ana hamlatul qur'an

i was at mjd annur from ard 5 pm to 1050 pm...tgk musabaqah tilawatil qur'an kebangsaan singapura..hari nie prgkt separuh akhir kategori belia...first time since 2 years i guess..the 'normal' people i know were there..kak huda, adek beradeknye..husnah, zahidah, ishatun...n some people i recognise..sh mastura, atiqah..n a few peserta banin..

some of the participants are really talented...bace mcm pro gitu..tp tk kisahlah..yg lebih baik dan yg kurang baik, mereka semue tlh dikurniakan satu keistimewaan..syukran ilallah..i, myself, am fascinated by their recitation..ghibtah pon ade ;p..

lebih beruntung sekali klw seseorg tu tahu ilmu tilawah n tahfiz qur'an...mmg ade beberape org yg ana kenal yg mcm gitu...good for them..kdg2 me terfikir jugak..mungkin suatu hari nanti, biler me dah khatam you-know-what, i'll like to try bidang tilawah pulak...it'll be a bonus..insha allah..tp, buat mase skrg, ana rase talent ana dlm tilawah langsung tkde..hmm..belum cube belum tahu, ye tak?..

tpkan..biler me tgk peserte2nye..me terfikir..adekah mereke2 nie benar2 boleh dikatekan sebagai hamlatul qur'an? bukan me nk 'su'uzzon'..tp, from the what i have known n seen, some of them do not live the life of a 'qur'an bearer' (ceh! mcm torch bearer dlm olimpik pulak!)..even i, myself, am not living that life..honestly.. kdg2 me terfikir dose yg hamlatul qur'an yg lalai pikul...mereke telah mengetahui..ttp seolah2 tidak mengetahui..sometimes..i feel like a hypocrite..do i want to be a hamlatul qur'an or not??! what have i done to prove my choice?!

i try to think postively, though..at least, they've been chosen by Allah to have or do something that perhaps other people cant or dont want to do..that is, to be able to read the qur'an or memorize it with good tjwd, fasahah n beautiful melody..i remember a verse from qur'an..dlm surah fathir tk silap..jap..jap..i'll check.

oh! ayat 32 surah fathir:"kemudian Kitab itu kami wariskan kepada orang2 yang Kami pilih di antara hamba2 Kami, lalu di antara mereka ada yang menganiaya diri mereka sendiri dan di antara mereka ada yang pertengahan dan di antara mereka ada (pula) yang lebih dahulu dalam berbuat kebaikan dengan izin Allah.Yang demikian itu adalah kurnia yang amat besar."

this verse leaves a mark in my mind..hmmMmMmMMmm..

i really hope, golongan hamlatul qur'an yg sebenar tkkn hilang dek zaman..biar sedikit..kerane..sikit2 pon, mereka mampu menyelamatkan kite2 yg jahil ini..insha allah..me pulak..i dont want to classify myself as a hamlatul qur'an..bukan malu..tp me sendiri tk pasti klw me layak digelar sedemikian..

"man ana?"