busy, no?

today n yesterday were a waste of my already-wasted life! (exaggerate a bit, ya?)
but prisma stuff kept me a bit busy. good thing.
speaking of prisma, im leaving my post soon... thinking about it makes me sad.. i wish i could have accomplished more, made students n teachers more happy, bla..bla..bla.. well, the point is, im still not satisfied with the achievements n changes that this session's team had successfully done! there are many rooms for improvement..many mistakes n drawbacks that need to be fixed...many things to be standardised n organized...bla..bla..bla.. n i dont think i've equipped the next 'generation' with enough knowledge n preparations to continue prisma's quest. but i do have faith that everything's gonna be ok.
back to my schedule...the exams are getting nearer..n im still not ready! other than that, i have to start on my text, but i haven't settled on a topic yet! *shivers*
i expect the june holidays to be a busy one for me...it looks like i have to draw a timetable every single day..*sigh*
anyway, tomorrow >> The White Paper. im not going to like it. im going to get angry, sad, regretful, disappointed et cetera, et cetera... but hey, what's done is done, i cant let those negative feelings get better of me.. i guess i'll try harder next time..
honestly, i dont think i would reach my goal, that is, to leave this school with a 'mumtaz syaraf'..seeing my results as it is right now, i know i dont have the chance, unless i pull myself up (or torture myself, as a desperate measure!) n really score my academic section for the first time..
ok people, i'll stop here. so much for my confessions ya? by the way, did i tell you that im sick in the head n the heart?