i've so much to say, so much to say, so much to say.

but i dont want to write. i want to talk. say it out loud --

i am distracted again. i hate it when it happens. my focus slips.

it causes me to stop writing. coz i feel that i am writing for someone else.

thus i want to see someone. i want to see them.

to tell them, to tell them, to tell them

these feelings of mine

the happiness that's seeping through
the joy
the worry that's gripping me
the sadness
the anxiety that's paralysing
the fear
the excitement that's making me dizzy with ecstacy
ohh.. all these feelings - and more!
they are just, extraordinary;

make me human.

i want to see you. i want to see all of you.

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i am afraid of the moments when i get distracted

let me be brave. let me forget. let me go.

i dont want to be distracted.

i want to be free.

not you.

not you.

not yet.

God, help me.