"I may be valuable. But I am not indispensable."


Lately I have been saying this to myself when at work. I still can't make up my mind whether to stick around, or move on.

childhood songs (part 2)

Mula-mula, dengar lagu Hanzalah nyanyian Rabbani kat Youtube. Kemudian, klik lagu nyanyian Nadamurni. Live performance. Allah..! Dengan jubahnya, serbannya, mata yang bercelak.. itulah trademark rijal Arqam dulu, kan? Walaupun kite masih kecil mase tu.. memori ni tetap ada. Bila tengok video tersebut tadi.. terdetik kat hati, "alangkah sopan dan cermat penampilan mereka!" Sejuk mata memandang, kan?

Selepas tu, klik pautan2 lain pula. Terjumpa lagu ini -


Kegelapan Malam - Nadamurni

Sangat-sangat nostalgic! Rasanya, tak pernah dengar lagu ni selain dari kaset. Kite ingat lagi, kite ada kaset lagu2 dari Arqam, termasuk Nadamurni. Tapi dah lamaaa hilang entah ke mana. Kalau jumpa pun, bukannya boleh dengar, sebab kat rumah takde cassette player. Jadi, boleh dikatakan, tak dengar lagu ni sejak 13-14 tahun yang lalu. Reaksi bila dengar lagu ni kat Youtube, setelah sekian lama? Something immediately clicked! "Oh..Ohhh..Ohh!! Ni dia..! Pernah dengar!"

Terharu kite tau! Dapat jumpa balik lagu2 ni semua.. sebab masa kecil dulu kite sukerrr dengar.. sedap! Dan bila dah besar ni, baru lah dapat dengar betul2 dan hayati liriknya ^_______^


Rindu - Nadamurni


Pemimpin Tiga Darjat - Nadamurni

Tak lupa juga lagu2 daripada Soutus Sofwa~ Senarai lagu2 mereka dengan kemudahan 'download' ada kat laman ni http://elfaizi.blogspot.com/2010/04/soutus-sofwa.html (kepada saudara Zulhafizi yang mengumpulkan info ini, jazaakallah!)

Required document.

I have found a course which I reeeeeaaaalllyy think is suitable for me! But!


Hmmmmm.... I do not have a mahram who is a student or applicant from that university. Takde chance ah ni ='(
And if you see point #5.. My time is running out lah, can?
Allah.. ujian.. ujian..

Saya rindu nak ke sini...
InshaAllah, soon!

Never heard of 'Hair Brushing Syndrome'

Tak sangka penyakit macam gini pun wujud!

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No Rapunzel, schoolgirl may die if she combs her hair


London, Aug 18 (IANS) A schoolgirl in Scotland has a rare condition following which she has been asked not to comb her hair too vigorously as it could lead to her brain shutting down.

Megan Stewart, 13, has a rare condition - Hair Brushing Syndrome - which means she must avoid wearing polyester or touching balloons. Any contact with electrical charges could confuse her brain into switching itself off or sending signals to her heart and lungs to make them do so, Daily Express reported.

Stewart has to dampen her hair to reduce static and lie down before combing it and is banned from participating in school science experiments.

The teenager, from Wishaw, Lanarkshire, Scotland was diagnosed three years ago, after she collapsed as her mother -Sharon brushed her hair.

Her mother Stewart, 41, said: 'I was brushing her hair when she flopped over and her lips turned blue. I thought she was having a fit, so we called the paramedics. It was really scary.'

The girl was taken to a hospital where medics revived her. It was two months later that neurologists made the diagnosis.

Doctors at the Royal Hospital for Sick Children at Yorkhill in Glasgow, believe birth complications may be responsible for the condition.

She also suffers from asthma and dorsal stream dysfunction, a problem with the connection between her eye and brain which means she can't see fast-moving objects.

But the determined girl says: 'I know not to brush my hair too fast and if I feel unwell to stop doing it. I think I know what my limits are. I don't let it affect me and I can still live a normal life.'

My first time..

To LDMM's Art Studio at Bukit Timah Shopping Centre



It was national day and Abang, kak Maya, Aqila and I were on our way to our cousin's place for Iftar. Kak Maya had to drop by her workplace to take something. Since I had not yet seen it (the rest of the family have, except Ayah), I followed her. It was my first time stepping to Bukit Timah Shopping Centre as well. Bila dah masuk, I thought "ohhhh... begini rupanya!" Not a place for retail outlets. I saw maid agencies, a pedicure/manicure shop, a shop selling shoes. I think ni memang tempat untuk service providers (like, renovation companies, music school..) and stockists.

I like the ambience of the studio very much! Even though it is small, it is bright with colourful artworks. Kinda cozy too. I just hope it doesn't get crowded, you know, when students are there.


To a car inspection center at Sin Ming Road



This was 2 days ago. Followed my colleague to inspect her car (but turned out she didn't have to. Just had to pay road tax) en route to Toyogo. Her car is not the blue one by the way. The vid ended abruptly coz a pak cik suddenly appeared from behind and said that I may be caught for taking a video. Yikes! I freaked out and quickly pressed the stop button.

A Sunday in The Lab



This was back in February. Morning of 27th. I think there were 2 things I had to do. But I remember just one - adding antibiotic to the LC3 cells.

By the way, in the video the setting looks very dark and dim, but actually it is not. And there is this one moment where I did not pick the forceps right the first time. Mind you, I was looking into the cameraphone, so I thought I was reaching for the forceps but ter-overshot plak. heh.

After everything's done, I went to masjid Muhajirin for the camp run-through.



There are people who don't have fingerprints? I didn't know that.

A hand with no fingerprints.
The rare condition adermatoglyphia causes people to be born without fingerprints (file picture).

Photograph courtesy Eli Sprecher, American Journal of Human Genetics

Rachel Kaufman

for National Geographic News

Published August 9, 2011

A genetic mutation causes people to be born without fingerprints, a new study says.

Almost every person is born with fingerprints, and everyone's are unique. But people with a rare disease known as adermatoglyphia do not have fingerprints from birth. Affecting only four known extended families worldwide, the condition is also called immigration-delay disease, since a lack of fingerprints makes it difficult for people to cross international borders.

In an effort to find the cause of the disease, dermatologist Eli Sprechersequenced the DNA of 16 members of one family with adermatoglyphia inSwitzerland. Seven had normal fingerprints, and the other nine did not. After investigating a number of genes to find evidence of mutation, the researchers came up empty-handed—until a grad student finally found the culprit, a smaller version of a gene called SMARCAD1. (Get a genetics overview.)

The larger SMARCAD1 is expressed throughout the body, but the smaller form acts only on the skin. Sure enough, the nine family members with no fingerprints had mutations in that gene.

Being born without fingerprints doesn't occur simply because one gene has been turned on or off, Sprecher said. Rather, the mutation causes copies of the SMARCAD1 gene to be unstable.

That mutation is also the first link in a long chain of events that ultimately affects fingerprint development in the womb. The rest of the links in the chain are still a mystery, said Sprecher, of the Tel Aviv Sourasky Medical Center.

(See skin pictures.)

No-Fingerprint Disease Not Harmful

Other inherited diseases that result in a lack of fingerprints—such as Naegeli syndrome and dermatopathia pigmentosa reticularis—are caused by problems with the protein keratin-14.

(Related: "Born Without Fingerprints: Scientists Solve Mystery of Rare Disorder.")

These conditions "manifest not only with lack of fingerprints, but also with a number of other critical features—a thickening of the skin, problems with nail formation," Sprecher said.

By contrast, immigration-delay disease doesn't come with any side effects besides a minor reduction in the ability to sweat. In general, people with the disease "are otherwise completely healthy, like you and me."

By further studying the Swiss family, Sprecher said, it might be possible to solve the mystery of fingerprints overall.

"You go from a rare disease to a biological insight of general importance," he said. "We would never have been able to get to this gene if not for the study of this family."

The fingerprint research was published August 12 in the American Journal of Human Genetics.

From the outermost to the deepest

Oh wow! Simply amazing, what this infographic shows. I love the way all this information is presented. Ilmu baru nih! Among other things - Didn't know one kind of bird can fly above the death zone, and that it takes 18 minutes to boil an egg at Everest's altitude, and that temperature rises as atmospheric pressure increases. Didn't know about Mariana Trench as well.

Read on ok? ^___^

p.s. and, it is my first time coming across ouramazingplanet.com. Some of their contents are interesting!


Our Amazing Planet explores Earth from its peaks to it mysterious depths.
Source OurAmazingPlanet.com, Exploring the wonder and beauty of planet Earth through exclusive news, features and images.
from http://srikandiislamiyyah.blogspot.com/2010/12/ketika-akhwat-jatuh-cinta.html via Marliyana's blog ---

Yang mereka rasakan adalah penyesalan yang amat sangat, atas sebuah hijab yang tersingkap...
Ketika lelaki yang tak halal baginya, bergelayut dalam alam fikirannya, yang mereka rasakan adalah ketakutan yang begitu besar akan cinta yang tak suci lagi...

Ketika rasa rindu mulai merekah di hatinya, yang mereka rasakan adalah kesedihan yang tak terperih akan sbuah asa yang tak semestinya…

Tak ada senyum bahagia, tak ada rona malu…
Yang ada adalah malam-malam yang dipenuhi air mata penyesalan atas cinta-Nya yang ternodai…
Yang ada adalah kegelisahan, karena rasa yang salah arah…
Yang ada adalah penderitaan akan hati yang mulai sakit…

Ketika Akhwat Jatuh Cinta…

Bukan harapan untuk bertemu yang mereka nantikan, tapi yang ada adalah rasa ingin menghindar dan menjauh dari orang tersebut…

Tak ada kata-kata cinta dan rayuan…

Yang ada adalah kekhawatiran yang amat sangat, akan hati yang mulai merindukan lelaki yang belum halal atau bahkan tak akan pernah halal baginya…

Ketika mereka jatuh cinta, maka perhatikanlah, kegelisahan di hatinya yang tak mampu lagi memberikan ketenangan di wajahnya yang dulu teduh…

Mereka akan terus berusaha mematikan rasa itu bagaimanapun caranya…
Bahkan kendati dia harus menghilang, maka itu pun akan mereka lakukan...

Alangka kasihannya jika akhwat jatuh cinta…
Karena yang ada adalah penderitaan…

Tapi ukhti…
Bersabarlah…
Jadikan ini ujian dari Rabbmu…

Matikan rasa itu secepatnya…
Pasang tembok pembatas antara kau dan dia…
Pasang duri dalam hatimu, agar rasa itu tak tumbuh bersemai…
Cuci dengan air mata penyesalan akan hijab yang sempat tersingkap...

Putar balik kemudi hatimu, agar rasa itu tetap terarah hanya padaNya…
Pupuskan rasa rindu padanya dan kembalikan dalam hatimu rasa rindu akan cinta Rabbmu…

Ukhti… Jangan khawatir kau akan kehilangan cintanya…

Karena bila memang kalian ditakdirkan bersama, maka tak akan ada yang dapat mencegah kalian bersatu…

Tapi ketahuilah, bagaimana pun usaha kalian untuk bersatu, jika Allah tak menghendakinya, maka tak akan pernah kalian bersatu…

Ukhti… Bersabarlah… Biarkan Allah yang mengaturnya...
Maka yakinlah... Semuanya akan baik-baik saja…

Semua Akan Indah Pada Waktunya…



very well-expressed. the description is spot-on. Allah.. please strengthen our hearts.
oh. my. god.

i cant believe it.

i just got to know that my TP senior is the cousin of my alsagoff junior who is now in TP.

i dont know why this ticks me off.

i guess it's because my world is getting too small.

singapore is getting too small.

dont tell me, 'it's just a coincidence'. save it.

way too small.

i want to fly away and start afresh somewhere. seriously.





maybe im being overly dramatic.

gotta chill, yo!

(and for the record, this has nothing to do with the senior or junior)

Yeay!!

I have succeeded in rotating the 'Twister in a Bottle' video!

All thanks to an anonymous person who commented on that post. Sorry, Mr Wiredless, I only noticed your comment today (which turned out not to be an spam ad). And I did watch your video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sWZSR11r20Q. I think I get it - spin the top bottle as the water is 'going down' halfway, so the vortex inside increases. Right? Nice!

And thank you, for recommending Corel VideoStudio. I just downloaded it. Will use it to rotate my other videos =)


p.s. I have replaced the original 'Twister in a Bottle' video with the edited one.

Sunset on 18 July 2011

It was 7.38pm. I had returned to the lab after performing maghrib prayer at level 8. After taking my labcoat, I went out to the lift lobby, to go to level 6 cell culture lab. And I saw this.





I stood there in awe. It was just soo.. magnificent! Especially the rays.. Clear cut rays. And the sunset hues - shades of orange, yellow, blue, reddish.. - were... beautiful! I don't know what to say. Several seconds later, I decided to capture it. I want to remember this. And I want to share this with other people. ^________^

I know that recording it with my cameraphone wouldn't show the reeeaall thing, the real burst of colours, but it was the best I got. Nevertheless, I am satisfied.

I am fortunate to have nice sky views from where I am working. If I am in the lab, I can enjoy the view outside the window (like the last two pictures below).. say, when I am washing the labware, or making PBS, or washing my hands, or while wearing my labcoat. If I stand at the small balcony near the lift lobby, I can see Anderson JC, the MRT track.. and yes, a clear view of the sky. I will look up and ponder. and wonder at the beauty of it all. If it's raining hard, whooaa.. what I see is enough to make me shudder. Like this one -






Subhanallah.. Subhanallah..
Just saw kak Ezsra's 'Amazing Borneo' album. wow, wow, and WoW.

Please remind me to propose a climbing expedition to my husband for a couple getaway trip. When the time comes.

Or backpacking to Europe (Eastern Europe, please. Followed by the Scandinavian countries). And perhaps, go down to Turkey and Middle Asia.

I wonder if anyone is up for a two-year break, to be my travel companion (and then live for the rest of his life with me).

That'll be lovely, innit? The ta'aruf curve would be steep. Really get to know this person inside-out through a long rough, tough, challenging-but-worth-it, care-free journey. No, I am not talking about romance plus adventure. I am talking about adventure with a mahram around, to be my leader (sometimes, I need someone to point things to. Help make decisions when I can't. I think I will make a good map reader and a decent navigator, though), laughing buddy (keeping one another sane), motivator (if I am scared to jump off the bridge or cross the freezing cold river), protector (I will be in strange places with strange men!) and a patient friend (when I run out of patience with myself, or accidentally unleash the ogre inside). And my imam, of course (him leading the prayer, reciting the qur'an together, tasmi' one another's memorised verses, fasting together.. now that's romantic sweet!).

Maybe each of us should learn a foreign language or two.

Maybe I should resume TKD as well. You know, self-defence. You can't always depend on your husband, right? I mean, what if he's in the loo and you're out alone? Also, 2 people with fighting skills are better than one, don't you think? Increase the chances of survival. Heh. Just thinking out loud.

Saya mahu sematkan kata-kata ini

Aras tertinggi dalam persahabatan adalah Itsar - melebihkan sahabat daripada diri sendiri. Aras paling rendah pula adalah bersangka baik dan berlapang dada. Andai tiada sangka baik, maka akan musnahlah hubungan persahabatan itu.


mukasurat 231, "Sinergi", oleh Hilal Asyraf, terbitan Galeri Ilmu.
Terasa dekat, kematian itu.

Baru dapat berita daripada mak - sepupu mak, yang lebih muda darinya, meninggal dunia; pukul 10 lebih malam tadi. terjatuh semasa berada di dalam tandas.

Rasa bersalah kalau diri ni rasa gembira, rasa mahu ketawa. sekarang bukan masanya!

Teringat Januari.. nenek Hasnah meninggal dunia. Teringat Januari tahun lalu.. nenek Fatimah meninggal dunia.

Mak terkesima. Liyana pun.

Memang Allah ambil balik nyawa bila2 sahaja.

3 more books to my personal collection

So yesterday I was at the Halal 2011 at Expo hall 5A, and I couldn't resist going to the sale next door, at hall 5B.. which is.. none other than The Popular Book Saleee..!

It was obviously of a smaller scale than the one back in December at Suntec City, but it was fine with me. Here, books were on sale for $10, $15 or 30% off. Most were old titles and non-fiction books. (Oh, there was a section called '10 books for $10', which made me go CraZyy, but only briefly, coz I immediately found out the range of books was not my taste. heh.)

I scoured the tables at the non-fiction books area, hoping to see Greg Mortenson's books or Atlas of the World (like the one offered by The Folio Society, in March's NG mag, which I decided not to buy coz I don't think I will be buying the extra 4 books). But then again, I was not looking for anything specific, really. In the end, I bought 3 books. I must say, I immediately grabbed each one of 'em upon laying my eyes on the title.





2 reference books and 1 is a fiction by Ken Follett. I first heard his name on the Oprah show, when she was recommending The Pillars of The Earth. So at that moment I thought, "wow.. this book must be something." And thus, the author's works must be something too. So I am glad I got my hands on the sequel, despite not having read Pillars. If the story is reeeeaally good, I will let y'all know =)

The other books are about the history of mountaineering and women in history. I have never heard of The Alpine Club before, so I am looking forward to know how it was conceived, who are the people in it, plus the milestones in the field of mountaineering. General knowledge laahh..

The synopsis on the book jacket says that The Alpine Club was the world's first mountaineering club, and is Britain's only national club for Alpinists. Its history is the history of British mountaineering, and its story is the story of those with a passion for adventure who accomplished extraordinary feats againts the odds. Since the Alpine Club was founded in 1857 its members have been at the leading edge of worldwide mountaineering development and exploration.

Historica's Women, I just flipped thru.. I noticed that the 1000 years of history revolved mostly around European/American women. I can understand why this is so - I suppose their records were well-documented, as compared to their Asian counterparts in the same time or era.





Thick, aren't they? I think I will still not finish 'em next March (except for World Without End. hee)

Twister in a bottle

Was looking absently at the PBS with 0.05% Tween being mixed, when I realised that the magnetic stirrer was spinning faster than usual. And, oh! the stirring liquid looks like a twister. But contained in a bottle. *imagine if a real twister hits Singapore! shiverss*


I guess I miss writing in here. I used to write about what I did, what I saw and read, whom I was with, what piques my interest, didn't I? When I was younger.

Now, I don't write. I don't talk. Sometimes, I think I've reduced myself to a silent person. Only sometimes. Coz most of the time, I still enjoy talking with others. Yet most of the time, I prefer to listen.

Days.. months.. have whizzed past me. And I recorded little. 2010 has very few records, but there were quite a few memories. I am sad, because I may lose these memories. I don't know why, but for quite a while now, I feel I should be saving as many memories as I could, as though something would happen to me and I would forget. Or maybe it's because, it has dawned to me that as I age, I will forget certain events that happened in the past - big and small episodes that meant a lot to me once. Or maybe, it's because I don't want my heart to feel empty when I reach 40, 50, 60..

I do not want to forget.

I miss sharing stories and opinions with someone. But I have none. Nothing worthy.

I guess this is what happens when you spend too much time with yourself.
I need to surround myself with soleh people. In soleh environment.