1. thanks to you-know-who-you-are..your words are prayers...i will be strong, insha Allah~
2. maybe i was a bit over the top in the previous post.
3. i think i cried because i thought i was lousy in sparring, and even kicking. i still am. lousy.
4. i got more bruises today. i think i can handle more of that in the future. right now, im just a little afraid to get hit. n hurt. physically, i mean. *wei! bruises take long time to heal ok? that's why i dont like to get hit! all the pain...aiyo! uncomfortable!..ehem..although sometimes i feel good..weird me huh?* i hope this fear of mine will cease as time goes by (and as i get more skilled and confident)..
5. i-guide camp tomorrow...til this friday. what's 'i-guide'? ans: tour guides during TP open house (19,20.21 january 2007). and i havent packed a thing.
6. NI's Gila2 Sukan last saturday (231206) was....fine. it went smoothly, in my opinion. how about myself? did i enjoy it? well, i didnt join in the fun and games. so yeah, i dont think that question applies to me. anyway, click here for pictures from the event.
7. i still havent started on my leadership and character's individual assignment. we have to do a 800-1500 word essay - or research, whatever you call it - on a movie that we chose from a given list. i chose armageddon. one of the tearjerkers i've seen. no, it's not about movie review. we'll get zero if we do that. our assignment is to observe the leader(s) in the movie, extract 5 learning points from him/her/them, substantiate with reasons and proofs, and personalise the point with our own point of view and experiences. anyway, the assignment is 50 marks and is due less than two weeks.
8. something to share: sometimes we want, hope, or wish for something too much, it hurts.
9. cd-rw drive is up! so i dont need thumbdrive anymore. for now, that is.
10. ok, im already tired. so that's all for tonight's post. thank you for reading this =)
TKD training on thursday, 21 dec 2006
i was kicked.
hit.
smacked.
whacked.
on the right side of my head.
hard.
yep, that's right. you saw those words. i was kicked on my head during sparring with a senior. it was only my second spar.
the feeling?
i just couldnt explain it in words. i just couldnt.
all i know is, i was kind of stunned maybe. my head was like....whoa~! really felt like "a blow on your head"..that kind of thing. you would've imagined that i fell on the floor and fainted. but i didnt.
concussion? i dont even know what it means... but maybe, just a teeny-weeny bit of concussion, dizziness.
the blow affected me emotionally, though. it didnt crack open my skull, but it sure crack whatever emotions that were inside me. like a nutcracker.
the second my head was hit, i felt my tears starting to appear. but i held them fast. acted like everything's ok. i kept my cool alright. i remembered saying something like, "whoa~~ what an experience!" and i started asking questions like, "oh! if we kick on the head, we get more points?" "kicking the head is a very good tactic?" "what must you do to protect your head?" etc etc etc...just to keep my emotions at bay.
n so, i couldnt continue sparring. oh well~
the blow also shut my mood. suddenly, i was speechless (yes! a good word!)... i just sat here, or there, just looking who-knows-where, trying to look as if i was thinking and at the same time, i was calm, as if unaffected.
but cry i did. in the girls' changing room. in one of the changing cubicles. i sat on the floor, with my bottle of cold water, n cried. hypoventilated. talked to myself.
i didnt know EXACTLY why i cried. i honestly didnt. it was as if i was crying over lots of things, or nothing at all. ouh! as im typing this, i feel some sort of a knot around my head - or shall i say, brain? kind of tight. ya Allah~ i hope there's nothing wrong with my head.
in the bus, i cried again. not loudly. the tears just flowed down my cheeks. of course, i covered my face. if not, my friends who sat beside me in the bus would've noticed!
why, why, why did i cry?????
maybe i was angry too. i dont know. i was simply blurred by my own emotions. i didnt even know what they are..
anyway, just cut the crap! i got few pictures from the training =)
enjoy!
hit.
smacked.
whacked.
on the right side of my head.
hard.
yep, that's right. you saw those words. i was kicked on my head during sparring with a senior. it was only my second spar.
the feeling?
i just couldnt explain it in words. i just couldnt.
all i know is, i was kind of stunned maybe. my head was like....whoa~! really felt like "a blow on your head"..that kind of thing. you would've imagined that i fell on the floor and fainted. but i didnt.
concussion? i dont even know what it means... but maybe, just a teeny-weeny bit of concussion, dizziness.
the blow affected me emotionally, though. it didnt crack open my skull, but it sure crack whatever emotions that were inside me. like a nutcracker.
the second my head was hit, i felt my tears starting to appear. but i held them fast. acted like everything's ok. i kept my cool alright. i remembered saying something like, "whoa~~ what an experience!" and i started asking questions like, "oh! if we kick on the head, we get more points?" "kicking the head is a very good tactic?" "what must you do to protect your head?" etc etc etc...just to keep my emotions at bay.
n so, i couldnt continue sparring. oh well~
the blow also shut my mood. suddenly, i was speechless (yes! a good word!)... i just sat here, or there, just looking who-knows-where, trying to look as if i was thinking and at the same time, i was calm, as if unaffected.
but cry i did. in the girls' changing room. in one of the changing cubicles. i sat on the floor, with my bottle of cold water, n cried. hypoventilated. talked to myself.
i didnt know EXACTLY why i cried. i honestly didnt. it was as if i was crying over lots of things, or nothing at all. ouh! as im typing this, i feel some sort of a knot around my head - or shall i say, brain? kind of tight. ya Allah~ i hope there's nothing wrong with my head.
in the bus, i cried again. not loudly. the tears just flowed down my cheeks. of course, i covered my face. if not, my friends who sat beside me in the bus would've noticed!
why, why, why did i cry?????
maybe i was angry too. i dont know. i was simply blurred by my own emotions. i didnt even know what they are..
anyway, just cut the crap! i got few pictures from the training =)
enjoy!
it's about....
- manners and formalities
when i spoke to the speakers, when i addressed other people, when i talked to the officers, when i greeted strangers, i found myself sounding quite formal. mcm professional gitu. eh! im not bragging ok? im stating a point. that the workshop was a good place for me to practise my communication skills with new people - those who are older, or of higher rank, or of same age. ah, yes. today's encounter with people polished my so-called being polite and formal. n manners... penting tau. bile kite masuk working world, bile jumpe org2 baru, penting untuk kite menampilkan imej yg tertib. i mean, to show that kite pon civilised, n we know how to act professionally. saying thank you. speaking good english. listening attentively. smiling to show agreement, approval, respect. responding politely. yeah~ it's good to learn.
- being independent
im happy with myself, for being able to adapt n carry myself throughout the workshop... sebenarnye, me terpikir jugak nak ajak kawan pegi workshop tu. tapi tk kuase nk pikir2 sape. bila tgk peserta2 kt situ, rate2 semue bawak kawan. tapi alhamdulillah~ me tk perlukan kawan to cheer myself up, or to make the workshop less boring. bukan me berlagak sombong, tidak! no! again, im making a point, this time to myself, that i must practise being independent. berdikari. pergi ke tempat2. buat kawan baru. menyesuaikan diri. being independent doesnt mean that im a loner. duh!
- talking confidently
heran jugak bile pikir yang me mampu bercakap dlm bahase enggeris semase group presentation... alhamdulillah~ nasib baik bukan singlish! selalunye, bila berbual dgn kwn2 sekolah...grammar ke mane, vocab ke mane! cakap terbelit2, teragak2! tapi, dlm situasi2 formal seperti membuat presentation, mungkin otak kite kate "ok! kau kena cakap betul2. tk boleh main2. kena tunjukkn yg kau tahu bila nak cakap pasar, bile nak cakap formal"...hah! mungkin tu lah drive yg buat kite present betul2, not just to present ourselves, but to convey the message well. that's my opinion, anyway.
me perhatikan jugak, ade few peserta yg mampu project their voices, and contents, clearly. tampak confident. masya Allah~ bukan semua orang mampu untuk melakukan sebegitu baik. tetapi, yang pastinye, kite semua perlukan practice n more practice. nasib baik jugak me pergi workshop tu. dapat jugak practise my public speaking skill. pokoknye, kite kena cari ways to improve that particular skill. tk boleh nak duduk diam je.
- having choices
yeah, what dr Isa said...that we are spoiled for choice! ah~~ how true that statement seems, how true it really is! but pessimistic that i am, im still not convinced. choices? what choices do i have? what paths and roads to further education are there, lying in front of me?
we do have choices. choices is every aspect/categories/matters in our life. now, that's a fact, eh?
- plans
i realised that plans are important. though sometimes planning takes away more energy than executing. klw tkde perancangan, hidup nie terase messy. tk teratur. dah gitu, silap2 kite naik stress, buntu, bosan dgn hidup kite.
- making a fool of oneself
Ya Allah~~ kenape lah rase malu nie sikit sgt???? but still...ish~ buat malu je kena act jadi cucu nenek mase adegan 'nenek2 tk dpt lari' dlm cerite musang berjanggut. for the sake of being sporting?? tepuk dada tanye selera lah liyana! tapi, diri nie tkdelah rase malu smpi pipi kemerah2an... cuma pusing2 keliling si nenek je... nasib baik jugak rajul2 kt situ semua strangers!
- receiving a namecard
gembire jugak bila dapat namecard dari dr Isa. associate professor lagik. hehe.. bukan ape, nie 2nd time me dpt namecard... yang first punye... haiz~ mmg tk nk pon, tapi kak khadijah kasi jugak, "for future need".. pfft. namecard yg first tu, me stashed ntah mane2 je dlm bag.
- defining one's strength
yeah, so, i've discovered and rediscovered certain things about myself today. i guess, i dont really regret going to the lifeskills workshop after all. today, i noticed more, observed more, learnt more.
what i really want
do you know what i want?
have i ever told you what i want, dream to have, if not completely, then, in bits and pieces?
do you remember?
but,
do i know what i want?
hmmm... honestly, i dont really actually know what i really want. or maybe, i know what it is but am just afraid to admit it, put it on the surface... coz i am just afraid that i might not get it, n i know, or at least, assume, that i wont get it. that it is too far-fetched. yeah~ maybe that's the reason.
what i want, in terms of materialisticity (hah! is there such a word?? hehe..i dont think so. i just made it up. make it sound more bombastic! haha).... well, my birthday's over. but it wont hurt to list few things that are in mind so far, would it?
let me see...
1. thumbdrive. yep. i realised that i need a thumbdrive just a month ago or so. why?? coz my computer has no floppy disk hardware (correct term??)..you know, the part of cpu where we insert the floppoy disk. i was flabbergasted when i found out! all this while, i never even noticed that the floppy disk thingy was missing! to burn my files in cd is also impossible, coz i dont have the cd-rw (or is it cd-wr??) thingy....
2. laptop. i know damn well that it's out of my financial reach. but i would like to have a laptop one day. it really comes in handy when your home pc is being used frequently by other members of your family, or when you dont have the mood to use the computer but actually you have to, just because it's already late at night n you're tired. so, if i have a laptop, i can actually write my assignments and stuff during school hours...rather than at home, around 11pm...12am..1am..
n now, about what i dream to get..to achieve...
hmmm...im a bit embarrassed to write it here... coz it looks a little bit too ambitious...but never mind, coz i've decided to share with you...n to remind myself - if i ever read this entry again in future - what i had wanted during my teen years.
i would like to study in oxford. yes, oxford university. i dont know why. i dont have a concrete reason. well, that's not true. my reason is superficial, really: it is a prestigious university and it sounds old and grand.
or if not oxford, then somewhere in england. or ireland. or scotland. the states? no thanks, harvard and yale have the least appeal to me. plus, they're totally out of my league. princeton? MIT? wow! they are some to-die-for universities huh? but again, im not a genius. and looking at my average intelligence and discouraging attitude, i dont deserve to be enrolled there.
remembering a near past (i mean, something that is not so long ago), i had wanted to do an International Baccaleaurate (i dont know how to spell the second word). and at King Khalid Islamic College of Victoria. oh how i yearned to go there! n i cried thinking, trying to swallow the fact that i cant afford it, n im simply not good enough to be accepted there. yes, the second fact is true. you cant deny it, not you, my friends, not you, my teachers.
im the kind of person who finds it hard to let go of certain things. in this case, dreams or wishes that i had held so long, so dear. n even though getting into oxford seems miles n miles away, i just keep it in my heart. but, i keep it somewhere distant in my heart. coz, i dont want to put too much hope. coz it may hurt me later. furthermore, i may change my mind one day. so, there could be lesser chance that i might get disappointed with myself.
speaking of prestigious universities, let me tell you something about myself: im one of those people who get attracted to things intellectual, or scholarly, if you know what i mean. be it intellectual people, schools/institutions where a lot of intellectuals are found. call me shallow, whatever. i dont care.
i guess, all these popular, prestigious, excellent institutions, which have carved their marks in history, make people want to go there, to be part of them. people like me.
so, schools like RI, RGS, RJC, VJC...i must say, i am sometimes green with envy of those bright students there. not in a negative way..but positive. universities like oxford, cambridge, harvard, MIT,yale, princeton....well, ashamed that i am, these are the only excellent institutions that i know of. i may be blind with these all-too-well-known places. maybe i dont read enough. i must find out more universities that are of great standards n qualities.
oh, n is there an adjective for people like me, as i've described above? mind you, my vocabulary is horrifying, if not embarrassing. for a 17-year-old.
there! i've told you this little wish of mine. =)
but wait, if you ask me, if i cant go to europe, where else do i want to pursue my studies? for now, i choose australia. but i dont know which are the top universities there. n which universities offer the best degree (modules, system, facilities, achievements, etc) in the field that i plan to concentrate in.
to add on what i've already mentioned (that my reason is superficial), i think that as i grow older, more matured, more knowledgeable, more information at hand, i will start to think more than 'old and grand'. perhaps reasons that are more well-rounded, logic, according-to-needs, deep, if you know what i mean.
thinking again, wishing all these may as well be useless if i dont work towards them. i must think about my own capabilities, limitations that i have. shortly, i must think and decide rationally. i wasnt being quite rational when i wanted to go to KKICV. nevertheless, i must work my butt off, all body and spirit, to reach as high as i allow myself to be.
in the end, i must have The PhD. Passion. Hunger. and Drive. for excellence.
have i ever told you what i want, dream to have, if not completely, then, in bits and pieces?
do you remember?
but,
do i know what i want?
hmmm... honestly, i dont really actually know what i really want. or maybe, i know what it is but am just afraid to admit it, put it on the surface... coz i am just afraid that i might not get it, n i know, or at least, assume, that i wont get it. that it is too far-fetched. yeah~ maybe that's the reason.
what i want, in terms of materialisticity (hah! is there such a word?? hehe..i dont think so. i just made it up. make it sound more bombastic! haha).... well, my birthday's over. but it wont hurt to list few things that are in mind so far, would it?
let me see...
1. thumbdrive. yep. i realised that i need a thumbdrive just a month ago or so. why?? coz my computer has no floppy disk hardware (correct term??)..you know, the part of cpu where we insert the floppoy disk. i was flabbergasted when i found out! all this while, i never even noticed that the floppy disk thingy was missing! to burn my files in cd is also impossible, coz i dont have the cd-rw (or is it cd-wr??) thingy....
2. laptop. i know damn well that it's out of my financial reach. but i would like to have a laptop one day. it really comes in handy when your home pc is being used frequently by other members of your family, or when you dont have the mood to use the computer but actually you have to, just because it's already late at night n you're tired. so, if i have a laptop, i can actually write my assignments and stuff during school hours...rather than at home, around 11pm...12am..1am..
n now, about what i dream to get..to achieve...
hmmm...im a bit embarrassed to write it here... coz it looks a little bit too ambitious...but never mind, coz i've decided to share with you...n to remind myself - if i ever read this entry again in future - what i had wanted during my teen years.
i would like to study in oxford. yes, oxford university. i dont know why. i dont have a concrete reason. well, that's not true. my reason is superficial, really: it is a prestigious university and it sounds old and grand.
or if not oxford, then somewhere in england. or ireland. or scotland. the states? no thanks, harvard and yale have the least appeal to me. plus, they're totally out of my league. princeton? MIT? wow! they are some to-die-for universities huh? but again, im not a genius. and looking at my average intelligence and discouraging attitude, i dont deserve to be enrolled there.
remembering a near past (i mean, something that is not so long ago), i had wanted to do an International Baccaleaurate (i dont know how to spell the second word). and at King Khalid Islamic College of Victoria. oh how i yearned to go there! n i cried thinking, trying to swallow the fact that i cant afford it, n im simply not good enough to be accepted there. yes, the second fact is true. you cant deny it, not you, my friends, not you, my teachers.
im the kind of person who finds it hard to let go of certain things. in this case, dreams or wishes that i had held so long, so dear. n even though getting into oxford seems miles n miles away, i just keep it in my heart. but, i keep it somewhere distant in my heart. coz, i dont want to put too much hope. coz it may hurt me later. furthermore, i may change my mind one day. so, there could be lesser chance that i might get disappointed with myself.
speaking of prestigious universities, let me tell you something about myself: im one of those people who get attracted to things intellectual, or scholarly, if you know what i mean. be it intellectual people, schools/institutions where a lot of intellectuals are found. call me shallow, whatever. i dont care.
i guess, all these popular, prestigious, excellent institutions, which have carved their marks in history, make people want to go there, to be part of them. people like me.
so, schools like RI, RGS, RJC, VJC...i must say, i am sometimes green with envy of those bright students there. not in a negative way..but positive. universities like oxford, cambridge, harvard, MIT,yale, princeton....well, ashamed that i am, these are the only excellent institutions that i know of. i may be blind with these all-too-well-known places. maybe i dont read enough. i must find out more universities that are of great standards n qualities.
oh, n is there an adjective for people like me, as i've described above? mind you, my vocabulary is horrifying, if not embarrassing. for a 17-year-old.
there! i've told you this little wish of mine. =)
but wait, if you ask me, if i cant go to europe, where else do i want to pursue my studies? for now, i choose australia. but i dont know which are the top universities there. n which universities offer the best degree (modules, system, facilities, achievements, etc) in the field that i plan to concentrate in.
to add on what i've already mentioned (that my reason is superficial), i think that as i grow older, more matured, more knowledgeable, more information at hand, i will start to think more than 'old and grand'. perhaps reasons that are more well-rounded, logic, according-to-needs, deep, if you know what i mean.
thinking again, wishing all these may as well be useless if i dont work towards them. i must think about my own capabilities, limitations that i have. shortly, i must think and decide rationally. i wasnt being quite rational when i wanted to go to KKICV. nevertheless, i must work my butt off, all body and spirit, to reach as high as i allow myself to be.
in the end, i must have The PhD. Passion. Hunger. and Drive. for excellence.
what matters most in life
it's 12.52 in the morning, according to the small clock on my computer screen.
i guess you might be wondering, what the heck this girl is doing late at night?! well, i must say that this time is actually a good time for me to blog, albeit my eyes are getting uncomfortable staring at the screen. coz, one thing, there's no one to interrupt me. yey.
ok... so, i read kak khadijah's blog just now.... something about being grown up and thinking seriously, pondering about life.
i guess we arent kids anymore huh? living a carefree life? even back then, were we really that happy, having not to worry about stuff?
anyway, i think too. though i dont really do much thinking these days. being caught up in issues this, issues that, i forgot - or shall i say, dont have time - to actually sit and think. i miss that, sometimes. during my secondary school days, if you read my entries from the past years, i think i might have mentioned somewhere that i "think too much it hurts and tires me" or something like that.
n nowadays, whenever my brain's ticking, tocking, i would always forget what it's all about. n i dont get to write my thoughts here, properly.
never mind.
so, about this post's title:
hmmm... i've been questioning myself: what's important in my life? what matters? what is my priority?
n all these all-too-familiar-and-similar questions bring me back to the threshold: what's my purpose of life in the first place?
now that im in a different world in the same world, i couldnt help it but ask myself. n yet again, this important question is always brushed aside. coz i dont seem to care about it. oh! how have i changed!
i still remember, i once wrote in my little orang notebook - now lost - things that matters to me, in order of priority. but now, im not even sure if im holding on to that.
tahfiz.
how shall i put it? im just too embarrassed to admit it. it was once one of the top priorities in my teenage life. it still is. but only a priority. no number this time.
studies.
a friend of mine asked me just now, "have you studied?" and i said, "nope." emotionless. often, i wonder where my spirits have gone.. the happy, excited, always-on-the-go, puntual spirits.. the liveliness. sometimes, i wonder if it has been sapped out of me. because of what? i dare not say.
ahlulquranpts.
ouh~ i feel no spark now. just a little, maybe. where has the good time gone? maybe im such a loser.... a pathetic leader. saying it's a priority, holding on to it. but what good have i done to the group? i had wanted so much to be part of it, but now, i guess, i need to renew my intentions, my enthusiasm.
ccas.
i would like to be a well-rounded student, yes. oh! how i would love to! being able to juggle this, keeping that, doing those. the challenge is good. the experiences are just as well..... though.... i have a feeling it's starting to have a toll on me. n because of it, im jeopardizing my principles, my religion. one that i have held on for sooo long. one that, all these years, has not been tarnished nor tested.
Allah and his Rasul.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...
what can i say, oh Allah?
You know my heart best!
im just afraid that my words would betray me.
im just so.........
shameful.
for not stopping to think.
to thank.
to cherish.
n im just sooo ashamed of what i've become.
so much for declaring that i love Allah and prophet Muhammad!
but what have i done to prove it!
n im not even trying!
n so much for priorities which i cannot hold.
n promises i cannot keep.
i guess, this is how it goes huh? me, getting all emotional, late at night, early in the morning... my tears arent even flowing. you hypocrite!
ok.
let me just get straight to the point.
in life, you must know what you are supposed to do. what you must do. what you need to do. along the middle, it's what you want to do. n somewhere in the back, what you're forbidden to dwell on to.
please, dont read the above paragraph again. coz you will never understand what i just wrote. coz i dont either.
i guess, what matters most in life is living life knowing, always, that you're going to die and meet Him. n then, the question will be, how do you want your end to be? that is, what have you prepared for the next life.
nothing else matters, except...
it's all up to you to decide. me, to decide. what matters to each and every one of us? i bet it's something worldly, something superficial. fake.
n no, i dont really think too much while writing this post. im already sleepy. not much feelings.
so, take no heed to my advice. pay no attention to my latenightearlymorning free talk.
it's all crap.
*im such a pessimist.puncturing my own self-esteem*
i guess you might be wondering, what the heck this girl is doing late at night?! well, i must say that this time is actually a good time for me to blog, albeit my eyes are getting uncomfortable staring at the screen. coz, one thing, there's no one to interrupt me. yey.
ok... so, i read kak khadijah's blog just now.... something about being grown up and thinking seriously, pondering about life.
i guess we arent kids anymore huh? living a carefree life? even back then, were we really that happy, having not to worry about stuff?
anyway, i think too. though i dont really do much thinking these days. being caught up in issues this, issues that, i forgot - or shall i say, dont have time - to actually sit and think. i miss that, sometimes. during my secondary school days, if you read my entries from the past years, i think i might have mentioned somewhere that i "think too much it hurts and tires me" or something like that.
n nowadays, whenever my brain's ticking, tocking, i would always forget what it's all about. n i dont get to write my thoughts here, properly.
never mind.
so, about this post's title:
hmmm... i've been questioning myself: what's important in my life? what matters? what is my priority?
n all these all-too-familiar-and-similar questions bring me back to the threshold: what's my purpose of life in the first place?
now that im in a different world in the same world, i couldnt help it but ask myself. n yet again, this important question is always brushed aside. coz i dont seem to care about it. oh! how have i changed!
i still remember, i once wrote in my little orang notebook - now lost - things that matters to me, in order of priority. but now, im not even sure if im holding on to that.
tahfiz.
how shall i put it? im just too embarrassed to admit it. it was once one of the top priorities in my teenage life. it still is. but only a priority. no number this time.
studies.
a friend of mine asked me just now, "have you studied?" and i said, "nope." emotionless. often, i wonder where my spirits have gone.. the happy, excited, always-on-the-go, puntual spirits.. the liveliness. sometimes, i wonder if it has been sapped out of me. because of what? i dare not say.
ahlulquranpts.
ouh~ i feel no spark now. just a little, maybe. where has the good time gone? maybe im such a loser.... a pathetic leader. saying it's a priority, holding on to it. but what good have i done to the group? i had wanted so much to be part of it, but now, i guess, i need to renew my intentions, my enthusiasm.
ccas.
i would like to be a well-rounded student, yes. oh! how i would love to! being able to juggle this, keeping that, doing those. the challenge is good. the experiences are just as well..... though.... i have a feeling it's starting to have a toll on me. n because of it, im jeopardizing my principles, my religion. one that i have held on for sooo long. one that, all these years, has not been tarnished nor tested.
Allah and his Rasul.
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...
what can i say, oh Allah?
You know my heart best!
im just afraid that my words would betray me.
im just so.........
shameful.
for not stopping to think.
to thank.
to cherish.
n im just sooo ashamed of what i've become.
so much for declaring that i love Allah and prophet Muhammad!
but what have i done to prove it!
n im not even trying!
n so much for priorities which i cannot hold.
n promises i cannot keep.
i guess, this is how it goes huh? me, getting all emotional, late at night, early in the morning... my tears arent even flowing. you hypocrite!
ok.
let me just get straight to the point.
in life, you must know what you are supposed to do. what you must do. what you need to do. along the middle, it's what you want to do. n somewhere in the back, what you're forbidden to dwell on to.
please, dont read the above paragraph again. coz you will never understand what i just wrote. coz i dont either.
i guess, what matters most in life is living life knowing, always, that you're going to die and meet Him. n then, the question will be, how do you want your end to be? that is, what have you prepared for the next life.
nothing else matters, except...
it's all up to you to decide. me, to decide. what matters to each and every one of us? i bet it's something worldly, something superficial. fake.
n no, i dont really think too much while writing this post. im already sleepy. not much feelings.
so, take no heed to my advice. pay no attention to my latenightearlymorning free talk.
it's all crap.
*im such a pessimist.puncturing my own self-esteem*
it's nearly the end of 3rd term.
acknowledgements:
1. ana ucapkan terima kasih kpd kak juwita dan juga ustazah sakinah di atas ucapan hari jadi yg diberikan =) begitu juga kpd kawan2 yang lain... terharu jugak bila ade org ingat.... sampai kwn2 kt DQ pon ingat.... syukran ye? ^_^
oh! for readers who dont know what im talking about, it's about birthday wishes. for me. n fyi, my birthday is not in december *just in case you got the wrong info*
2. to cuz: hey!!!! oops! i mean, assalamu `alaikum! fuyo~~ it's been a long time since i last saw you... hehe.. i've been wanting to know how you are, how your school is - environment, study, friends - aaahh~ hope you're doing well! but i dont know how to reach you. err... actually, i thought you have no internet connection there...or at least, you dont have you own personal laptop or something. *a bit too narrow-minded, me* so, i was quite suprised that you tagged.
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term test week's coming up!!
this coming monday, to be exact. aiyo~~ so much for wanting to get straight A's for this semester. i just hope i will NOT get any C..... klw dulu2 tu boleh lah...sebab C was for Cemerlang. heh. sekarang ni.....*fillintheblank*
on a happier note, the first HPI practical report, which my partner and i submitted veeerrry the late, well, we got 47/50! alhamdulillah~~! rase gembire, rase bersyukur, rase 'biar-betik!'... waduh~ hanye Tuhan je yang tahu! me asyik tgk2 je practical report...sapelah yg tk happy, rase bangge jugak (tp untuk diri sendiri ah~ bukan bangge smpi show off gitu!), all the rush, typing, squeezing of the brains, finding the right words....but all tainted with late submission..... akhirnye, kite dpt jugak markah yg memberangsangkan! my second HPI prac report pon ok jugak, 32/40...dgn 2 partners lain =)
hmmm...about my previous entries...well, i hope you wont misinterpret them.... im not living a sad, depressed life ok? my school life is practically normal. n i never felt better! struggling in school is a normal thing. n im doing ok.
plus, im recommending you this book: "Luna - a novel" by julie anne peters. the book's soooo damn touching, meaningful that my eyes were brimming with tears - tears of sympathy, sadness, painful joy.... what's the book about? go find out yourself! when i read the synopsis, i thought,"hey, why dont i give it a try? it's an interesting n controversial topic. i hope this book will shed some light on it...give new perspective...from the eyes of the main character n her brother"
yep. it's worth a read, guys! oh! n do read "define normal" too. by the same author.
you know what? im still thinking about writing the 'crushes' post. feel like writing now...but worry that i might drag the story until wayyyy toooo loooonggg *n boring too*
ok, i guess that's all the update i have for now. at least you know im still alive and kickin' =p
1. ana ucapkan terima kasih kpd kak juwita dan juga ustazah sakinah di atas ucapan hari jadi yg diberikan =) begitu juga kpd kawan2 yang lain... terharu jugak bila ade org ingat.... sampai kwn2 kt DQ pon ingat.... syukran ye? ^_^
oh! for readers who dont know what im talking about, it's about birthday wishes. for me. n fyi, my birthday is not in december *just in case you got the wrong info*
2. to cuz: hey!!!! oops! i mean, assalamu `alaikum! fuyo~~ it's been a long time since i last saw you... hehe.. i've been wanting to know how you are, how your school is - environment, study, friends - aaahh~ hope you're doing well! but i dont know how to reach you. err... actually, i thought you have no internet connection there...or at least, you dont have you own personal laptop or something. *a bit too narrow-minded, me* so, i was quite suprised that you tagged.
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term test week's coming up!!
this coming monday, to be exact. aiyo~~ so much for wanting to get straight A's for this semester. i just hope i will NOT get any C..... klw dulu2 tu boleh lah...sebab C was for Cemerlang. heh. sekarang ni.....*fillintheblank*
on a happier note, the first HPI practical report, which my partner and i submitted veeerrry the late, well, we got 47/50! alhamdulillah~~! rase gembire, rase bersyukur, rase 'biar-betik!'... waduh~ hanye Tuhan je yang tahu! me asyik tgk2 je practical report...sapelah yg tk happy, rase bangge jugak (tp untuk diri sendiri ah~ bukan bangge smpi show off gitu!), all the rush, typing, squeezing of the brains, finding the right words....but all tainted with late submission..... akhirnye, kite dpt jugak markah yg memberangsangkan! my second HPI prac report pon ok jugak, 32/40...dgn 2 partners lain =)
hmmm...about my previous entries...well, i hope you wont misinterpret them.... im not living a sad, depressed life ok? my school life is practically normal. n i never felt better! struggling in school is a normal thing. n im doing ok.
plus, im recommending you this book: "Luna - a novel" by julie anne peters. the book's soooo damn touching, meaningful that my eyes were brimming with tears - tears of sympathy, sadness, painful joy.... what's the book about? go find out yourself! when i read the synopsis, i thought,"hey, why dont i give it a try? it's an interesting n controversial topic. i hope this book will shed some light on it...give new perspective...from the eyes of the main character n her brother"
yep. it's worth a read, guys! oh! n do read "define normal" too. by the same author.
you know what? im still thinking about writing the 'crushes' post. feel like writing now...but worry that i might drag the story until wayyyy toooo loooonggg *n boring too*
ok, i guess that's all the update i have for now. at least you know im still alive and kickin' =p
let's talk
do you know the feeling
when sometimes
you're simply unsure who to talk to
about what is new, what is wrong, what is happening
about what you're going through
coz you doubt if anybody actually wants to listen
to your pain, complain, joy and laughter
if anybody actually understands what you're saying
your ideas, opinions, confessions and insights
n maybe, coz you're afraid people may judge you
afraid of the verdict
that you are not what you were
or that you were not what you are
do you know that feeling
when you hesitate to turn to your old friends
to confide, to share, to impart
the new experience and discoveries you've made
afraid that they may not be interested to hear all that
coz you're not in the same line anymore
just as well
when you hesitate to talk to your new friends
to tell them tales of your past
the stories of today
the dreams of tomorrow
coz you still dont know them enough
do you know the feeling
kind of lost
old friends - they dont know what you've become
and you dont want them to know who you are now
new friends - they dont know who you were back then
and you cant explain to them who your old self was
then who can you trust your feelings and thoughts with?
there's God.
oh! how many hours a day that you forget about Him?
how many seconds a day that you even think about Him?
how many times do you turn to Him and pray?
how many?
when sometimes
you're simply unsure who to talk to
about what is new, what is wrong, what is happening
about what you're going through
coz you doubt if anybody actually wants to listen
to your pain, complain, joy and laughter
if anybody actually understands what you're saying
your ideas, opinions, confessions and insights
n maybe, coz you're afraid people may judge you
afraid of the verdict
that you are not what you were
or that you were not what you are
do you know that feeling
when you hesitate to turn to your old friends
to confide, to share, to impart
the new experience and discoveries you've made
afraid that they may not be interested to hear all that
coz you're not in the same line anymore
just as well
when you hesitate to talk to your new friends
to tell them tales of your past
the stories of today
the dreams of tomorrow
coz you still dont know them enough
do you know the feeling
kind of lost
old friends - they dont know what you've become
and you dont want them to know who you are now
new friends - they dont know who you were back then
and you cant explain to them who your old self was
then who can you trust your feelings and thoughts with?
there's God.
oh! how many hours a day that you forget about Him?
how many seconds a day that you even think about Him?
how many times do you turn to Him and pray?
how many?
stressed?
im taking this opportunity to answer a question posted on my tagboard *since i cant tag...some 'cookie' problem or something*
honestly, im not sure if im stressed...because of poly life - school work, cca, or external activities that im involved in.
or maybe im denying the fact that im getting stresser day after day.
but i dont think that has happened, yet.
though i can feel some sort of panic seeping in... worry, yes. and maybe something else. afraid of failure??
nowadays, since i-dont-know-when, i sometimes imagine myelf - or hope to myself - that i dont have cca, or tutoring, or whatever else that is distrupting peaceful life. so i'll have more time to do my school work that is MOOOOOOOOOORRREEE important, and that i wont be RUSHING HERE AND THERE, WORRYING THAT I HAVENT DONE MY TUTORIAL, OR REVISED MY LECTURE NOTES, OR PANIC BECAUSE THERE'S A QUIZ COMING UP. sometimes i feel tired.
where's my focus gone to?
but then again, BAD HABITS DONT DIE OFF EASILY. a bad habit of mine is that i procrastinate. i rather do stuff other than studying. other people have their own 'comfortable' time to study, right? but, me? i simply dont know when the mood to study will come. it seems that 24/7 i have something else to do, and so, i postpone my assignments, tutorials, revision.
a PROMINENT bad habit: sleep sleep sleep. i feel sleepy during lectures, and sometimes i do doze off. i wake up late usually....so i'll be late for school. i sleep late, even though my eyes are demanding sleep *like now* what the heck are you doing late at night????????????? n when it's time to open my lecture notes, or at least read the instruction in the tutorial, i'll start to yawn...then decide that "oh! i want to sleep. tomorrow i'll do".... what da..?!!
im supposed to finish my lab report now. but suddenly, i dont feel like it. im gonna sleep right after this post. oh! i turned on the computer coz i had to check my email..... results,methods,diagram from my lab report teammates, ELF ALP program sheet for TP RAWKS from ELF yahoogroup...
oh! n disc report isnt graded...but i surely missed the chance to get to know myself better.
tkd? well......... WHY ARENT YOU GETTING YOUR KICKS RIGHT????????? THEY'RE ONLY BASIC KICKS!!! BY NOW, YOU SHOULD'VE AT LEAST BE GOOD AT THEM..... klw org yang tak tahu main bola namenye kaki bangku, klw org yang tk tahu nak tendang betul2, namenye ape???????????????????
urgh! the kicking part does get on my nerves sometimes!
hmmmm.... let me see.
life in poly is great, good, fun... it is. enjoyable.
i hope you wont judge poly life by JUST knowing how i am doing....
coz the problem here is ME, ME, ME.
thanks for raising that question =)
honestly, im not sure if im stressed...because of poly life - school work, cca, or external activities that im involved in.
or maybe im denying the fact that im getting stresser day after day.
but i dont think that has happened, yet.
though i can feel some sort of panic seeping in... worry, yes. and maybe something else. afraid of failure??
nowadays, since i-dont-know-when, i sometimes imagine myelf - or hope to myself - that i dont have cca, or tutoring, or whatever else that is distrupting peaceful life. so i'll have more time to do my school work that is MOOOOOOOOOORRREEE important, and that i wont be RUSHING HERE AND THERE, WORRYING THAT I HAVENT DONE MY TUTORIAL, OR REVISED MY LECTURE NOTES, OR PANIC BECAUSE THERE'S A QUIZ COMING UP. sometimes i feel tired.
where's my focus gone to?
but then again, BAD HABITS DONT DIE OFF EASILY. a bad habit of mine is that i procrastinate. i rather do stuff other than studying. other people have their own 'comfortable' time to study, right? but, me? i simply dont know when the mood to study will come. it seems that 24/7 i have something else to do, and so, i postpone my assignments, tutorials, revision.
a PROMINENT bad habit: sleep sleep sleep. i feel sleepy during lectures, and sometimes i do doze off. i wake up late usually....so i'll be late for school. i sleep late, even though my eyes are demanding sleep *like now* what the heck are you doing late at night????????????? n when it's time to open my lecture notes, or at least read the instruction in the tutorial, i'll start to yawn...then decide that "oh! i want to sleep. tomorrow i'll do".... what da..?!!
im supposed to finish my lab report now. but suddenly, i dont feel like it. im gonna sleep right after this post. oh! i turned on the computer coz i had to check my email..... results,methods,diagram from my lab report teammates, ELF ALP program sheet for TP RAWKS from ELF yahoogroup...
oh! n disc report isnt graded...but i surely missed the chance to get to know myself better.
tkd? well......... WHY ARENT YOU GETTING YOUR KICKS RIGHT????????? THEY'RE ONLY BASIC KICKS!!! BY NOW, YOU SHOULD'VE AT LEAST BE GOOD AT THEM..... klw org yang tak tahu main bola namenye kaki bangku, klw org yang tk tahu nak tendang betul2, namenye ape???????????????????
urgh! the kicking part does get on my nerves sometimes!
hmmmm.... let me see.
life in poly is great, good, fun... it is. enjoyable.
i hope you wont judge poly life by JUST knowing how i am doing....
coz the problem here is ME, ME, ME.
thanks for raising that question =)
what's WRONG with me.........????????????
mMmMmMmMmmmmmmmmmmmm
MmMmMmMmMmMmmMmmmMMMM...................
ya Allah~ ape nak jadi dgn aku ni...
sigh~
i just remembered just now....... that i forgot to do the DISC profile report!! betape paniknye aku! astaghfirullah~~ me betul2 tak ingat.... dari hari rabu yang lepas nie....sampailah hari nie!
padahal i've checked my TP email last week...ade email pasal bende ni, n my tutor pon dah beritahu... due date nye was friday yang baru lepas nih..... dah tak boleh nak access to the system..............
ya Allah~~ ape yg harus aku lakukan??
hmmm~ nampak sgt tk boleh nak negotiate dgn guru.... yelah, sbb reason tk valid.
ape aku nak jawab nanti mase tutorial this week.............?
n i bet the DISC report worths quite a lot!!!!!!!!!!!
n forgetful liyana has just blown up her chances of getting a distinction!
*maybe*
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you know, im getting *whatstheword??* as the days go by.....
i really want to do well this semester. n yet, im lagging behind...since the start of the semester.... maths dah masuk topic 3...... ape2 je yg me ingat...ntah! HPI.....pasal complement system.... cardiac cycle..... serological tests...... even cell bio pon me tk bace sgt notes nye.
and for leadership n character...........minggu lepas baru the FIRST TIME i sat for the lecture from first to end............selame 4or5 minggu me asyik lewat... sbb gi solat asar *heh...solat asar pon rilek2..padahal ade lecture!* ade satu kali tu, me baru je duduk, 3or4 minutes later, lecture dah habis...makneNYE.......i missed one whole lecture!
oh! n missing lectures is something that is 'normal' to me now. heh. especially last 2 weeks ago.. on a friday...sbb nak habiskan lab report, i skipped math lecture (2 hours), n cell bio lecture (1 hour).......... such a good attitude liyana! ni lah akibatnye kalau buat lab report last minute! end up, me hantar lab report tu 30 minutes later than the dateline (5pm)...
hmmmmmmmmmm~~
n yesterday, i think, i came across the article, mengenai top psle malay student tu.......... subhanallah~ dia seorang hafiz rupenye..... sedangkan aku ni..............
*feels like slapping her own face*
n this semester....fuh! tk boleh main2 ah~~ lebih2 lagi for leadership n arts nye subjects tu..... ade individual assignment, group project....dah tu semua adelah CORE things yg di ASSESSED.... so, percentage nye byk! tk boleh main2! kena berikan yg terbaik!
leadership tu plak..........byk nah concept nak kena ingat!
hmmmmmmmmmmmm......
math~
math~
math~
ntah lah eh............
ni lah akibatnye....sbb me tk *fillintheblank*
astaghfirullah~~~
i guess i've sidetracked a bit too far....i must come back.... back to my roots...
back to fitrah...
aaah~ yes. fitrah.
but, what is fitrah?
MmMmMmMmMmMmmMmmmMMMM...................
ya Allah~ ape nak jadi dgn aku ni...
sigh~
i just remembered just now....... that i forgot to do the DISC profile report!! betape paniknye aku! astaghfirullah~~ me betul2 tak ingat.... dari hari rabu yang lepas nie....sampailah hari nie!
padahal i've checked my TP email last week...ade email pasal bende ni, n my tutor pon dah beritahu... due date nye was friday yang baru lepas nih..... dah tak boleh nak access to the system..............
ya Allah~~ ape yg harus aku lakukan??
hmmm~ nampak sgt tk boleh nak negotiate dgn guru.... yelah, sbb reason tk valid.
ape aku nak jawab nanti mase tutorial this week.............?
n i bet the DISC report worths quite a lot!!!!!!!!!!!
n forgetful liyana has just blown up her chances of getting a distinction!
*maybe*
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you know, im getting *whatstheword??* as the days go by.....
i really want to do well this semester. n yet, im lagging behind...since the start of the semester.... maths dah masuk topic 3...... ape2 je yg me ingat...ntah! HPI.....pasal complement system.... cardiac cycle..... serological tests...... even cell bio pon me tk bace sgt notes nye.
and for leadership n character...........minggu lepas baru the FIRST TIME i sat for the lecture from first to end............selame 4or5 minggu me asyik lewat... sbb gi solat asar *heh...solat asar pon rilek2..padahal ade lecture!* ade satu kali tu, me baru je duduk, 3or4 minutes later, lecture dah habis...makneNYE.......i missed one whole lecture!
oh! n missing lectures is something that is 'normal' to me now. heh. especially last 2 weeks ago.. on a friday...sbb nak habiskan lab report, i skipped math lecture (2 hours), n cell bio lecture (1 hour).......... such a good attitude liyana! ni lah akibatnye kalau buat lab report last minute! end up, me hantar lab report tu 30 minutes later than the dateline (5pm)...
hmmmmmmmmmm~~
n yesterday, i think, i came across the article, mengenai top psle malay student tu.......... subhanallah~ dia seorang hafiz rupenye..... sedangkan aku ni..............
*feels like slapping her own face*
n this semester....fuh! tk boleh main2 ah~~ lebih2 lagi for leadership n arts nye subjects tu..... ade individual assignment, group project....dah tu semua adelah CORE things yg di ASSESSED.... so, percentage nye byk! tk boleh main2! kena berikan yg terbaik!
leadership tu plak..........byk nah concept nak kena ingat!
hmmmmmmmmmmmm......
math~
math~
math~
ntah lah eh............
ni lah akibatnye....sbb me tk *fillintheblank*
astaghfirullah~~~
i guess i've sidetracked a bit too far....i must come back.... back to my roots...
back to fitrah...
aaah~ yes. fitrah.
but, what is fitrah?
short update
1. i got ARTS APPRECIATION n LEADERSHIP & CHARACTER for my cross-disciplinary subjects. the former was my 3rd/4th choice...n the latter, i didnt even apply for it! tapi me reda je... pasti ade hikmah di sebalik tu... n im LOVIN' the tutorials!! *note: bukan lecture tau...tapi tutorial..heh!*
2. subjects for this semester:
- basic microbiology
- cell biology
- human physiology and immunology
- mathematics and statistics 2
- communication skills for applied science 2
- arts appreciation
- leadership and character
3. my basic micrology lecturer is cute! a bit lame also.... but never mind! haha~~ excuse me eh, cute here is not cute face, superficial... it's more to his antics.... ketawanye pon kelakar... *smiling to myself* n my class got him for our tutor!!! yeah~~~!
4. intervarsity and polytechnic (IVP) competitions are coming....next year.. so tkd training will most probably be doubled, to 4 times a week. im still not sure if i can commit or not...though i want to...
5. ade jalan raye dgn members Nur Ikhwan n Nanyang Polytechnic Muslim Society... but im not going. memang tk nak pon!
6. firah got first in her class. mabruuuuuk!
7. i was shocked i when i saw the blog of a friend of mine. she withdrew from alsagoff years ago. n let me say this: im disappointed with her (or is it 'in her'?) i simply am. much more than im disappointed with Abidah. but both of you are still my friends. n i respect your decisions of what you want to become.
i think that's all for now.
2. subjects for this semester:
- basic microbiology
- cell biology
- human physiology and immunology
- mathematics and statistics 2
- communication skills for applied science 2
- arts appreciation
- leadership and character
3. my basic micrology lecturer is cute! a bit lame also.... but never mind! haha~~ excuse me eh, cute here is not cute face, superficial... it's more to his antics.... ketawanye pon kelakar... *smiling to myself* n my class got him for our tutor!!! yeah~~~!
4. intervarsity and polytechnic (IVP) competitions are coming....next year.. so tkd training will most probably be doubled, to 4 times a week. im still not sure if i can commit or not...though i want to...
5. ade jalan raye dgn members Nur Ikhwan n Nanyang Polytechnic Muslim Society... but im not going. memang tk nak pon!
6. firah got first in her class. mabruuuuuk!
7. i was shocked i when i saw the blog of a friend of mine. she withdrew from alsagoff years ago. n let me say this: im disappointed with her (or is it 'in her'?) i simply am. much more than im disappointed with Abidah. but both of you are still my friends. n i respect your decisions of what you want to become.
i think that's all for now.
caribbean blue by Enya
... Eurus ...
... Afer Ventus ...
... Afer Ventus ...
... so the world goes round and round
with all you ever knew -
They say the sky high above
is Caribbean blue ...
... if every man says all he can,
if every man is true,
do I believe the sky above
is Caribbean blue ...
... Boreas ...
... Zephryus ...
... if all you told was turned to gold,
if all you dreamed were new,
imagine sky high above
in Caribbean blue ...
... Eurus ...
Afer Ventus ...
... Boreas
Zephryus ...
... Africus ...
pictures 2006
hey there.... hmmm... if you guys notice, this year i dont have as many pictures to show you as i have last year.... haiz~~ sejak semenjak me masuk poly nih.. mcm tk byk gmbr yg me ambik untuk buat kenangan.... even events kt alsagoff, ie pasar amal 2006 n peraduan syarahan inter-madrasah me tk ambik gmbr.... well, not so accurate there.. i took few pictures during the latter. then, events yg related to MS (muslim society) pon... hmm... tk byk sgt ah...
entah lah ye... mungkin lagi a few months baru me jadi more 'hyped up' untuk take pictures again..
anyway...i still got some pictures for this year, 2006. so ENJOY!
HARI RAYA 2006 - FIRST DAY
entah lah ye... mungkin lagi a few months baru me jadi more 'hyped up' untuk take pictures again..
anyway...i still got some pictures for this year, 2006. so ENJOY!
HARI RAYA 2006 - FIRST DAY
tige beradik...
my new-found cousin. sabrina. very the peramah indeed! 'new-found' is a bit exaggerated, eh.. it's my first time interacting with her, seriously!
with nenek sebelah ayah n 2 younger cousins.. dah besar dah diorg...sec 3 n 1..
NUR IKHWAN'S KG CHAI CHEE IFTAR - 151006
kt raffles place.. dlm perjalanan pulang dari kgchaichee iftar.. i found a new friend: kak hawanis, from NYP =)
kak fadzillah (event IC, NI member), mdm hafifah n kak haswani (NI vice-chair)
the crowd =)
kak maryam O, farhana, kak khadijah ..... BACK TO ALSAGOFF - 131006
lined up.... hehe...sape yg terpendek?? =p
kt AVA room... where i used to sit... huda too..
first time gitu ambil gmbr dgn tige2 guru lelaki...kt bilik guru lelaki plak tu!
RAMADHAN ROCKS 2006 - 29 & 300906
malam2 buta...pukul 12 lebih pagi....or was it 1 in da morning??? *still can smile seyyy*
baru habis cuci dulang, pinggan, gelas, water dispensers, baldi yang org letak makanan tu.. (ape namenye eh??) dan sebagainye....fuh! my baju, tudung were smeeeelllly! hahahahah! pagi2 org solat, kite cuci-mencuci... cewah~~
most of my classmates are here
the muslim girls in AG12
some of the Nur Ikhwan's girls.... *it was kak haswani's birthday...she got a card! =>*
MISCELLANEOUS
tkd grading at toa payoh sports hall in july..... it was my first! i wasnt anywhere in this pic... just to give you the idea of how it is.
aaliyah~~~ *oops! blm mintak izin dari kak deena!*
during graduation day... back in january..
our first-prize winner..... from ALSAGOFF... yeah~~! takbir!
a day out with thfz classmates.... but here are my two friends from alsagoff
awww~~ no goodies for me! *sad face*
i just realised that this sunday's children's day.
which reminds me that im never going to get any presents or goodies again.
*i dont think lecturers do that, do you??*
last year, i wrote about ust damawiyah treating us a polar cake, mee goreng and a drink... at that time, i had already feel the sadness, that that was gonna be my last children's day 'presents'..
i wanna be a kid again! n be in alsagoff!
which reminds me that im never going to get any presents or goodies again.
*i dont think lecturers do that, do you??*
last year, i wrote about ust damawiyah treating us a polar cake, mee goreng and a drink... at that time, i had already feel the sadness, that that was gonna be my last children's day 'presents'..
i wanna be a kid again! n be in alsagoff!
it's quite high ley!
yes, yes, yes!!!
i'd like to declare something........................
i've tried TWO HIGH ELEMENTSSSS!! yeah~!
flying fox n multi-vine..
FUYO~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
ok lah...i've never facilitated flying fox before... n i've never tried it too (facilitators mane ade nk main, yg main participants je! pfft!)
so, just now got refresher course, for ELF trainees to refresh our minds on the games, procedures, safety stuff n so on...
n so, i actually climbed up the pole - i was belayed - n tada! i stood on the platform with a senior instructor. first he showed me the step-by-step procedures once a participant is up there (this time, konon i was the participant ah).... lonnngg ago, in june, the staff i/c for EFL, terence, had actually taught some of us (including me) the procedures for flying fox.. tapi lupe2 jugak ah...
then....i just took a step off the platform.
seconds before i took off...ish! perasaan takut dan worry tu... rupenye2 baru me realise betape kuatnye kedue2 feelings tu, sampai boleh mempengaruh fikiran org..samade to get on with it, or retreat. *thinking...*
but then again, it was fuN, with a capital N! haha~~
multi-vine plak, me pernah facilitate...yelah, instructors stay on the ground je... setakat tgk participants...some of them super-brave..some of them scared....
today, i got to feel what it's like to really be UP THERE... bila tgh panjat pole tu - again, i was belayed - rase seram semakin memuncak... bila dah sampai kt atas...aduuuuhh~~ boleh tahan menggigil jugak! i just concentrated and looked forward. not that i didnt dare to look down... *eh! me boleh tgk bwh lah~~ tahap seram tkdelah extreme mane..* my feet sliding the wire...my hands holding super-tight to the rope... n trying to balance myself *it wasnt that hard, actually..i've seen worse - people who were nearly off-balance, leaning a bit too forward/backward..all trying to balance themselves!*
anyway.... i succeed to touch the pole at the other end.
feelings?? hmmm... how to say eh?? i think i also forgot already...
quite challenging, emotionally n physically..
after lunch-time, we cleaned the shed and ELF room.. aiyo~~ kt shed tu... boleh tahan berserak..mcm2 khazanah ade kt dlm... lizards, spiders, big ants... heh. i must admit, i wasnt too helpful at the cleaning part... coz my energy was draining slowly out of me. n also coz im not too keen to do cleaning up.
having said that, today was quite fun! plus the people im with ah... so the whole day was enjoyable, though tiring. =)
some facts though: a few times i was in very close distance with guys. on the platform during flying fox, sitting on the log with two guys side by side, sitting on a not-so-new bench with jia liang right beside me, n sitting in a room with all guys, no girls *coz i came back to the ELF room early than the rest of the girls...bila masuk tu, rupe2nye semua lelaki... me duduk je satu corner, dgr lagu*
so what do you think?
ain't i a changed person?
or my faith is simply lacking?
- you dont judge me -
i'd like to declare something........................
i've tried TWO HIGH ELEMENTSSSS!! yeah~!
flying fox n multi-vine..
FUYO~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
ok lah...i've never facilitated flying fox before... n i've never tried it too (facilitators mane ade nk main, yg main participants je! pfft!)
so, just now got refresher course, for ELF trainees to refresh our minds on the games, procedures, safety stuff n so on...
n so, i actually climbed up the pole - i was belayed - n tada! i stood on the platform with a senior instructor. first he showed me the step-by-step procedures once a participant is up there (this time, konon i was the participant ah).... lonnngg ago, in june, the staff i/c for EFL, terence, had actually taught some of us (including me) the procedures for flying fox.. tapi lupe2 jugak ah...
then....i just took a step off the platform.
seconds before i took off...ish! perasaan takut dan worry tu... rupenye2 baru me realise betape kuatnye kedue2 feelings tu, sampai boleh mempengaruh fikiran org..samade to get on with it, or retreat. *thinking...*
but then again, it was fuN, with a capital N! haha~~
multi-vine plak, me pernah facilitate...yelah, instructors stay on the ground je... setakat tgk participants...some of them super-brave..some of them scared....
today, i got to feel what it's like to really be UP THERE... bila tgh panjat pole tu - again, i was belayed - rase seram semakin memuncak... bila dah sampai kt atas...aduuuuhh~~ boleh tahan menggigil jugak! i just concentrated and looked forward. not that i didnt dare to look down... *eh! me boleh tgk bwh lah~~ tahap seram tkdelah extreme mane..* my feet sliding the wire...my hands holding super-tight to the rope... n trying to balance myself *it wasnt that hard, actually..i've seen worse - people who were nearly off-balance, leaning a bit too forward/backward..all trying to balance themselves!*
anyway.... i succeed to touch the pole at the other end.
feelings?? hmmm... how to say eh?? i think i also forgot already...
quite challenging, emotionally n physically..
after lunch-time, we cleaned the shed and ELF room.. aiyo~~ kt shed tu... boleh tahan berserak..mcm2 khazanah ade kt dlm... lizards, spiders, big ants... heh. i must admit, i wasnt too helpful at the cleaning part... coz my energy was draining slowly out of me. n also coz im not too keen to do cleaning up.
having said that, today was quite fun! plus the people im with ah... so the whole day was enjoyable, though tiring. =)
some facts though: a few times i was in very close distance with guys. on the platform during flying fox, sitting on the log with two guys side by side, sitting on a not-so-new bench with jia liang right beside me, n sitting in a room with all guys, no girls *coz i came back to the ELF room early than the rest of the girls...bila masuk tu, rupe2nye semua lelaki... me duduk je satu corner, dgr lagu*
so what do you think?
ain't i a changed person?
or my faith is simply lacking?
- you dont judge me -
stories yet to be shared
- my comments on my sem1 result
- music that i currently enjoy listening
- my crushes (yes! i've been thinking of writing a post on that ever since my cousin asked me about it)
- music that i currently enjoy listening
- my crushes (yes! i've been thinking of writing a post on that ever since my cousin asked me about it)
busy little bee *weeeeezzzz*
this year's holiday is a lot different than before. yeah... if you read my last year's entries, u'll notice that i kept saying something like, "i wasted my time" "boring" etc etc... the point is, my previous holidays were void of useful, meaningful, fruitful activities.
n now, here i am, in the middle of my semester break... around 1 month more to go before school reopens... *yawns...coz it'sbeen a loooong holiday already*
as the post title indicates..yes..im always busy.. my time is always filled...i go out almost everyday.
the only problem is, im always going here n there that i sometimes want to stop. n just sit at home, watch dvds. or go out with my family.
i go to school sometimes, for tkd trainings, ALP courses... then, there's tahfiz..though i shall admit, i seldom go to mks now. n im involved with not one, but 3 i events: ramadhan rocks, Minhah'06 iftar, collaboration between Nur Ikhwan n NYPMS, Nur Ikhwan's kg chai chee iftar.
i should show you my organizer - which i create myself, since islamic organizers were out of stock when i wanted to buy one... meetings take quite a lot of my time... n usually, when i go out, i go to 2/3 places on a particular day.say.... morning, tutoring.tghari/ptg, meeting ELF. mlm,meeting iftar NI/NYPMS...
n this october, i have 2 camps lined up. community service club sub-comm training camp n taekwondo camp.
another thing...some activities clash with other activities.... for example, ramadhan rocks and tutoring. SP iftar with CSC camp... *sighs loudly* it's just that...all these make me have to think of ways to change my tutoring time...or miss out on other activities...
sometimes things come up last minute and you have to arrange your schedule..where to go first.. what to do..
n let me say here: it reaaaaaaaaaaally good that i have a bus concession pass... it's definitely, undoubtly, clearly my financial lifesaver!
of course, i enjoy what im doing. holiday's been great. im not sure if you agree or not, but i dont always complain... hmmm... err... am i complaining now? coz if i am.. i'll just delete this post..
everything is energy- and time-consuming. while im ok with all these, my dad isnt. not really.. sometimes he questions if all these meetings are necessary... n all these involvements keeps me away from home, where im expected to do house chores, which my parents prefer me doing. heh.
but at the same time, im thankful that my parents support me. though maybe my dad is sometimes annoyed by my 'busi-ness'... he consents my going here, there.. so far he hasnt pressed the red stop button. when he does, i think i'll understand. my parents have usually given me green lights, so it's only fair that i obey their say.
on a happier note, this month i've gone out with my family twice. n my parents, once. did some shopping during these family trips..*smiling widelyyyyy* during these times, i didnt have to worry about where im rushing off to next.. coz the whole day was family day.. well, except for the day i went out with my parents ah... that night, i had to go to ramashan rocks meeting at saff-centre, kt bukit gombak..tu pon bila bangun dari tido, rase mcm malas nk keluar lagi!
kadang2 tu rase penat n nk duduk rumah a little bit overwhelming that i didnt go to tkd training...for example, last week! dua2 hari me tk pegi..tibe2 rase tampines tu jauh sgt!
oklah...........dah pukul 2.27 AM nie... hmmm.. dapat jugak me tulis 2 posts malam/pagi nie... walaupon mate dah agak berat nih!...
till here....
n now, here i am, in the middle of my semester break... around 1 month more to go before school reopens... *yawns...coz it'sbeen a loooong holiday already*
as the post title indicates..yes..im always busy.. my time is always filled...i go out almost everyday.
the only problem is, im always going here n there that i sometimes want to stop. n just sit at home, watch dvds. or go out with my family.
i go to school sometimes, for tkd trainings, ALP courses... then, there's tahfiz..though i shall admit, i seldom go to mks now. n im involved with not one, but 3 i events: ramadhan rocks, Minhah'06 iftar, collaboration between Nur Ikhwan n NYPMS, Nur Ikhwan's kg chai chee iftar.
i should show you my organizer - which i create myself, since islamic organizers were out of stock when i wanted to buy one... meetings take quite a lot of my time... n usually, when i go out, i go to 2/3 places on a particular day.say.... morning, tutoring.tghari/ptg, meeting ELF. mlm,meeting iftar NI/NYPMS...
n this october, i have 2 camps lined up. community service club sub-comm training camp n taekwondo camp.
another thing...some activities clash with other activities.... for example, ramadhan rocks and tutoring. SP iftar with CSC camp... *sighs loudly* it's just that...all these make me have to think of ways to change my tutoring time...or miss out on other activities...
sometimes things come up last minute and you have to arrange your schedule..where to go first.. what to do..
n let me say here: it reaaaaaaaaaaally good that i have a bus concession pass... it's definitely, undoubtly, clearly my financial lifesaver!
of course, i enjoy what im doing. holiday's been great. im not sure if you agree or not, but i dont always complain... hmmm... err... am i complaining now? coz if i am.. i'll just delete this post..
everything is energy- and time-consuming. while im ok with all these, my dad isnt. not really.. sometimes he questions if all these meetings are necessary... n all these involvements keeps me away from home, where im expected to do house chores, which my parents prefer me doing. heh.
but at the same time, im thankful that my parents support me. though maybe my dad is sometimes annoyed by my 'busi-ness'... he consents my going here, there.. so far he hasnt pressed the red stop button. when he does, i think i'll understand. my parents have usually given me green lights, so it's only fair that i obey their say.
on a happier note, this month i've gone out with my family twice. n my parents, once. did some shopping during these family trips..*smiling widelyyyyy* during these times, i didnt have to worry about where im rushing off to next.. coz the whole day was family day.. well, except for the day i went out with my parents ah... that night, i had to go to ramashan rocks meeting at saff-centre, kt bukit gombak..tu pon bila bangun dari tido, rase mcm malas nk keluar lagi!
kadang2 tu rase penat n nk duduk rumah a little bit overwhelming that i didnt go to tkd training...for example, last week! dua2 hari me tk pegi..tibe2 rase tampines tu jauh sgt!
oklah...........dah pukul 2.27 AM nie... hmmm.. dapat jugak me tulis 2 posts malam/pagi nie... walaupon mate dah agak berat nih!...
till here....
feel the target, dude!
today's tkd training was, by far, the best training yet. minus the shuttle run, of course.
what's good?
well, at last, my kicks sounded better. hahaha~ lame right?
but it matters to me, you know!
the coach - well, he's not really my coach..he's the colour belts' - had us doing lots of front kicks.. first slow run, run, run over small triangle cups aligned straight on the floor, then kick ten times, fast one..i guess i did ok.. the run faster..then must do kneelift ten times, run over the triangles,kick.then facing the other side do kneelift ten times, turn,run,kick.
then he told us to run slowly - "take your time" - and give our 100% kick. "the lesser energy u use, the louder the sound, it means that you're getting it"... yeah, man!
i tried to relax my body and just give a good kick. but my body was tense, and when i kicked, it was as if my whole body was moving. the correct way is your body relaxes, dont jump, and just swing your leg..
well, after a few times kicking, i was satisfied... as the coach said, "feel it!" well, something like that ar... whatever the IT is, i guess it means the sense of satisfaction when you get to kick full-force.
then, we were back to the basics: bounce, bounce, bounce... slide forward, backward,kneelift..
overall, training was light =)
mase lari 3 rounds at the start of training tu, rase termengah2 jugak ah...mungkin sbb dah seminggu tk gi training - so tk lari - or coz i didnt do any stretching.. plus the fact that i was fasting.
i could take it ah... tapi bila part shuttle run..fuh~ i ended up breathing heavily for air! terus gi buka..bila nak duduk tu..terus start sakit perut! fuyo~~ i think it was the effect of the shuttle run or something.. nak makan roti pon tkde mood...minum air je..tapi badan terase lemah ah... i was practically shaking! hmmm...
tkpe.tkpe.
it's all in the mind.
i keep saying that phrase tu myself whenever i go running.. cube nak concentrate. tapi kate2 tu seolah2 tkde effect pade diri nie... i try to push myself, tapi rase penat plak. selalu jugak me asyik nk stop2 bila tgh lari tu... on few occasions je yg me dapat lari 3 laps without stopping.. mcm last two weeks..fuh~ terase relaks n satisfying betul...mase tu plak cuaca tgh redup, baru habis hujan... tk rase nk stop... i just run~run~run... mungkin oxygen supply ade lebih kot time tu! sbb tu tk rase exhausted..hehe..
oh! note to readers: when i say i 'run'...it doesnt mean i run, as in 'run', 'lari'...my kind of 'run' is more like jogging... cume kadang2 tk sedar bila my speed increases.
anyway...korg ade tertanye2 tk, tk rase canggung ke, pakai tudung and lari... pelajar2 lain nampak..
well, me cube sedaye upaya untuk tidak attract attention...tapi kt stadium tu mmg lah ade org... kt tpt duduknye(dragonboater n pelajar2 lain)..kt track (track-n-field ppl n cheerleading ppl)..kt field (sometimes dragonboaters or soccer ppl)...n me sedaye upaye elakkan dr rase 'show off'. bahaya! pada hakikatnye pon, me mmg tk bagus sgt bila lari... klw lari sorang2 ok ah..tp klw dgn fellow tkd-ians, im always the last one..or if there's luck, the last few..
ah~ biarlah ape org nk pikir...me lari nk exercise..buat ape nk show off plak.. *cume harap2 me tk attract too much, or even a little, attention from people, especially rijal...mintak dijauhkan!*
lagipon, dah berbulan2 me join tkd..jadi kelibat me tu dah biase jugak ah kan??
oh! did i mention that im the only muslim girl in tkd? n there are 5 muslim guys... ermm.. sebenarnye, ujian jugak bila ade rijal muslim nie... tapi lame kelamaan me dah tk heran dgn diorg. buat hal sendiri ah.. even though sometimes naughty and immature thoughts cross my mind..hmm..whatever! all these are the devil'swork! im fending them off!
mengenai kwn2 plak..yeah, i made friends here.. n i dare to say that i get along with them better than my classmates...maybe coz the time spent together, during trainings, twice a week... bila training, selalu in close distance, jadi selalu jugak berbual dgn kwn2 cina... pei yong, cheryl, yanning, gui wen, catherine, serene, maggie, jing hua...even the seniors, tiffany, hui ping, si ting, grace, vivian..bertegur sape jugak kadang2,tp tk berbual sgt ah.. kwn2 lelaki cina... tk bertegur sape sgt ah.. tk tahu nk ckp ape pon...cume maybe dgn wei liang, ok ah~~ click jugak dgn dia.. =)
so, overall, i can say that im comfortable with the TKD lot! *yey*
what's good?
well, at last, my kicks sounded better. hahaha~ lame right?
but it matters to me, you know!
the coach - well, he's not really my coach..he's the colour belts' - had us doing lots of front kicks.. first slow run, run, run over small triangle cups aligned straight on the floor, then kick ten times, fast one..i guess i did ok.. the run faster..then must do kneelift ten times, run over the triangles,kick.then facing the other side do kneelift ten times, turn,run,kick.
then he told us to run slowly - "take your time" - and give our 100% kick. "the lesser energy u use, the louder the sound, it means that you're getting it"... yeah, man!
i tried to relax my body and just give a good kick. but my body was tense, and when i kicked, it was as if my whole body was moving. the correct way is your body relaxes, dont jump, and just swing your leg..
well, after a few times kicking, i was satisfied... as the coach said, "feel it!" well, something like that ar... whatever the IT is, i guess it means the sense of satisfaction when you get to kick full-force.
then, we were back to the basics: bounce, bounce, bounce... slide forward, backward,kneelift..
overall, training was light =)
mase lari 3 rounds at the start of training tu, rase termengah2 jugak ah...mungkin sbb dah seminggu tk gi training - so tk lari - or coz i didnt do any stretching.. plus the fact that i was fasting.
i could take it ah... tapi bila part shuttle run..fuh~ i ended up breathing heavily for air! terus gi buka..bila nak duduk tu..terus start sakit perut! fuyo~~ i think it was the effect of the shuttle run or something.. nak makan roti pon tkde mood...minum air je..tapi badan terase lemah ah... i was practically shaking! hmmm...
tkpe.tkpe.
it's all in the mind.
i keep saying that phrase tu myself whenever i go running.. cube nak concentrate. tapi kate2 tu seolah2 tkde effect pade diri nie... i try to push myself, tapi rase penat plak. selalu jugak me asyik nk stop2 bila tgh lari tu... on few occasions je yg me dapat lari 3 laps without stopping.. mcm last two weeks..fuh~ terase relaks n satisfying betul...mase tu plak cuaca tgh redup, baru habis hujan... tk rase nk stop... i just run~run~run... mungkin oxygen supply ade lebih kot time tu! sbb tu tk rase exhausted..hehe..
oh! note to readers: when i say i 'run'...it doesnt mean i run, as in 'run', 'lari'...my kind of 'run' is more like jogging... cume kadang2 tk sedar bila my speed increases.
anyway...korg ade tertanye2 tk, tk rase canggung ke, pakai tudung and lari... pelajar2 lain nampak..
well, me cube sedaye upaya untuk tidak attract attention...tapi kt stadium tu mmg lah ade org... kt tpt duduknye(dragonboater n pelajar2 lain)..kt track (track-n-field ppl n cheerleading ppl)..kt field (sometimes dragonboaters or soccer ppl)...n me sedaye upaye elakkan dr rase 'show off'. bahaya! pada hakikatnye pon, me mmg tk bagus sgt bila lari... klw lari sorang2 ok ah..tp klw dgn fellow tkd-ians, im always the last one..or if there's luck, the last few..
ah~ biarlah ape org nk pikir...me lari nk exercise..buat ape nk show off plak.. *cume harap2 me tk attract too much, or even a little, attention from people, especially rijal...mintak dijauhkan!*
lagipon, dah berbulan2 me join tkd..jadi kelibat me tu dah biase jugak ah kan??
oh! did i mention that im the only muslim girl in tkd? n there are 5 muslim guys... ermm.. sebenarnye, ujian jugak bila ade rijal muslim nie... tapi lame kelamaan me dah tk heran dgn diorg. buat hal sendiri ah.. even though sometimes naughty and immature thoughts cross my mind..hmm..whatever! all these are the devil'swork! im fending them off!
mengenai kwn2 plak..yeah, i made friends here.. n i dare to say that i get along with them better than my classmates...maybe coz the time spent together, during trainings, twice a week... bila training, selalu in close distance, jadi selalu jugak berbual dgn kwn2 cina... pei yong, cheryl, yanning, gui wen, catherine, serene, maggie, jing hua...even the seniors, tiffany, hui ping, si ting, grace, vivian..bertegur sape jugak kadang2,tp tk berbual sgt ah.. kwn2 lelaki cina... tk bertegur sape sgt ah.. tk tahu nk ckp ape pon...cume maybe dgn wei liang, ok ah~~ click jugak dgn dia.. =)
so, overall, i can say that im comfortable with the TKD lot! *yey*
stuff
today's ALP course was good! it was my first time facilitating a group..13 people.. before this, i had only tried mass briefing of 'magic carpet' game.
so, tadi, dpt jugak experience briefing my group for trust fall n nitro crossing n facililating the high elements, high beam n multi vine.
whee~~
yelah, it gave me a sense of responsibility n leadership. well, a bit. *teringat zaman kt alsagoff dulu*
n my group was quite enthu! actually there were only 2 groups.. less that 30 students ar.. from accounting and finance interest group. han jun facilitated group 1 n bryan conducted the energiser games n the team challenge. oh! n teaching the participants to wear harnesses. so, me, han jun n bryan were the only junior instructors there. plus another 2 senior instructors (initially..then another came)..
the day was peaceful to me coz there werent many instructors and people around. n compared to last week's ALP course, which saw many participants and instructors - plus the fact that i had nothing much to do except observe, i enjoy today's course. n my group is the best yet =) *cheers!*
ok, enough with that.
i've got something to share with you guys..
remember that i did mention that i dont have a wristwatch..the $5 one which i bought, last year i think, didnt last long =( i like like like the design of the watch! anyway...so, last wednesday 200906, my mum - or shall i say, my parents.. - bought me a wristwatch. i was there to choose, of course!
actually, my parents and i went to somerset..to tcc pte ltd, then to PUB.. then walked along orchard road to go to the maleleuca store at shaw house. along the way, i frequently stopped at watch kiosks or shop windows to browse the watches...most of them are not to my interest.. hmm... lots of elegant, ladylike watches ahh... or too fancy for my liking!
then...after having lunch at anatolia @ far east plaza, we passed Time Club.. i looked at the display..hmmm..then my dad said, masuklah..tgk. ok, so i went in...the swatch collection wasnt bad. there was one purple watch... attractively designed, indeed. n the price was $86...
but then, i looked around and chose 2 more watches..one was a Hugen n the other one...an I-watch, i think..
and.. and.. and..
i chose to buy Hugen, The Watch Maker Brand.. $65 only. the most suprising thing is... the original price was $280! i couldnt believe my eyes, and most importantly, my luck!
i had finally found a wristwatch that i really like, a branded one (though i was thinking of tag-heuer..sadly, that brand isnt sold in the shop), and someone bought it for me. nice!
*oh~ im so happy!*
ok, ok, ok...it's very late already..n i still havent had my shower from the time i reached home (which was at 9-something pm)...*smelly!*
so, tadi, dpt jugak experience briefing my group for trust fall n nitro crossing n facililating the high elements, high beam n multi vine.
whee~~
yelah, it gave me a sense of responsibility n leadership. well, a bit. *teringat zaman kt alsagoff dulu*
n my group was quite enthu! actually there were only 2 groups.. less that 30 students ar.. from accounting and finance interest group. han jun facilitated group 1 n bryan conducted the energiser games n the team challenge. oh! n teaching the participants to wear harnesses. so, me, han jun n bryan were the only junior instructors there. plus another 2 senior instructors (initially..then another came)..
the day was peaceful to me coz there werent many instructors and people around. n compared to last week's ALP course, which saw many participants and instructors - plus the fact that i had nothing much to do except observe, i enjoy today's course. n my group is the best yet =) *cheers!*
ok, enough with that.
i've got something to share with you guys..
remember that i did mention that i dont have a wristwatch..the $5 one which i bought, last year i think, didnt last long =( i like like like the design of the watch! anyway...so, last wednesday 200906, my mum - or shall i say, my parents.. - bought me a wristwatch. i was there to choose, of course!
actually, my parents and i went to somerset..to tcc pte ltd, then to PUB.. then walked along orchard road to go to the maleleuca store at shaw house. along the way, i frequently stopped at watch kiosks or shop windows to browse the watches...most of them are not to my interest.. hmm... lots of elegant, ladylike watches ahh... or too fancy for my liking!
then...after having lunch at anatolia @ far east plaza, we passed Time Club.. i looked at the display..hmmm..then my dad said, masuklah..tgk. ok, so i went in...the swatch collection wasnt bad. there was one purple watch... attractively designed, indeed. n the price was $86...
but then, i looked around and chose 2 more watches..one was a Hugen n the other one...an I-watch, i think..
and.. and.. and..
i chose to buy Hugen, The Watch Maker Brand.. $65 only. the most suprising thing is... the original price was $280! i couldnt believe my eyes, and most importantly, my luck!
i had finally found a wristwatch that i really like, a branded one (though i was thinking of tag-heuer..sadly, that brand isnt sold in the shop), and someone bought it for me. nice!
*oh~ im so happy!*
ok, ok, ok...it's very late already..n i still havent had my shower from the time i reached home (which was at 9-something pm)...*smelly!*
getting involved.
one thing yg me tk suke about joining org. comm. for events or malay students' body kan...ialah adding some people's email address to my msn. those people that i rather not have them as my contacts. who am i talking about?
the brothers.
dont get me wrong.
i dont hate them, or have unnecessary grudges.
i just find it disturbing.
DISTRACTING.
so, im gonna do what i did before.
.......
the brothers.
dont get me wrong.
i dont hate them, or have unnecessary grudges.
i just find it disturbing.
DISTRACTING.
so, im gonna do what i did before.
.......
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