medical check-up

every TP student is required to do a medical check-up to ensure that he/she is fit for his/her course.

and so, i went to raffles medical group @ causeway point yesterday morning, with my mum. i didnt expect that there would be many people at the place. as it turned out, there were quite a number of teenagers waiting for their turn to see the doctor. and as i was waiting for my turn, more teenagers arrived..

ada pelajar2 semangat bawak TP's enrolment guide. ada yang bawak dgn envelopenye sekali! fuyo~~ from what i saw n heard, those teenagers are TP-ians too..

actually, the medical check-up made me excited! really! i mean, i have never done any medical check-up, and i've been wanting to do it (coz i want to find out if i have any serious illnesses or something..)..so when this opportunity came, i was happy indeed!

i thought the doctor will check my whole body or something, but no. what happened was that a nurse (i think) called my name to check my weight and height, and to check for eye-vision and color-blindness. thanks to this check-up, i finally know that my height is 1.54m (i cant believe it! im shooorrrt!!) and my weight is 43.9kg. and my bmi is 18-point-something.. which means my weight is suitable for my height. yey!

unfortunately, as i've written somewhere in/on this blog before, my vision is becoming worst (or 'worse'??).. i definitely have to change my lens.ASAP! and thank goodness, im not color-blind =)

BUT! the most yucky, disgusting, unforgettable thing that i had to was..... GUESS WHAT????????????????????????????

urine check! which means i had to fill a small plastic bottle with my own u****..!! oh my god!! i was like..huh?? oh no! why do i have to do this stupid thing???!!

err...it was my first time, you know. so i was feeling stupid, embarrassed. and i didnt feel like u****ting..(urgh! writing this story here makes me sick! but i have to, so you know what it's like)..however, miraculously, my brain must have 'merangsang' my u****ry bladder, so there was little problem. ok, im not going to tell all the disgusting details here. figure it yourself! yang pastinya, when i got out of the small cubicle (it's in the clinic itself), i washed my hands like i've never washed before! really disgusting man!! oh! another minus point is that there was no water in the cubicle, only tissue. can you imagine???????????? yuck! yuck! yuck!

when i got home, i washed all my clothes, tudung and stokin... cuma kasut je belum cuci. unfortunately, i was able to eat my lunch at a coffeeshop without being too paranoid about my hands (yelah, kan me dah cuci dgn sabun! satu kt clinic, lagi satu kt kedai makan tu!)...

oh! after raffles medical group, i went to SATA @ woodlands civic centre to do a chest x-ray. haa! kt situ lah baru ramai sangat org! ada pelajar2 dari nyp, np, tp.. tk tau plak klw sp & rp nye budak ade kt situ..

hehe..pengalaman nk ambil x-ray ok ar... me kena pakai robe color maroon.. dahlah lengannye pendek, jadi me kena sembunyikan tangan bawah tudung..i thought x-ray kena baring, rupa2nye, kena berdiri sambil sandar kt satu board nie. sekejap je x-ray.. no fuss, no whatever. yang paiseynye, me kena bukak tudung masa nk x-ray tu..dah lah orang yg uruskan lelaki cina..tp nasib baik tk kena bukak serkup!

anyway, hidup nie memang tk sunyi dari ujian, ye tak? mana2 kite keluar je, mesti ada ujian, fitnah. fitnah ape??? fitnah mata lah!!

ish~~ me tk suke sey... yelah, bila ada rajul, me kena 'behave'... really cant be myself...really cant concentrate. me nk stretch kaki pon tk boleh..mak kata "hisy~ behave yourself..kan makcik tu punye anak ade kt sebelah.."... ok, ok... but the thing is, i dont give a damn about that stranger. bukannye me flirting pon! tkkn me nk duduk kt situ macam batu! n paham2 je lah, me klw duduk, tk boleh nk diam..asyik nk gerak je..

kt SATA tu lagi ramai org, ramai rajul! masya Allah~~~ ni baru kt SATA. bukan kt polytechnic! klw kt polytechnic nanti macamane?????????????????????? lagi byk ujian...hari2 kena uji.......hari2 ada fitnah mata....... Ya Allah~~~~~~~ berikanlah aku kekuatan!

ish~ me takut ar...me risau klw me akan terkena panahan 'cinta monyet' masa kt polytechnic nanti~~ risau sgt2! me pon risau klw my haya' level berkurangan bila kt sana nanti... me risau me gagal jaga akhlak...

if i want to be myself, as you all know, 'myself' is gila2, happy2, straightforward.. tp, how can i be myself with rajul around, when 'myself' may potray me as a girl with low-akhlak?!

ok.ok. me dah penat menulis...sampai sini je lah cerita hari ni..

oh! medical report akan siap within 3-4 days...so, in the meantime, im gonna fill all those enrolment forms, and then next week, im gonna submit them with the medical report.. =)

little cousins

hey there, people!

one school holiday week has come n gone. and i've got pictures for you to feast your eyes on =) i mean, the pictures are not really a big deal. i just want to show them to you.

the whole week has been ok. lots of watching tv and eating. i stayed at my aunt's house for 6 days straight! just me, aqila, nenek and irfaan. ibu, farah, sabrina n farzana pergi pekan baru, so aqila n i were supposed to accompany nenek, who was a bit ill - headache mostly. irfaan mmglah boleh jaga nenek, tapi nenek tk lah keseorangan sangat...

niwei, farah, sabrina n farzana are my favourite cousin *smiles* irfaan plak...err.. entah eh. tk berbual dgn dia pon! nk kata, keluarga arwah cik mamat (my uncle) is my favourite relative ar...

yang kt sebelah ni namanye nur farzana. dia K1 tahun ni.. gempal kan? hehe...gempal2 pon, attitudenye cute! hahaha~~ klw berbual, siap gunekan 'i' 'you'! me pon terikut2 jugak! ramai org cakap yg farzana mirip arwah cik mamat.. mata, muka.. yep! nak kata, dia penghibur hati dlm keluarga..me pon suka main2 dgn dia..hehe~

ok, yang sebelah farzana is nur sabrina. primary 3. me ingat lagi..ada satu incident tu, masa tu sabrina masih baby lagi, me pulak 7-8 tahun gitu.. me tgh 'jaga' sabrina dlm bilik, n then, i must've let go of her or something, jadi sabrina jatuh! terhentak floor! fuyo~ menangis lah baby tu!! you know what i told ibu? "dia terjatuh sendiri.." aiya~ tknk bertanggungjawab eh, liyana? bohong lagi! kecik2 dah tipu! niwei, ibu tk suspect me..*rasa guilty lah pulak skrg nie*














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any schools in mind??

i have an announcement to make:

i've been accepted to TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC, in BIOMEDICAL SCIENCE DIPLOMA COURSE!

before you think that im rolling off my chair, jumping up and down, all-excited, well, let me tell you this: YOU ARE WRONG.

from the day i heard the machine-operated voice (from MOE hotline) telling me where im posted to until now, im still not looking forward to start my life as a biomed sci dip student. BUT, im sure getting excited thinking about all the CCAs and activities that i can join in TP!

you see, my whole 10 years in alsagoff never involved any CCAs. well, excluding dozens of competitions that i had participated lah..and the short stint as a member of the so-called art-and-craft club..! the school had tried to start a few CCAs and maintain them, but it just didnt work: limited time, limited people with real talents and enthusiasm!

so, the fact that a polytechnic life will give me loads of chances to try new stuffs is what is keeping me happy and contented.

yeah...i guess im trying to make myself happy - distracted - by thinking about CCAs... and not thinking about the subjects that im going to learn for the next 3 years and about the bi'ah and ikhtilat...

oh! let me tell you what i had actually picked and put in the JAE form: (choice of courses)

1. biomedical science (SP)
2. biomedical science (NP)
3. biomedical science (TP)
4. molecular biotechnology (NYP)
5. chemical and pharmaceutical technology (NYP)
6. bioelectronics (SP)
7. business administration (SP)
8. business studies (NP)
9. applied food science and nutrition (TP)
10. accountancy (SP)
11. accounting and finance (TP)
12. tampines junior college (science)

hmmm...as i looked at this list again, i kinda realised that i would be happier and satisfied if i had got into any of the 4th-12th choices... the first three was, i had to admit, for the sake of my parents. they want me to take biomed sci, they want me to be a doctor, or a scientist, "doktor hafizah"... while the 4th to the 11th choices, i chose them for my own self. i would even like to try business or accountancy.. they really sound and look interesting you know! something different from the science field. as for the 12th choice, TPJC...haha! it was nothing serious. it's not as if i really want to go to JC.. perhaps, of course, if there were a 'tutup aurat' JC, i would be vying for a spot! =p

hmmm...but if i were to go to a JC, i'd like to take the arts stream. unsuprisingly, my dad would want, or using a better word - "suruh", me to take the science stream...alahai~~~ it's just that economics, history and geography seem more attractive than triple science! and i surely dont want to memorize all the weird terms and names, plus the long and complicated facts! but, shh! im not going to tell that to my dad!

b.i.o.m.e.d.i.c.a.l. s.c.i.e.n.c.e. >> mmMmMmmm... bukanlah me tak nak langsung, atau tak minat langsung nk belajar dlm course tu... in fact, me dah siang2 pilih biomed sci in poly... maksud 'siang2' tu time menengah 3/4.. yelah, masa tu kononnya, suka sangat nk belajar science. nak jadi scientist, nk buat research, nk buat a 'breakthrough in the science world'...HAH! as if! tapi, lately (since late 2005).. i began to have doubts, second-thoughts about my all-this-time-good impression of the biomedical science field.. i began to question my real interest, which i think i have none.

and then again, maybe i wasnt excited about going to TP at first because i failed to get into SP or NP... TP sounds foreign to me. i havent been to its ground. i just didnt expect i will go there. not to worry though, the disappointment is wearing off. i dont care now.

my teachers expect me to pursue my studies in the religious field. i bet my relatives do too. because i would shine and do well in that area. because im a pearl too precious to be taken to the other sea (haha..im exaggerating now! jgn layan!)... well, simply said, i'll feel safer there.

so, im caught in the middle: nak sambung ukhrawi dulu ke duniawi? nak ikut cakap ayah ke cakap guru? diri sendiri plak mcmane?

solat istikharah? dah buat....tapi, tiba2 me terfikir: solat aku diterima ke????? entah2 solat aku tk ok, sebab tu smpi skrg masih blur2 lagi! haiz~~ atau mungkin aku sengaja buat2 tk tau, sedangkan sebenarnya Allah dah tunjukkan jalannya?!

jadi apakah jalan seterusnya? ke manakah harus aku melangkah?

thinking back, i dont want to go to KUIS, coz i worry that my friends will be overshadowed by me. i dont want to go to wak tanjong either, because of that same reason. maarif... well, klw masuk maarif, nanti options jurusan kt univesity terbata, unless i take extra subjects, which means sacrifices on time and money.

so, in polytechnic, i will be by myself. alone. for the first time in ten years. hazimah kt republic poly. walaupun kita berdua sahaja yg masuk poly, masing2 akan meniti kehidupan sendiri2... bukannya sama sekolah! i will start a new life there, i guess. make new impressions, make new friends, meet new people, face new challenges, face a new environment... i hope i can survive this and emerge victorious and successful at the of the day. we'll see...in 3-years' time.

of course, maybe i will regret the lack of knowledge in the religious field, thinking of what i would have gained and achieved if i had gone to KUIS...

sebenarnya, me nk belajar al-quran dan sunnah. pilihan kedua ialah dakwah, dan yg ketiga: tahfiz wal qiraat. klw ada double diploma lagi bagus. boleh me ambil perbankan islam, pengurusan perniagaan atau ekonomi kt KUIS.

oh! back to solat istikharah... selain solat istikharah, mmglah me ada berdoa... الدعاء سلاح المؤمن ... dan hati me dah terbukak nk terima polytechnic, ayah pon dah terbukak hati (klw tidak, ayah tk plan for me to go to polytechnic)....me pon asyik terfikir2 pasal polytechnic, walaupun kadang2 tu terfikir pasal KUIS plak....dari ini semua, me yakin polytechnic adalah pilihan Allah buat me..... klw poly bukan jawapannya, masakan me akan terfikir2 pasal poly, hati me lebih condong pada poly??? but i still pray, and pray, and pray..that im not making the wrong move. that i wont regret my decision later.


ok, as im writing this......... im sealing my final decision: im going to go for polytechnic.



"Ya Allah~ kuatkanlah diriku. jika ini jawapannya, maka tetapkanlah hatiku, jauhkanlah aku dari rasa ragu2, agar aku tidak berubah hati, agar pendirianku tidak goyah dgn kata2 orang lain. tetapi jika ini bukan jawapannya, tunjukkanlah aku jawapan yang sebenar dgn segera, ya Allah... kerana masa semakin singkat...aku takut, aku takut aku akan menyesal dan rugi kelak.... maka pimpinlah aku, ya Allah......."

i deserve that! (part2)

ISLAMIC RELIGIOUS KNOWLEDGE paper 1 - hmmm...i cant remember much about paper 1.. really. all i know is i didnt do very well in it. there were 4-8 questions, i think, that i had troubles figuring out the answers, or fishing out the answers from the depth of my head! maybe at some points, i created my own answers using my own logic and knowledge.

oh well, teachers and friends had told me to write the answers succinctly, straight-to-the-point, according to the questions. yeah, that's the main rule when you do the IRK papers. i dont know, maybe i did cross the line a bit and write unnecessary stuff, not that i would be aware of it, coz who knows which points are necessary, and which arent, to the examiners!

ISLAMIC RELIGIOUS KNOWLEDGE paper 2 - you know, i never did finish the IRK sec4 book. (fyi, there are 2 books, green - sec3 and blue - sec4). i didnt even touch the 4 caliphs part, let alone the umaiyyah and abbasiyah period. haha.. so i had to rely on my knowledge from my thick islamic history school book. the problem is, my school book covered more info than the IRK books. that was where the cofusion comes in; which info is in the IRK books and which isnt. mixed up!

needless to say, i was kind of panic on the night of the IRK exam. another minus point was that the exam was on the second day of hari raya!! so i brought my IRK book along with me on the first hari raya day. but there wasnt much privacy or time to read the book peacefully or memorize the facts. so in the end, it was only the morning of the exam that i was able to sit down and force the facts into my head, in approximately 5 hours! can you imagine memorizing 206 pages of info in 5 hours??? not that i managed to, of course. i didnt even get to re-read the 1st book too! so i only hoped that i wouldnt forget whatever i had learnt in the 1st book, hoped that my memory was still good.

anyway, suprisingly - again! - IRK paper 2 was a breeze. alhamdulillah~~ i wouldnt say it was a totally, absolutely smooth ride. but it was definitely better than paper 1. the only thing that set me back was the worry that i might have gotten a question mixed up. the question was about 'sunat-sunat aba'adh', but long after i had finished the paper, i thought, "eh! alamak! me tulis pasal sunat2 aba'adh ke hai'aat??!! oh no!"

even though i never like doing essay questions, i like getting all the points in. i like the feeling of completing the question with points and examples, in paragraph and neat writing. of course, by the end of the paper, my palms were all sweaty, hands tired. but i thought it was worth it. =)

expectation: at least, A2.
what i got: suprise, suprise! i got B3. disappointing huh?

comments: i acted as if i didnt care getting a B for IRK. many people are suprised, of course. me, top student, got B for IRK??? what had she done? written lengthy answers to show off her knowledge? hmmm... i didnt know whether my paper 2 was the cause, or paper 1. but i had thought that i did well in paper 2. i hope you're not calling me 'over-confident' ok? coz i am NEVER over-confident. over-confidence scares me, so sometimes i even try not to be confident!

so, my advice for those who want to take IRK is, READ THE IRK BOOKS NOW! not on the night before the exam! that would be...SUICIDAL! haha. plus, take note of the definitions and procedures of things, eg. fardhu kifayah, fardhu ain, manasik haji..all the rukuns and sunats, syarats etc etc..better memorize them..what is takwa? what is al-sirat?..apakah perbezaan solat jumaat dgn solat lima waktu?...apakah sumbangan umar semasa beliau menjadi khalifah?..apakah denda2 yang dikenakan bg kesalahan2 yang dibuat semasa haji?..riwayat hidup harun al-rasyid...all these, you must know and memorize, or at least, understand.. it's not that difficult! in fact, you CAN score A1 for IRK easily, provided if you read the books and understand and remember the facts. some of the facts are written in point forms..so it's easier..

what else? hmmm...oh! stick to the question. =) dont get far-fetched or anything. and please write neatly and clearly. and not-too-long paragraphs!

yep. i guess that's all.

oh! and maybe you'd like to test yourself. ask a friend to help you: he/she ask you questions, and you answer; it'll be like a quiz. that was what i did. plus, you can also get a group of friends to discuss the subject. do practice sheets n mock exam papers.

yeah...so if you have other questions or doubts, just email me ok? i'll try my best to help you. =)

*hmm..im still not ok with my IRK result. i strongly believe i can do better. so, im thinking of re-taking it. but i still havent discussed with my parents. i bet they wont encourage me to re-take the subject. waste of time and energy, the might call it. hmm..if im not allowed to re-take, i can do nothing but accept my current result. i think i can live with it..sigh~*

i deserve that! (part 1)

hey there. the o level result was more than 2 weeks ago - and the exam itself was 4 months ago - and it's only now that im going to share with you what i got for 0 level 2005.

ARABIC paper 1 - the language centre where we sat for that paper was packed with madrasah students.. personally, i was glad coz i got to meet my other madrasah friends; a few of them whom i had not seen for quite a long time. anyway, problems are always around, and at that time, it was the arabic letter format. so many 'versions': the wehdah's version, the mwti's version, our arabic textbook's version, our teacher's version.. needless to say, it was quite confusing. and at one moment we remembered the format, the next moment we forgot. then we had to remind each other the format.. really really cumbersome!

i chose to write a letter for section A. i had no other choice! i didnt really know the dialogue and report format. during all those arabic periods in alsagoff, we focused mainly on letter-writing, not dialogue, not report.

اكتب رسالة الى اخيك الذى يدرس فى الخارج لتهنّئه على نجاحه فى امتحاناته

Write a letter to your brother who is studying abroad to congratulate him on his success in his examinations.

the letter was ok i guess. except for good vocabulary, i think my content was good.

the topic that i chose in section B was difficult though. i didnt want to do narrative nor descriptive, so i settled on..err..im not sure in which category the title is, expository or argumentative..you decide yourself.

فى رأيك ما تأثيرات التلفاز فى مجتمعنا؟

What according to you is the influence of television on our society?

haha. i thought i'd be mature in this. i thought i could write a good essay, a sec-4 standard essay. but i was wrong! i didnt know (or maybe forgot) simple words like actors and host! i even forgot what 'media massa' is in arabic!!! really, man! i hate it when i forgot important words at the very moment that i needed them! it was like my brain became totally blank or something! about the content part, i dont know.. in my opinion, it wasnt enough.

so, i thought i had blown my arabic paper 1. and thus, thinning my chances of getting a nice A for Arabic.

ARABIC paper 2 - translation and reading comprehension. months before the exam, i was, frankly speaking, jealous of those wehdah kids with their quite-thick vocabulary and translation books. plus those kids in ust zauwiah's IRK class, in which ust zauwiah had taken an extra mile to help them with Arabic too. whereas i, not a wehdah kid and not in ust zauwiah's class, thought i've got less 'materials' and that they have better chances of scoring the translation part than me. sad case huh? pathetic! i know i should've helped myself more, 'usaha lebih'..pandai2 ah..

suprisingly, i found the translation part easy! yes, easy indeed! of course, there were words that i didnt know their meanings, but it was all ok. 'عقدا' ' الماس' 'جوهرات' ' قبعة'... 'meditating', 'extraordinary powers', 'acquired', 'ferryman'...all these words i had trouble with, trying to decide which word translates each of them best. plus, i found the two short passages (one is to be translated into English, the other Arabic) interesting and funny! =)

and all those times i did comprehension practices and exams in alsagoff, what i did was totally 'un-sec4': cut and paste, it had become a habit. though i usually scored high for my Arabic paper in school, i did feel i twang of guilt whenever i scanned through the comprehension part.

but i knew better than to 'cut and paste' in Arabic paper 2 comprehension. it was quite hard to rearrange the words, or sometimes use the 'mufradats' (kata seerti) - as my arabic vocab was quite poor - so it would look as if i didnt cut and paste the answers.

the comprehension passage was interesting too! it was about a man who cheated on his friend, who had asked him to keep his basket of olives while he was away for 7 years. there were 'جنيهات' of gold under the olives. and when the man found them, he took and hid them away and replaced the now rotten olives with new ones. i wont tell you what happened next; guess it yourself! hehe~

expectation: i hoped for, at least, B3.
what i got: A1! A1! A1! masya Allah, subhanallah!! i was very happy indeed!