only He knows... [edited]

god knows..only god knows
me

God knows how nervous i was
God knows how unprepared i was
God knows how, in a split second, everything became blank
God knows how embarrassed i was
God knows how ashamed i was
God knows how i wished i could turn the time back
God knows how regretful i am
God knows how sad i am
God knows how angry i am
God knows how sorry i am
God knows how guilty i am
God knows how embarrased i still am
God knows how i blame myself
God knows how tangled up my feelings and thoughts are
God knows how hard im trying to get over this (it)
i know that God knows what is best for me
and i believe (trust) in Him