can make a difference.. *im just soooooo afraid ='(*

does anyone know.......?

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last saturday i went to my school annual function, the majlis ma'al hijrah. it was good to see the teachers and juniors.. cikgu ali and sir zain pon ada =D though it was wayyyy awkward talking to (or 'with'??) them.. there's this one kid..she's athirah banu's sister..namanya syahirah banu kalau tk silap... hehe.. dia kata, "awak ingat kita tk?"...the last time i went to school, she also said that. of course i didnt know who she was... (masa first time dia tanya tu)... i wasnt her mentor or anything.. so i looked at her name tag. and last saturday, i recognised her face but didnt remember her name... anyway, the point is, it's a bit weird coz i dont know her in the first place, and yet she knows me... bila nk balik tu, dia introduced me to her mum. and her mum said something like, "mereka/dia (athirah n syahirah/syahirah alone) asyik puji awak kt rumah.." and i was like, "astaghfirullah~~"...

really ah! what have i done to get this attention? is whatever that i was/have done sooo significant and marvellous to other people? *the attention is nice though, but im worried that i might become swollen-headed!!!*

i keep saying to myself,"this popularity will die off, liyana. so dont expect anything whenever you visit the school." "skrg, bila kau lalu je, diorang cakap "eh! kak liyana", "kak liyana lah..!", salam kau, tapi lama2 pelajar2 tkkn kenal kau lagi.jadi tk usahlah kau mengharapkan pujian dan sanjungan orang sampai bila2!!"

alamak! dah pukul 0109H! i got to go! dah malam sgt nie... insha Allah, esok me nk tgk Ice Age 2...yeah! =)