a different light

went to ust sakinah's blog just now. seeing her camp explore's pics made me think: hmm.. what a small world indeed!

i mean, i saw lots of familiar faces.. from TP, Nur Ikhwan, Saff Perdaus, fellow madrasah students.. imagine, the people i had known first, now known by ust sakinah herself. wonderful isnt it, how fate gathers us together in the same circle, eventually =)

on thursday, i went to ahlulquranpts usrah.. you know, i think our usrah is a bit different. coz we dont have a permanent naqibah. but that doesnt matter, right? coz most importantly, the content and sharings are there. right?

during the last part, ust sakinah shared about her reactions when she got her exam results. i must say... it made me think (that word, again) how desperate i want A's in my results transcript this semester, how i had felt the sheer disappointment knowing i didnt work hard and thus would definitely not score well in my term tests.

all these lead to me reflecting, why is my motivation the want, the need, to get in the TOP 10% of the cohort? why is my motivation to be on the same parr as the malay girl, who has the same name as me, who is in the top 10 students for 1st year? why..?

and why isnt my motivation based on the desire to please God? why do i feel a bit estranged from the fact that Allah is always there for me? why do i not trust and put all my hopes and prayers in Him?

why everytime i face failure, or even sense failure, i quickly become discouraged? why cant i be stronger, realising that Allah has me in His hands?

why am i so afraid that i wont reach my goal of getting the A's? is it super important that it blinds me from the pure intention of seeking knowledge?

think, my dear self,
think of your primary intention.
the others will come later.
once you set your innermost intention,
sure about it, work within it,
then you dont have to worry.

dear self,
remember what you have written and meant here, ok?
remember the mist of feelings that shrouded you when you wrote this:
inpired, worried, sad, hopeful..
may you perceive things in a better way now.
in a different light.

watch this space for more info..!


i want this. i want that.

sometimes i wonder
what's best for me.




my term tests are over. and i can safely say that the chances of any improvements are somewhat tilted to the no-no land.

ok, im being merepek. just ignoRe.

i would really like to spend time with my friends this term break. hmm... i'd like to see khadijah, kamaliah, aszafirah, mardhiah, liyana, huda ibrahim.. mm.. who else?

and i would like to go rockclimbing!!! sape2 nak gi rockclimbing with me??

and i want to play badminton in the school's sports complex. or jog around the bedok reservoir park.

i dont want to go to cca trainings or meetings. or any project meetings.

i just want to sit and talk and joke (or more likely, listen to jokes) with my friends whom i've long ceased spending time with them, let alone seeing their faces 'live'.

oh!! and i want to see Hazimah and take a tour around RP.

eh, before i forget: the tkd poomsae is indeed next week, 17 june. *lemah sey semangat biler pikir yang aku ni belum practise!*

ok. enough said.

enjoyable read

i believe some of us have our own favourite blogs that we visit each time we have the chance, if not frequently. we would anticipate new posts by the blogger, waiting to be entertained, awed, inspired by the stories shared, or maybe, by the seemingly effortless, interesting way of his or her writing.

as for myself, i especially enjoy reading 3 blogs (so far), owned by people that i know.

aszafirah's blog
i simply like her writings. be it formal or informal, singlish or english, deathnote or not. she always finds the suitable words, font styles (simple things like bold, italic etc) to describe her day, her feelings. simply said, she expresses well in writing.

kak khadijah's blog
her personal entries are always amusing, and at some points, enriching. playing with the font colours and size, her message/ideas/thoughts become well understood, and readers like me can imagine the feelings/moods that she's putting in her posts. and knowing kak khadijah, she is one funny yet insightful gal, and sometimes, quite a drama-mama!

kak hidayati's blog
im impressed by her use of language when describing things, or explaining things. she takes the time to tell one part of the story to another. it's like reading a fiction book sometimes. and seldom do i find grammatical errors in her posts. i guess it shows that she's quite a perfectionist when it comes to details, yes? the contents of her posts are usually good too. i mean, it's not what people call 'rubbish' or 'insignificant extras'. oh, n i think her simple blog layout motivates people to read too. =)


yes, im jealous of their writing talents. but at the same time, i admire their abilities.

well, keep up the great job guys! ^.^

like me! hmmm...

i was bloghopping and one particular blogger post something about birthday calendar and interpretation of names. lucky me, she also posted the link.

so i tried.

wah...~~ i found it interesting. coz of the facts related to my birthdate, and the analysis of character and personality, which is derived from my name only, is quite true. unlike analyses that i've come across so far, this one is the closest to reflect my own character and personality, and also, what i hope to be (in terms of positive character lahh.. not the business thingy).

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BIRTHDAY CALCULATOR


some info that i found interesting/relevant for my own knowledge:

Your date of conception was on or about 9 March 1989 which was a Thursday.
*just so you know, my birthdate is not on 9 march 1989*

You were born on a Thursday
under the astrological sign Sagittarius.
Your Life path number is 5.

Life Path Compatibility:
You are most compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 1, 5 & 7.
You should get along well with those with the Life Path numbers 3 & 9.
You may or may not get along well with those with the Life Path number 8.
You are least compatible with those with the Life Path numbers 2, 4, 6, 11 & 22.

The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2447860.5.
The golden number for 1989 is 14.
The epact number for 1989 is 22.
The year 1989 was not a leap year.

Your birthday falls into the Chinese year beginning 2/6/1989 and ending 1/26/1990.
You were born in the Chinese year of the Snake.

Your Native American Zodiac sign is Owl; your plant is Mistletoe.

You were born in the Egyptian month of Menchir, the second month of the season of Poret (Emergence - Fertile soil).

Your date of birth on the Hebrew calendar is 2 Kislev 5750.
Or if you were born after sundown then the date is 3 Kislev 5750.

The Mayan Calendar long count date of your birthday is 12.18.16.10.16 which is
12 baktun 18 katun 16 tun 10 uinal 16 kin

The Hijra (Islamic Calendar) date of your birth is Thursday, 1 Jumadiyu'l-Avval 1410 (1410-5-1).

As of 6/6/2007 12:07:22 PM EDT
You are 17 years old.
You are 211 months old.
You are 914 weeks old.
You are 6,397 days old.
You are 153,540 hours old.
You are 9,212,407 minutes old.
You are 552,744,442 seconds old.

Celebrities who share your birthday: *i picked the names that i've heard of before*

Clay Aiken (1978)
Winston Churchill (1874)
Mark Twain (1835)

There are 177 days till your next birthday...

Your birthstone is Citrine

The Mystical properties of Citrine

Citrine is said to help one connect with Spirit.
Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Yellow Topaz, Pearl, Diamond

Your birth tree is

Ash Tree, the Ambition


Uncommonly attractive, vivacious, impulsive, demanding, does not care for criticism, ambitious, intelligent, talented, likes to play with its fate, can be egoistic, very reliable and trustworthy, faithful and prudent lover, sometimes brains rule over heart, but takes partnership very serious.


~~~~ ~~~~ ~~~~

WHAT YOUR NAME MEANS


You entered: Nor Liyana
There are 9 letters in your name.
Those 9 letters total to 46
There are 4 vowels and 5 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 1

The characteristics of #1 are: Initiating action, pioneering, leading, independent, attaining, individual.

The expression or destiny for #1:
A number 1 Expression denotes the skilled executive with keen administrative capabilities. You must develop the capacity to be a fine leader, sales executive, or promoter. You have the tools to become an original person with a creative approach to problem solving, and a penchant for initiating action. Someone may have to follow behind you to handle the details, but you know how to get things going and make things happen. You have a good mind and the ability to use it for your advancement. Because of these factors, you have much potential for achievement and financial rewards. Frequently, this expression belongs to one running a business or striving to achieve a level of accomplishment on ones talents and efforts. You have little need for much supervision, preferring to act on your own with little restraint. You are both ambitious and determined. Self-confident and self-reliant must be yours, as you develop a strong unyielding will and the courage of your convictions.

Although you fear loneliness, you want to be left alone. You fear routine and being in a rut. You often jump the gun because you are afraid of being left behind.

The negative attributes of the 1 Expression are egotism and a self-centered approach to life. This is an aggressive number and if it is over-emphasized it is very hard to live with. You do not have to be overly aggressive to fulfill your destiny. The 1 has a natural instinct to dominate and to be the boss; adhering to the concept of being number One. Again, you do not have to dominate and destroy in order to lead and manage.

Your Soul Urge number is: 8

A Soul Urge number of 8 means:
With an 8 soul urge, you have a natural flair for big business and the challenges imposed by the commercial world. Power, status and success are very important to you. You have strong urges to supervise, organize and lead. Material desires are also very pronounced. You have good executive abilities, and with these, confidence, energy and ambition.

Your mind is analytical and judgment sound; you're a good judge of material values and also human character. Self-controlled, you rarely let emotions cloud judgment. You are somewhat of an organizer at heart, and you like to keep those beneath you organized and on a proper track. This is a personality that wants to lead, not follow. You want to be known for your planning ability and solid judgment.

The negative aspects of the 8 soul urge are the often dominating and exacting attitude. You may have a tendency to be very rigid, sometimes stubborn.

Your Inner Dream number is: 11

An Inner Dream number of 11 means:
You dream of casting the light of illumination; of being the true idealist. You secretly believe there is more to life than we can know or prove, and you would like to be provider of the 'word' from on high.


to those who know me: so, what do you think? in your opinion, is the analysis correct, or mostly correct, about my behaviour/character?

where i had left off..

ok, the continuation on the tkd ivp '07.


since it's been 2 months.. so, my memory and enthusiasm to write have kind of, diminished. but i'll try to complete the story where i had left it..


to cut it short:



the participants sat on a large mat; ee-jang teams in front, sa-jang teams behind. i remembered the ntu tkd coach giving his speech. oh, n he looks more like a netball coach than a tkd coach. -.-"
my team is TP team 2: me, yanning, zai yu and pei yong (reserve).

when TP team 1, consisting of gui wen, catherine, janice and shin rong (reserve), performed, i just couldnt lift up my eyes to see them. ntahlah, mungkin sbb takut nampak mereka buat mistake ke ape ke.... hmmm... i was simply afraid for them.

sementara menunggu tu, me ade jugak ah doa2 untuk tenangkan hati.. berbual2 dgn participants kat sebelah.. (TJC and SRJC, i think).. nervous tu still ada..


akhirnya,


when it was our turn, my mind was set. tak kisah sape2 yg lihat, i just wanted to concentrate. hmm... bila tgh buat pattern tu, in my head, and heart, i sensed that our movements werent the same. and there wasnt enough power. i had the feeling that i was the one who wasnt following the rest. i did try to increase my strength in movement, tapi takut2 dah tak synchronise dgn my team members.

ntahlah, ape nak jadi, jadilah. rasenye pattern tu selesai sekejap sekali. dlm hati, me rase quite puas. that we've done the best that we could, and that we couldnt possibly be the worst team. dalam mase yang sama, me tetap berdoa, that ape pon keputusannye, me tetap tabah and stay calm.

n so... my team failed to go to the next round.

alhamdulillah~ i was suprisingly calm. it was as though i did not care about us not going to the finals..

*ouh, side-track kejap: the first round is automatically called 'the semi finals'. the top 7 or 8 teams will then proceed to the 'final round'.*

sekali lagi, me bersyukur kepada Allah, kerana Dia telah berikan me ketenangan yang sgt2 me harapkan. rase sedih tu ade jugak, tapi pada tahap minimal. yang amat dirasakan time tu ialah rase gembira untuk TP team 1. yeah~ i was happy and proud of them. sbb selama ni, masa trainings, they were like the underdogs. the seniors, even coaches, were kind of pessimistic about them. my team were the so-called 'harapan' untuk menang the competition.

as for my teammates, they were unpleasantly suprised. couldnt quite believe why we got lots of deduction of marks... yang memburukkan keadaan, our instructor/coach pointed out that zai yu was the one who made the obvious, if not most, mistakes. kesian kawan me yang satu tu... kenape mesti diorang point out the mistake cepat2... tak boleh tunggu ke... dah lah time tu tgh sedih sbb tk dpt masuk final, ditambah lagi dgn rase guilty kerana diri sendiri yang menyebabkan kekalahan pasukan.

as for myself, i dont believe that the mistake zai yu made caused our defeat. in my eyes, the two of us (me and yanning) must have also done quite a number of mistakes. plus, i had already seen that some teams performed way better than us. me tak sampai hati ah... that zai yu yang kena blamed..

actually, our performance was recorded in videocam.. tapi sampai sekarang me belum tgk camne performance kite sebenarnye. hmm~

as for the sa-jang teams (both TP teams are guys), TP team 1 got into the finals.

the final result: ee-jang team didnt get any medals. sa-jang team got medals for 4th place. yey!

i dont remember who were the top 3 winners for the two categories. but i know NTU, NP were among them.

anyway, time for pictures!


my team (not in picture: pei yong)

TP team 1 (ee-jang): from left - shin rong, gui wen, janice and catherine


TP team 1 (sa-jang): from left - hafiq, nazrullah (reserve), khidir and thiha


TP team 2 (sa-jang): from left - daniel (reserve), darrel... the other two, i forgot their names *covers face in embarrassment!*


TP team 1. i dont know their pattern name. oh, n they got SILVER!!! woo-hoOo~ from left: si ting, tiffany, kit (reserve) and grace


our coaches: keng boon (pattern), michael ho (main coach) and bryan (sparring)


with michael sir; n pei yong too =) *we're soo short lahh..*


group photo. last day of competition, after prize giving ceremony. with the sparring participants. not all TP tkd people were present. TP got the second place for overall champion. first place? who else if not NTU..


with my parents. hehe.. mereka yang nak ambil gambar.. yelah, bukannye selalu dapat ambil gambar dgn me with my team temasek jacket. ho-ho =p i like this picture~~

for more pictures, go to http://picasaweb.google.com/summit.tptkd

the taekwondo ivp 2007 - my story

note: this piece of incomplete entry was written on 27 march 2007, aroung 12.57pm


i know, i know.. it's been weeks since i wrote 'stay tuned'.. and i apologise if i've kept you readers out there waiting..

the competition was held at NTU sports and recreation center. it was a 3-day event. 1st day - pattern competition. 2nd and 3rd day - sparring competition. the prize giving ceremony was on the last day.

i heard that it is the first time NTU organize this Taekwondo Open.. and i heard other stuff too. from my seniors.. hmm.. su'uz zhon ah... like, how there could've been bias-ness in the judging section. but you know what, i dont really care. maybe im naive of this tkd politics.. but i believe my group's mistakes are the real cause of our loss.

FIRST DAY

i started off the day quite badly. yeah. i was getting nervous by the minute. i asked my parents again and again to pray for me. not just for success, but for calmness, perseverence etc etc.. doa ibu bapa tu mustajab kan?

i was just soo afraid that i might mess things up. if not i, we. or go blank. n then, nak kena ikhlaskan hati.. but mostly, i was nervous coz of the pressure i put to myself. and i actually cried in 969 on the way to school. in broad daylight. *hope that none of the passengers noticed...embarrassing lah!*

even in the coach bus with my tkd friends, i didnt talk. partly because no one sat beside me. another was that i didnt feel like talking. i wanted to just keep quiet. pray. contemplate. think. hope. pray. and my eyes were brimming with tears.

tenangkan lah hati ini, ya Allah~

when we reached the center, straightaway we went to the changing room. fuh~ i like the room! spacious! then, we walked into the waiting area where we saw the teams from other schools - JCs, polys and unis. ade yang pakai school windbreaker.. i like NUS punye colour.. oren and biru.. so refreshing! n NTUnye slogan kt at the back of their windbreaker is 'NTU Spirit' fuyo~~ aku pon naik semangat! *klw gitu, kite pon nak join NTU coz of its sports team, can?*

selalunye, tkde JC yang masuk pattern competition.. but this year, we had TJC, PJC, JJC, SRJC, IJC. ade hwa chong institution jugak. poly - TP, SP, NP. universities - NUS, SMU, NTU, SIM.

n so, tpt waiting area tu crowded ah... available spaces were being used to rehearse the steps.. n occasionally, some institutions shouted their 'lets-put-our-hands-together' cheers.. very the enthusiastic! and loud.

i must say, i was a bit 'jakon' tengok ramai2 org nih... hehe... first time masuk tkd competition lah katekan...

the week before term test

latest update: the tkd pattern poomsae is not on june 17th *huge sigh of relief* it's on 17 july.


here's my term test schedule:

monday 4 june: fundamentals of pathology
tuesday 5 june: molecular genetics
wednesday 6 june: applied immunology
thursday 7 june: csas3
friday 8 june: histological technique



and, would you believe me if i say that some people only have 1 term test paper? yeah, you should. and some people have 6 papers.

it's quite relaxing, this week. coz some subjects got no lecture, no practical... so i can study peacefully. but so far, my progress is very slow..

i really want to do well, but seeing my quiz 1 results (fpath: 17.5/25, htech: 16/25, aimm: 26/30), hmmm... i must work super hard.. haiz~ penat betul bila pikir pasal pelajaran ni..

oh well..



let's talk about something lighter, shall we?

im happy to say that i now know how to use adobephotoshop. heh. =p

it's a big deal to me, ok? sebab dah berzaman me cuba nak fahamkan terms dan tools yang ade kat situ. leceh betul! alhamdulillah... sekarang ni, ade jugak skills.. before adobephotoshop, i used (still using, occasionally) the gimp, another picture-editing programme.

here are some of my 'works':





above is one of my earliest works.. cant remember whether it was from photoshop or the gimp. from the design, nampak sgt yang me ni beginner, ye tak? but i still like this picture..


this one is from the gimp. yep. actually, there's an original one: purple/dark pink background, golden yellow border and letters.


this was from the gimp too, i think. at that stage, dah tahu gunekan two colours for background, rather than one solid colour. and, main2 dgn aligning words..


this is one of my favourites.. from photoshop.


above is one of the two NI namecard samples that i've done so far. it's damn simple, which is not so... professional looking. hmm... got lots to improve. oh! did you notice the brush on the right side of the namecard? it's quite faint..

ok, i guess that's all for now.

i'll be writing another entry soon!



26 & 27 May 2007
















typing this.

finished school early today. 2pm plus.. but too bad, cant go home, coz later have ELF meeting at 6pm. alahai~~

anyway, new academic year is here... so there was a recruitment drive (3 days) for all the CCA groups... tkd had to share a booth with the rock-climbers and track&field people... ish! ujian betul... rijal2 melayu.. ergh! at first, i was enthusiastic to 'jaga' our part of the booth ar.. but after the first day.. terus me tk jaga lagi.. tk selesa ah. jenguk2 occasionally je..

elf plak, we got one bench to ourselves.. whee~~ n we won the best booth award! (err.. actually, im not sure of the exact award name ah... i think we won because of best decoration)

the outcome?

tkd - ramai pelajar melayu yg sign up. lelaki lebih ramai... semua beginner. yang perempuan nye... mmm... satu brown black belt, lagi satu black belt (whoOOoo). yg black belt tu kecil je orangnye. sungguh deceiving. heh. the rest are beginners.

elf - ramai jugak budak applied science yang diterima masuk. several classmates and coursemates and ASmates... hmm.. no comment.

oh, n did i mention that i got to interview people?? it was during the last day of ELF interview sessions (3 days) for applicants. mcm best gitu.. see how people react, trying to assess them but at the same time analyse and understand why they react this or that way (yelah~ kite pun pernah diinterview per... takkan nak act bossy/know-it-all/intimidating kan..)

last but not least, i've signed up for tkd pattern poomsae (ntah, i dunno what it means, or how to spell it) in the single category. cheh~ mcm betul je aku nih! and it's on 17 june. LESS THAN A MONTH! wah, die! another friend also signed up. in the same category.. so i guess im not alone. hmmm... doakan ye?

ok, ok... enough of the cca updates!

now, let me brief you about my subjects for this semester:

1. fundamentals of pathology

pathology means the study of disease. this subject is via e-learning. maknenye, takde lecture, takde hands-on practical. only occasional online discussions (msn chat) and face-to-face tutorial. lecture notes are provided online.

but i like the subject. first, coz of the teacher (dr. khin mar mar - PhD you! jgn main2) and the contents =)

kat sini lah kite belajar the terms for diseases... why certain diseases/abnormalities/disorders come about, the mechanism, the morphology/appearance etc etc. the best part for me is when i understand how the infection/problem actually happens, then am able to link it with the hints of symptoms/diseases... interesting!!

2. histological techniques

histology means study of tissues. only +/- 50 students yang belajar subject ni. BMT students. the lecturer is the same dr. khin =) we learn how to fix body tissues so that it wont deteriorate... tapi bukan mummification tau! tu lain.. then, dip the fixed body tissues in alcohol, xylene, wax.. then do a tissue block (a small piece of tissue inside, in the middle of, a small rectangular block of hard wax. then, microtomy (cut the tissue block super thin!) then staining (at the end, the nucleus appears blue, the cytoplasm appears pink)

basically, kite belajar camne nak kekalkan shape and komposisi cell for a long time.. for example, klw orang tu sakit barah, kite check sel barahnye. camne? ambil a tissue sample, do all the above, then baru boleh tgk under the microscope. something like that ah..

3. applied immunology

we learn more in-depth about how our body protect itself. wow! subhanallah~~ mmg amazing ah bile pikir2... punyelah complicated processes yang ade dlm badan kite nih! yang kite tahu cume jatuh sakit, makan ubat, pulih. sekarang me dah boleh imagine ape sebenarnye yg tgh happening bila me sakit, or injured..

4. molecular genetics

ni lagi amazing! tak tahu ape nak cakap!

anyway, we learn about heredity, some principles, genes, DNA, RNA, chromosomes, replication/tanscription/translation, gene expression.... all in-depth! mmg belajar detail2 ni membuatkan kite bertambah faham dan appreciative, tapi bila masuk part exam... aiyo! banyak sgt lahhhh yg kena tahu. boleh jadi pening!

sebenarnye, i have a wishful thinking... to major in genetics one day... tapi tgk ah camne... if my interest still lives 4, 10, 15, 20 years later.

5. communication skills for applied science 3

we learn research skills... especially when it comes to getting the right resources... wah, boleh tahan TP ni! our library + database resources are... well, mcm more than enough gitu. (to me, lah...) then, the usual referencing, plagiarism... at the end of the semester nanti, nak kena buat research report.. but in groups.

6. cross disciplinary subject

my cds this semester is french language and culture.

needless to say,

im loving it! =)

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okay... i think that's all for my school updates.

my social life?

urgh, forget it.

takde update. basically, my life revolves around my school.

mMmMmMMmm...

oh, btw, my tutee failed her arabic exam. im saddened by it.. ntah eh... i need to work harder. find the right channel, mechanism, to impart my knowledge to her.

and i still would like to own a laptop. materialistic me!

je suis présente!

feels good to write here again. though i was a bit reluctant.

i went to fashihah's blog just now.

she withdrew from kuis???

wow.



i wonder where you're studying now, fashihah.... anti tulis kat blog anti yang sekolah anti tu jauuuuhhh nah... mmm jauh sangat ke..? klw gitu, kite tak dapat nak jumpe lagi 2, 3 tahun??


=(

walaupun kite tak rapat, ana sedih jugak ah tak dapat nak jumpe anti... sedangkn kawan2 kt malaysia pon ana tk dapat jumpe bila mereka sedang cuti.


hmmm.... what i've been up to?

nothing much. just go to school, learn something, back home, watch tv, print notes, cca, adobe photohoshop, meetings. yeah. quite mundane.

but, but!

yesterday i got to watch spiderman 3 avec mon frère et ma soeur (with my brother and my sister). wah, wah, wah!! two thumbs up. and tobey looks especially good-looking with his fringe - and black suit. (not the black spidey suit, ok... im talking about the suit he wore when he took gwen to the diner/bar) oops! hehe..

and....

there's an open house event at madrasah al-maarif this saturday... a friend of mine said there will be bazaar and tour around the school. nice!

concurrently, there's qiyamullail at alsagoff, n im happy to say that i'll be helping out. err... as a facilitator?? hmmm... whatever lah.. yang penting, me dapat jumpe ust sakinah and adilah. woo Hoo~~ sape2 lagi yang pegi eh..

btw, if you're wondering, the main picture in this layout: lyrics from the song Vois Sur Ton Chemin, one of the beautiful songs from the french movie Les Choristes (The Choir). i had been wanting to watch the movie ever since it was launched.... bertahun2 yang lalu ah... then, as i was flipping through my french workbook, i saw the 'movie screening' part... and i saw the word 'les choristes'. obviously lah kan, the dvd/vcd is in the school library.

punyelah sukeerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr diri nie bila discover that the cd is within my reach! ape lagi...





and so, j'aime Les Choristes =)

afterwards, i borrowed the soundtrack. aiyo~ tak puas2 si liyana nih!

the soloist's voice is just so.. angelic, melodious.. bagai buluh perindu. betul! namanye Jean-Baptiste Maunier. physique nye pon.... subhanallah~ suara ade, wajah ade... *sentence left hanging* there's also one character 'pepinot'... budak yang lakonkan watak tu pon.. cute!

klw nak tahu cerite ni tentang ape, go and google, or yahoo, 'les choristes' yourself. thanks!






this is the real choir group behind Les Choristes. they are from Les Petits Chanteurs de Saint-Marc.

click here to listen to another song from the movie, n this time there's a solo part by jean-baptiste.

into my second year

school reopens, and im now a junior. i dont like that term..!! it sounds younger than freshman..

n the best thing is...

i got french for my cross-disciplinary subject!! woo-hoo~~ i hope i'll get A or B for this subject..

timetable, well, im satisfied with it. basically, i have lotttsss of breaks =) oh! but bad news: tuesday to friday, sch starts at 8 in the morning. *rolling on the floor, wailing like mad~~* i missed APEL lesson (a tutorial) yesterday =( it was really demoralizing, sitting in the bus, hands going numb due to super cold aircon, n stuck in the highway jam. so, i expect to get a warning letter soon.

cca, im selected for Quartermaster in ELF. im happy with that position, coz i asked for it :) tkd, we got a malay guy captain. yeah!

n silat is now officially in TP!! too bad im already in tkd, so although i'd like to join the seni part of silat, i dont think i can. oh well~~ in conclusion, i wont be adding another cca into my life.

oh, n i have several new classmates. coz biomed split up already. half goes to biomedical technology (BMT), another half goes to pharmaseutical science and technology (PST). im in BMT. then, BMT students are divided into 2 classes. im in TG02.

ok, got to go now. tutorial at 11am~ bye!!

my pride

Im JuSt So PrOuD tO bE a StUdEnT oF

Madrasah Alsagoff Al-Arabiah


School of Applied Science


Temasek Polytechnic


and i must say, im proud to be a


SINGAPOREAN



~feeling sooOoOoo patriotic!~

50+ more hours to go!!!

oh tidak...!!!!!!!!!

school opens in less than 2 weeks, n i havent even reached 40-hour mark! die, die, die!

Geriatric Nutrition - Nutritional Assessment and Menu Analysis.

alhamdulillah~~ i've finished filling in my share of data summary forms.. but i havent double-checked or standardised the formats... aiyo! nanti je lah.... dah penat hadap microsoft word and excel!

hmmm.... what have i been up to lately, eh? im very much aware that i have not been sharing with you lots of stories n interesting events.. sampai dah naik lupe.. hmm...

here's a summary..:

:: the most recent one was the MIQ 'meta.ilmu.aqal' quiz. represented TP, well, sort of.. err.. illegally. TP didnt get through to the semi-finals. our marks were pathetic, but who cares! =) good news though: 2 members of our team (out of 10 people who took the MIQ test aka the qualifying round) clinched the 2nd and 3rd positions in the top 5 scorers. *beaming* marha~ marha~

:: the ongoing activity now is D-Talk, a 2-day 1-night da'wah camp organised by Nur Ikhwan. for tertiary level students. what does 'D' stand for? go figure it out yourself! im in finance.. so not much work there. but, but.... im SUCH A LOUSY team member. coz i dont put enough effort when doing task! procrastinate, as usual. nak tulis email draft to mendaki pon lambat! in the end, my camp commandant yg gi sane, jumpe officer nye.. (but, hey! i've written and emailed the draft to her and another 2 sisters, ok? i did my job on time! the only problam was the soft copy of proposal tkde kt yahoogroup, n then, kebetulan dia nak gi ke mendaki hari ni... so, nampaknye my email to tk diperlukan lagi. tkpe..tkpe..) oh, n the event is next week, saturday. check out Nur Ikhwan's blog for more details!

:: ELF training with Paul, our senior ELF... that was when i learnt to sit on my harness. oh. my. god. ingatkan senang ke pe?! i was the first to go. he didnt tell what we were supposed to do after we lobster-clawed ourselves up. tapi tk tinggi ah.. around 2 metres gitu.. bila disuruh ' relax, let go of your hands, rest on your harness, straighten your legs.. ' waduh! mcm tk boleh gitu! tapi.... at last, aku berjaya!!! yey! then.. then... i learnt threading/treading also... kena panjat pole tinggi sendiri.. then pasang itu, pasang ini... seram oi! jgn main2! yg me happy and proud of myself was that i managed to sit on my harness, again, tp kali ni kt the near-highest point of the pole. (although my legs kinda wrapped around it) n then, the ELFs had a talk with our SAA advisor, terence, about the next main committee... all of us there applied to be in the main comm..

:: went for Applied Science Orientation Leaders Training Camp. 3-day 2-night. this year, AS school's cheer is dikir-barat style.. some commented that it's a bit soft leh... n i think our cheers would surely be drowned by the other schools' upbeat, loud, deafening cheers. hmmm.. oh! n this year's theme is The Pirates of The Caribbean. (last year was Underworld)

:: watched the movie Sybil at school library. only 1 of the 2 CDs though. kudos to the actress! she really potrayed her different characters stunningly well! believable! should watch! but mind you, there's this part were the guy neighbour went to sybil's apartment n shamelessly undressed himself. yuck!

:: zoo outing with several classmates. lots of walking than really relishing the scenery n displays. but i enjoyed it nevertheless. dah berzaman tk gi sane.. so i was happy to step into the animal world again =)

:: TKD chalet. the malays uruskan the BBQ food. it's a 3-day chalet.. but i only went for the first day.. coz got BBQ... it wasnt a pleasant experience for me. felt out of place.

:: labrador park outing with tahfiz friends, n juniors. HAPPY, HAPPY, HAPPY ME ^_^ it was great to see kak juwita, afeyah and kak hafizah again!! woOoOoOOOooo~

:: oh! n my cumulative grade point average (cgpa) - combining 1st and 2nd semesters' gpa - is 3.14. alhamdulillah~ no A for me... 1 distinction, 1 C+, and some B+'s and B's.




i need a break, man. seriously.... i want to go out of singapore. gi johor bahru pon jadi lah~ or mane2 kt singapore... tapi nak cari enough leisure time nie susah.... tkde waktu untuk gembirakan diri ni... to get away from tasks, daily routines. cuti sekolah pon, tk dpt nak cuti! i want to go to DQ, can? nak cari ketenangan..


that's all, i guess. enjoy your week, people! byeee~~!





an example

di bawah adalah satu contoh orang yang nak berkenalan dengan orang lain.

"Hey liyana eh boleh bual2 jap im boring kat camp"

kisahnye begini: ade satu hamba Allah nie, dia sms me, asking "Liyana eh".. i replied that i am liyana and asked this person who she/he is..

then, erm.. i couldnt quite remember.. well, turned out that he is my coursemate's brother, n that he got the wrong number, wrong liyana. hah! so i said ok, hope that you will find the correct person's number. then.... the above sms was sent to me.

duh! ape lagi, me pon reply yang me ni 'bukan wanita yang berbual dgn lelaki kt talipon' n i suggested that he talk to his same species friends. i mean, come on lah! mcmlah dia ni tkde kwn2 lelaki... tkkn nak berbual dgn perempuan kot! merepek!

his reply:

"bukan mcm gitulah bebual msg je lahh"

n i replied something like "klw saye ade urusan dgn lelaki, saye sms.. or call klw terpakse. saye tkde urusan dgn awak, bahkan tk kenal pun." and something like, "i hope you respect my principle/decision"..

dia tk reply balik, klw tk silap. so, the end =)


nak kate, i think this is my first time dealing with a total stranger of the opposite sex who wants to start a conversation. n my first impression was, ergh! menyampah nye aku! tapi, mcm nak nasihatkan dia, tegurkan kesilapan dia tu..

hmm.. learnt any lesson, anyone?

^_^

kawan-kawan..

Ya Allah,

betapa aku rindu pada kawan-kawan ku di Alsagoff...










aahh~ i miss you guys soo much. i want to go back. let's go back.
seeing those photos at friendster finally overwhelmed me.


im simply missing the life i had back then. it's just soo different now.


but i cant go back.

Il divo & celine dion - i believe in you

it is one of the truely inspiring songs i've ever heard and fallen in love with =)






Lonely
The path you have chosen
A restless road
No turning back
One day you
Will find you light again
Don't you know
Don't let go
Be strong

Follow you heart
Let you love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you

Follow your dreams
Be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you can not do
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you.

Tout seul
Tu t'en iras tout seul
Coeur ouvert
A L'univers
Poursuis ta quete
Sans regarder derriére
N'attends pas
Que le jour
Se léve

Suis ton étoile
Va jusqu'ou ton reve t'emporte
Un jour tu le toucheras
Si tu croix si tu croix si tu croix
En toi
Suis la lumiére
N'eneins pas la flamme que tu portes
Au fonds de toi souviens-toi
Que je croix que je croix que je croix
Que je croix
En toi

Someday I'll find you
Someday you'll find me to (erm.. to? or, too?)
And when I hold you close
I'll know that is true

Follow your heart
Let you love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe in you

Follow your dreams
Be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you can not do
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you.

nak elakkan osteoporosis!!

skrg nie tgh buat research analysis ttg nutrition for elderly. jadi me bacelah artikel pasal osteoporosis... it means 'porous bones' aka the bones become weak and brittle.

wah~ gue tak nak tu berlaku pada gue bila dah tua nanti.. skrg nie pon, my leg bone mcm ade something wrong. nak kate bruise, bukan. but then again, me tk pasti whether it's my bone or muscle yang rasa sakit occasionally. the 'thing' starts after i took up tkd.. coz of the trainings, the pain, though not usually significant, never subsided completely. till now.

anyway, i got some tips that i read from the health promotion board website:

mcmane nak kurangkan risk of getting osteoporosis..

exercise: weight-bearing exercise - JOGGING, dancing and briskwalking... wah! mudah betul... heh.. nasib baik sejak masuk poly, me dah mula jogging (tp mase tkd training je.. =p)

another type of exercise is resistance exercise - PUSH-UPS and weightlifting. skrg nie, mase training jarang ade push-ups.... so i will have to 'cari semangat' to do it myself. heh.

dari segi makanan plak:

kite2 yang berumur 10-18 tahun perlukan 1000mg of calcium daily. my supervisor says that it's easy to reach that number daily. mula2, me pikir mcm byk sgt gitu... but bila dah tgk kt website HPB... ooh! senang je..
klw ade yg tk minat susu pon, ade food/beverage lain yg provide calcium =)

HIGH CALCIUM MILK POWDER
(brand ape eh?)
LOW FAT YOGURT
(good thing i've started eating yogurt since...last year? or was it last two years..?)
CHEESE
(no comment -.-")
IKAN BILIS
(lalalala.... klw ayah tahu betape BANYAKnye calcium ade dlm ikan bilis... haiz~ tkkn akan stop lah me di'encouraged'nye untuk mkn ikan bilis BANYAK2...)
CANNED SARDINE WITH BONE
(me makan lah jugak.... tapi tk favourite sgt.. klw kombinasi lauk menyelarakan, barulah me suke)
TAU HUAY
(suke suke SUKE nyeeee!!! ^_^)
SOYA BEAN DRINK
(sedap! tapi one glass - 250ml - tk provide byk sgt calcium ar.. 25mg je)
DRIED FIGS
(happy betul bila me dpt tahu yg buah tin adalah sumber calcium yg oomph! 5 biji - 95g - provide 240mg of calcium!! dah terbukti dah bahawa buah tin yang disebutkan dlm alQuran mmg sah khasiatnye! and i'll be happy to eat 10 or more dried figs, doubling the calcium it gives... like 500mg?)
DRIED APRICOT
(waah~ berita gembira lagi! tk sia2 me suke makan dried apricot.. bukan sahaje sedap, tapi ber-calcium! hehe..)
RAISINS
(good news lagi!)
PAPAYA
(pada zaman dahulu kala me tak minat makan buah nie...)
HIGH CALCIUM SOYA BEAN MILK
BREAD
(nak kate, roti nie mmg complete segala nutrients yang kite perlukan... err.. betul atau tidak? anyway, rajin2lah makan roti ye!)

ade byk lagi source of calcium... tapi me tk letak kt sini. cari sendiri. hah!

oh! and get at least 30-60 minutes of sunshine per day. we need vitamin D which increases calcium absorption from the intestines.


plus, i just found out that smoking causes early menopause in women, apart from bone loss.


ok. that's all for now. gotta go! hope this information benefits you!

into the first week of holiday



1. i am accepted in this semester's differential research program (DRP).. i got my first choice. and apparently, i had forgotten what my 3 choices were, let alone the 1st choice! so, when i got a call from Ms Ong Eng Gim, who introduced herself as my research supervisor, i was like... wow! i got the opportunity this time! but... err.. what did i pick? O_o i checked my tp email just now and found out that the research is on nutrition; something about menu analysis.

2. my schedule from tomorrow till 16 march is packed!! wAaAAArrggghhh~~!! ehem. what i mean by 'packed' is that everyday i go out. NI matters, facilitating in a camp (more of that below), tkd, zoo outing with classmates, DRP briefing and labrador park outing with tahfiz friends. tiring, you know! all these eat up the one week school holiday.. camne nak adekan gathering dgn sec42005?! budak2 kuis, dq, poly ok ah.. tapi mwti, maarif, zuhri, pergas?

3. there was a briefing for Character Building Camp for Underprivileged Children at Sunbeam Place (the camp venue).. this camp is organised by SMU.. and they invite TP Community Club Sub-Comms to be volunteers for the camp.. there are 15 of us. 5 to help in the games, 10 to facilitate the groups. we didnt see the children, though the principal did give us the ground rules, the do's and dont's... oooOoOoOOoo.. the camp is for 2 and a half days, no sleeping over. that's good for me =)

4. now that the tkd ivp's over, it's back to kickin' targets and whatnots.. fuh~ i felt like i was doing the kicks for the first time on tuesday night.. we focused on pattern for like.. more than one month? so, my still-not-improving kicking skills have somewhat wilted. but then again, it felt good to be kicking around again.. lalalalalala... never mind that i improve slower than the others!

5. to be honest, i really dont have high hopes for my semester two results. my gpa was 3.02 last semester, and after some calculations (with actual incidents, not numbers) and measurements, i am afraid i may fall lower than 3.02. disappointed? OF COURSE im disappointed with myself! i have never failed to disappoint, on one occasion or another, havent i?

6. how come i couldnt access to aszafirah's blog page? aiyo~~ mcm tk sah plak klw me tk visit blognye.. heh.

7. the pursuit of happyness is soo ordinary.. soo subtle.. soo human, that my eyes were filled with tears of understanding, empathy and pure joy at the end of the movie.

stay tuned!

young sports leaders seminar at SMU - 3 march 2007


Taekwondo Open at NTU - 2, 3 & 4 march 2007