tale told

i wrote the account below in the mrt.. monday 130704 1700H

lepas satu, satu! dah satu, dua! lepas two, tige! haiz~ mcmanelah aku nak hidup!!! klw hidup pun asyik rush aje! you know wat i mean?

yelah, thn nih mcm2 bende ana masuk! first, bahas then prdn current affair & bahase...dah tu kuiz ste...lepas nih essay writing..muke aku lagik!!! argh! mintak2 lah peraduan syarahan @ alsagoff i wont be selected. PENAT ah! org nk relax pon susah!haiz~ pelajar2 lain pon, nnti ape plak diorang kate! ye tk?? lepas tu, tahun dpn klw tkde aral..kuiz STE 2005 kelibat aku lagi, mungkin jgk bahas PBH2005!

i dunno man..klw bagus tk pe jgk! masalahnye, im not THAT GOOD! im not what most people think i am..! bahas me blabbered, yg kuiz c.a.&bahase tu soalan2nye ngarutz..so it didnt really test my ability! kuiz STE..I DIDNT DO A DAMN THING!!! i just sat there..supporting my team..so when we won..i feel that i dont deserve it..mcm tk fair gitu i got the plaque, money n attention when i only contributed 6-8 marks! dah lah tk blajar! so the SATISFACTION's not there! aaah! tk tau ah camne nk ckp lgk! dont u people understand???!!!

ESSAY-WRITING COMP???!! yeah, right! as if i could pen my lousy ideas into sensible sentences within 1 1/2 or 2 hours! it's IMPOSSIBLE! even if i manage to do it, it'll be a boring n content-less one! i've had my experiences!

BUT WHY DO THEY CHOOSE ME??! i feel so inferior rite now..so powerless..feel like a hyprocite.. making people believe that i'm the clever one when im 10000 mile far from that fact!... as always..im not good enough..im not the brilliant n genius one as they think..im just a drop of water molecule in an ocean of more intelligent n superior community! im so dumb, ignorant, compared to ri, rgs, and other students out there, who get straight A's, who made a difference to their people, who get first class honours in their ceritificates, who cud contribute creative ideas, innovative, productive, who are aware of their surroundings n the big world!

on the contrary, im just a lazy girl, SLEEPYHEAD, so-called excellent student @ MAA, using up my energy for things that dont really matter, taking The GIFT for granted! n my marks are just 85%..!

haaaaiii..dah ah, me stop sini je..a'kum!

signing off, liyana @ 5:23pm

what a confession, huh?! n did i tell u: im sick in the head?