saturday 170704

i was out from 7-something am to 12:20 am....n i was sooooo tired!!!!! wonder what the heck i did n where i went??? LONG STORY... i shall tell u the simpler facts...

pagi: gi wak tanjong, ade musabaqah tahfiz kt sane..actually i wasnt the supporter...tp dtg je..nk ambik gmbr ah konon..lgpon byk gak mmbrs kt sane.. alsagoff dpt saguhati je.. suhaila watib n sukainah.. tk pe ah.. byk gak yg masuk tu bebudak tahfiz.. either represent sekolah or pusat tahfiz.. kk halimah n kk izzah dpt 1st n 2nd respectively dlm category C.. kk mardhiah wakil mwti dpt first, satu walad (mane ntah?!) wakil pusat tahfiz dpt 2nd in category B - suhaila masuk kt group tu jgk. category A..ntah tk ingat...
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tghari skit: dr mwti terus gi mjd alkaff kg melayu @ bedok reservoir.. me masuk prdn sajak kt sane..w/ 4 more schmates.. kesian gak tgk majlis tu..mcm pathetic gitu..bukan ape ah..tp madrasah sepenuh mase yg masuk cume als je.. the rest 2 dr mjd ansar, 1 (in a group) dr mjd alkaff sndiri... the theme is RASULULLAH INSAN PILIHAN.. i made my poem the night b4 saturday..tu pon tk teratur..so mase kt waktan, kelam kabut refinish sajak tu..tp klw kite menghayati..sng ah nk hafal..but when i went up the stage..i forgot 70% of my line..abes tonggang terbalik! but u noe what??? me JOHAN.. sungguh tk sangke.. alsagoffians yg lain dpt saguhati.. REALLY MAN! i was ready for my name to be called as the saguhati winner..of course i would be VERY disappointed..i recited my peom badly, so i expected the worst!...happy tu happy ah :) alhamdulillah peeks

ptg: dr mjd alkaff terus gi sekolah...waduh!! habes duit ezlink aku! nmpk sir kamar kt carpark...earlier die pon ade kt mjd..ish~ sir gi ckp congratulation kuat2! so ade gak ah bebudak yg nmpk trophy tu.. kelam kabut me gi office..met with ust kamsinah n cikgu katijah n ust faridah...semue HAPPY! ari tu sume me sorang je mng something yg boleh dibanggekan...but u know what??? I FEEL embarrassed..stupid i think..coz it's just a small comp..it wasnt a big victory.. klw inter-mad besar2an tk pe jgk! ust katijah pon nk suro amek gmbr! so teacher ain ambikkn kt musolla..some of my friend nmpk... N I REALLY REALLY DONT WANT THEM TO THINK THAT IM RIAK OR THAT I WAS SHOWING OFF... though i had to admit, ade jgk sekelumit rase bangge... ASTAGHFIRULLAH...ya Allah..limaza syu'uury kazalik???

mlm: mjlis maulud...kene jage budak drj 3 & 6a, men satu, 3 n 4... leceh ah..! anyway..i didnt even do my job! just lepak duduk2 je kt situ buat keje sndiri..klw kelas bising, gasak ah! this time, biar colleagues lain do the work..im mood-less, energy-less to care about my duty...naseb baik ade lg 1 thn, 3 mjlis yg nk kene jage..bagus bagus! peeks

by 1030pm, my bored sad annoyed sad the usual mood datang... dah penat dah..mjlis abes..took my cup n sijil from office..balik w/ mum n aqila.. i think the cause was that ust zawiyah said to me,"kenape awk sibuk2 kt sini?! awk bukan jamuan khas kn? dah, keluar, keluar!" though i sense that she was joking, i felt a sting inside me.. mase tu maseh ptg..me tolong uruskn suji..then me masuk ah..kepo2 kt bilik jamuan khas tu..nk tgk makanan..(YUM!)..mayb i lingered there too long! haiz~ kt intonasi ust pon mcm ade sindiran..perasaan tk suke..etc..kinda hit me..but i just showed an amused expression..like i enjoyed the so-called joke!

terpikir tk: liyana tk mkn ke?? haiz~ lapar tu lapar gak! tp kt waktan mkn nasi..i ate alone..like some outcast!..kt mejid alkaff ade diberi karipap at the end of the event..tp tk smpt mkn ar.. sampai sekolah jek..ade murtabak..even though i didnt do my job of cleaning the class..mkn je ah! ;P rezeki oii! actually, i wanted to rase mknn kt jamuan khas tu..but i didnt have the nerve..dunno y..

k ah...dah pnjg nah nie..skjp2 save..takut comp stuck!