i dont deserve it....

yeah...i think i really dont deserve it! the trophy...i noe it's been about 2 1/2 months..but it's still bugging me.. pembahas terbaik peringkat saringan n suku akhir... no way man...i wasnt good...i blabbered..not debated! well, i ask one of the judges mase prgkt saringan tu..n she said i was spontaneous..even though, of course, my bahase..whatsoever..wasnt that good..! ok, maybe she's right i thought..but wak tanjong lebih baik..super..lebih bertenage drpd pembahas alsagoff.. mase suku akhir.. i actually forgot my speech..n i said something stupid! like ibu emak??? what the heck?! n i didnt even realise i said that until i noticed the penonton had laughed (or i think they did)..n i froze..thinking that i might've said something wrong!..i saw waving hands..my friends trying to correct me..but my view was blurry...i was like, huh??? so i turned to my team members..they said, "ibu bapa..bkn ibu mak!" i didnt get the point, but i repeat it anyway...oh my god! that was sooooo embarrassing..n i ended up getting the title..when kamaliah was definitely better than me..smooth..
n the judge was like, strict?!..his comments mcm terkene grp sendiri sey..n yet..he smiled when i received the trophy from him...yikes! there must be a mistake..but i didnt get to ask him why the panel of judges picked me..instead of..kamaliah maybe?