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hmm...when i see some of the my friends' faces..there! ..sadness..regrets..self-pity all jumbled up! but..WHAT WERE THEY THINKING BEFORE ALL THIS???!!! DONT U PEOPLE THINK?! THINK??! it's typical...i'm just clueless... look at Kamaliah..she didn't even show her regret...she might be a strong person inside, i wouldn't know!..but i've been watching her all these years...she's wasting all her energy into something else...she has the talents..but she lets it gathers dust inside the attic of her head! ok, i admit..maybe she has talents somewhere else..like writing song lyrics..but she shouldn't fool around...
soem students just don't care...whereas I..could just cry thinking of my studies...even if i just flop a bit..or when i think of the future...what lies behind the veil of time??...i guess that i'm striving so hard for perfection..well, not entirely...but i REALLY want to prove that i can..hmm~~~ i feel heavy now..
there's a lot to do now...i'm representing my school in the kuiz at aljunied..but i'm just the reserved player...n the other team members - kak shahidah,kk na'imah and kk hazwani - are working together w/o me..i can feel it..i know that they might blame me for being arrogant or reluctant to discuss w/ them..but i see IT on kk shahidah's expression...like just now, at school..i thought they haven't split up the subjects...but they have,actually, excluding me... oh man! i feel like an outcast..! HELLOOO!!i'm trying to work with u guys here!!so dont discriminate me,ok??!! we've got a mega important job to do!! we have to win this!! so, cooperate ok??!!
for ur info, our school is a two-time winner..2002 n 2003..so, this year, if we win, we'll take the CUP home...to alsagoff... sigh~~~ burden..buden..! remember that i once said there's a price for being the top girl in school??? well, this is just one of them...of coure, it's a pleasure to 'mengharumkan' nama madrasah..but...if u know what i mean..well, good! i dont want to explain...
ok lah..i've got to go now...nak solat asar ah...see u later! adios!