school reopens, and im now a junior. i dont like that term..!! it sounds younger than freshman..
n the best thing is...
i got french for my cross-disciplinary subject!! woo-hoo~~ i hope i'll get A or B for this subject..
timetable, well, im satisfied with it. basically, i have lotttsss of breaks =) oh! but bad news: tuesday to friday, sch starts at 8 in the morning. *rolling on the floor, wailing like mad~~* i missed APEL lesson (a tutorial) yesterday =( it was really demoralizing, sitting in the bus, hands going numb due to super cold aircon, n stuck in the highway jam. so, i expect to get a warning letter soon.
cca, im selected for Quartermaster in ELF. im happy with that position, coz i asked for it :) tkd, we got a malay guy captain. yeah!
n silat is now officially in TP!! too bad im already in tkd, so although i'd like to join the seni part of silat, i dont think i can. oh well~~ in conclusion, i wont be adding another cca into my life.
oh, n i have several new classmates. coz biomed split up already. half goes to biomedical technology (BMT), another half goes to pharmaseutical science and technology (PST). im in BMT. then, BMT students are divided into 2 classes. im in TG02.
ok, got to go now. tutorial at 11am~ bye!!
my pride
Im JuSt So PrOuD tO bE a StUdEnT oF
Madrasah Alsagoff Al-Arabiah
School of Applied Science
Temasek Polytechnic
and i must say, im proud to be a
SINGAPOREAN
~feeling sooOoOoo patriotic!~
50+ more hours to go!!!
oh tidak...!!!!!!!!!
school opens in less than 2 weeks, n i havent even reached 40-hour mark! die, die, die!
Geriatric Nutrition - Nutritional Assessment and Menu Analysis.
alhamdulillah~~ i've finished filling in my share of data summary forms.. but i havent double-checked or standardised the formats... aiyo! nanti je lah.... dah penat hadap microsoft word and excel!
hmmm.... what have i been up to lately, eh? im very much aware that i have not been sharing with you lots of stories n interesting events.. sampai dah naik lupe.. hmm...
here's a summary..:
:: the most recent one was the MIQ 'meta.ilmu.aqal' quiz. represented TP, well, sort of.. err.. illegally. TP didnt get through to the semi-finals. our marks were pathetic, but who cares! =) good news though: 2 members of our team (out of 10 people who took the MIQ test aka the qualifying round) clinched the 2nd and 3rd positions in the top 5 scorers. *beaming* marha~ marha~
:: the ongoing activity now is D-Talk, a 2-day 1-night da'wah camp organised by Nur Ikhwan. for tertiary level students. what does 'D' stand for? go figure it out yourself! im in finance.. so not much work there. but, but.... im SUCH A LOUSY team member. coz i dont put enough effort when doing task! procrastinate, as usual. nak tulis email draft to mendaki pon lambat! in the end, my camp commandant yg gi sane, jumpe officer nye.. (but, hey! i've written and emailed the draft to her and another 2 sisters, ok? i did my job on time! the only problam was the soft copy of proposal tkde kt yahoogroup, n then, kebetulan dia nak gi ke mendaki hari ni... so, nampaknye my email to tk diperlukan lagi. tkpe..tkpe..) oh, n the event is next week, saturday. check out Nur Ikhwan's blog for more details!
:: ELF training with Paul, our senior ELF... that was when i learnt to sit on my harness. oh. my. god. ingatkan senang ke pe?! i was the first to go. he didnt tell what we were supposed to do after we lobster-clawed ourselves up. tapi tk tinggi ah.. around 2 metres gitu.. bila disuruh ' relax, let go of your hands, rest on your harness, straighten your legs.. ' waduh! mcm tk boleh gitu! tapi.... at last, aku berjaya!!! yey! then.. then... i learnt threading/treading also... kena panjat pole tinggi sendiri.. then pasang itu, pasang ini... seram oi! jgn main2! yg me happy and proud of myself was that i managed to sit on my harness, again, tp kali ni kt the near-highest point of the pole. (although my legs kinda wrapped around it) n then, the ELFs had a talk with our SAA advisor, terence, about the next main committee... all of us there applied to be in the main comm..
:: went for Applied Science Orientation Leaders Training Camp. 3-day 2-night. this year, AS school's cheer is dikir-barat style.. some commented that it's a bit soft leh... n i think our cheers would surely be drowned by the other schools' upbeat, loud, deafening cheers. hmmm.. oh! n this year's theme is The Pirates of The Caribbean. (last year was Underworld)
:: watched the movie Sybil at school library. only 1 of the 2 CDs though. kudos to the actress! she really potrayed her different characters stunningly well! believable! should watch! but mind you, there's this part were the guy neighbour went to sybil's apartment n shamelessly undressed himself. yuck!
:: zoo outing with several classmates. lots of walking than really relishing the scenery n displays. but i enjoyed it nevertheless. dah berzaman tk gi sane.. so i was happy to step into the animal world again =)
:: TKD chalet. the malays uruskan the BBQ food. it's a 3-day chalet.. but i only went for the first day.. coz got BBQ... it wasnt a pleasant experience for me. felt out of place.
:: labrador park outing with tahfiz friends, n juniors. HAPPY, HAPPY, HAPPY ME ^_^ it was great to see kak juwita, afeyah and kak hafizah again!! woOoOoOOOooo~
:: oh! n my cumulative grade point average (cgpa) - combining 1st and 2nd semesters' gpa - is 3.14. alhamdulillah~ no A for me... 1 distinction, 1 C+, and some B+'s and B's.
i need a break, man. seriously.... i want to go out of singapore. gi johor bahru pon jadi lah~ or mane2 kt singapore... tapi nak cari enough leisure time nie susah.... tkde waktu untuk gembirakan diri ni... to get away from tasks, daily routines. cuti sekolah pon, tk dpt nak cuti! i want to go to DQ, can? nak cari ketenangan..
that's all, i guess. enjoy your week, people! byeee~~!
school opens in less than 2 weeks, n i havent even reached 40-hour mark! die, die, die!
Geriatric Nutrition - Nutritional Assessment and Menu Analysis.
alhamdulillah~~ i've finished filling in my share of data summary forms.. but i havent double-checked or standardised the formats... aiyo! nanti je lah.... dah penat hadap microsoft word and excel!
hmmm.... what have i been up to lately, eh? im very much aware that i have not been sharing with you lots of stories n interesting events.. sampai dah naik lupe.. hmm...
here's a summary..:
:: the most recent one was the MIQ 'meta.ilmu.aqal' quiz. represented TP, well, sort of.. err.. illegally. TP didnt get through to the semi-finals. our marks were pathetic, but who cares! =) good news though: 2 members of our team (out of 10 people who took the MIQ test aka the qualifying round) clinched the 2nd and 3rd positions in the top 5 scorers. *beaming* marha~ marha~
:: the ongoing activity now is D-Talk, a 2-day 1-night da'wah camp organised by Nur Ikhwan. for tertiary level students. what does 'D' stand for? go figure it out yourself! im in finance.. so not much work there. but, but.... im SUCH A LOUSY team member. coz i dont put enough effort when doing task! procrastinate, as usual. nak tulis email draft to mendaki pon lambat! in the end, my camp commandant yg gi sane, jumpe officer nye.. (but, hey! i've written and emailed the draft to her and another 2 sisters, ok? i did my job on time! the only problam was the soft copy of proposal tkde kt yahoogroup, n then, kebetulan dia nak gi ke mendaki hari ni... so, nampaknye my email to tk diperlukan lagi. tkpe..tkpe..) oh, n the event is next week, saturday. check out Nur Ikhwan's blog for more details!
:: ELF training with Paul, our senior ELF... that was when i learnt to sit on my harness. oh. my. god. ingatkan senang ke pe?! i was the first to go. he didnt tell what we were supposed to do after we lobster-clawed ourselves up. tapi tk tinggi ah.. around 2 metres gitu.. bila disuruh ' relax, let go of your hands, rest on your harness, straighten your legs.. ' waduh! mcm tk boleh gitu! tapi.... at last, aku berjaya!!! yey! then.. then... i learnt threading/treading also... kena panjat pole tinggi sendiri.. then pasang itu, pasang ini... seram oi! jgn main2! yg me happy and proud of myself was that i managed to sit on my harness, again, tp kali ni kt the near-highest point of the pole. (although my legs kinda wrapped around it) n then, the ELFs had a talk with our SAA advisor, terence, about the next main committee... all of us there applied to be in the main comm..
:: went for Applied Science Orientation Leaders Training Camp. 3-day 2-night. this year, AS school's cheer is dikir-barat style.. some commented that it's a bit soft leh... n i think our cheers would surely be drowned by the other schools' upbeat, loud, deafening cheers. hmmm.. oh! n this year's theme is The Pirates of The Caribbean. (last year was Underworld)
:: watched the movie Sybil at school library. only 1 of the 2 CDs though. kudos to the actress! she really potrayed her different characters stunningly well! believable! should watch! but mind you, there's this part were the guy neighbour went to sybil's apartment n shamelessly undressed himself. yuck!
:: zoo outing with several classmates. lots of walking than really relishing the scenery n displays. but i enjoyed it nevertheless. dah berzaman tk gi sane.. so i was happy to step into the animal world again =)
:: TKD chalet. the malays uruskan the BBQ food. it's a 3-day chalet.. but i only went for the first day.. coz got BBQ... it wasnt a pleasant experience for me. felt out of place.
:: labrador park outing with tahfiz friends, n juniors. HAPPY, HAPPY, HAPPY ME ^_^ it was great to see kak juwita, afeyah and kak hafizah again!! woOoOoOOOooo~
:: oh! n my cumulative grade point average (cgpa) - combining 1st and 2nd semesters' gpa - is 3.14. alhamdulillah~ no A for me... 1 distinction, 1 C+, and some B+'s and B's.
i need a break, man. seriously.... i want to go out of singapore. gi johor bahru pon jadi lah~ or mane2 kt singapore... tapi nak cari enough leisure time nie susah.... tkde waktu untuk gembirakan diri ni... to get away from tasks, daily routines. cuti sekolah pon, tk dpt nak cuti! i want to go to DQ, can? nak cari ketenangan..
that's all, i guess. enjoy your week, people! byeee~~!
an example
di bawah adalah satu contoh orang yang nak berkenalan dengan orang lain.
"Hey liyana eh boleh bual2 jap im boring kat camp"
kisahnye begini: ade satu hamba Allah nie, dia sms me, asking "Liyana eh".. i replied that i am liyana and asked this person who she/he is..
then, erm.. i couldnt quite remember.. well, turned out that he is my coursemate's brother, n that he got the wrong number, wrong liyana. hah! so i said ok, hope that you will find the correct person's number. then.... the above sms was sent to me.
duh! ape lagi, me pon reply yang me ni 'bukan wanita yang berbual dgn lelaki kt talipon' n i suggested that he talk to his same species friends. i mean, come on lah! mcmlah dia ni tkde kwn2 lelaki... tkkn nak berbual dgn perempuan kot! merepek!
his reply:
"bukan mcm gitulah bebual msg je lahh"
n i replied something like "klw saye ade urusan dgn lelaki, saye sms.. or call klw terpakse. saye tkde urusan dgn awak, bahkan tk kenal pun." and something like, "i hope you respect my principle/decision"..
dia tk reply balik, klw tk silap. so, the end =)
nak kate, i think this is my first time dealing with a total stranger of the opposite sex who wants to start a conversation. n my first impression was, ergh! menyampah nye aku! tapi, mcm nak nasihatkan dia, tegurkan kesilapan dia tu..
hmm.. learnt any lesson, anyone?
^_^
"Hey liyana eh boleh bual2 jap im boring kat camp"
kisahnye begini: ade satu hamba Allah nie, dia sms me, asking "Liyana eh".. i replied that i am liyana and asked this person who she/he is..
then, erm.. i couldnt quite remember.. well, turned out that he is my coursemate's brother, n that he got the wrong number, wrong liyana. hah! so i said ok, hope that you will find the correct person's number. then.... the above sms was sent to me.
duh! ape lagi, me pon reply yang me ni 'bukan wanita yang berbual dgn lelaki kt talipon' n i suggested that he talk to his same species friends. i mean, come on lah! mcmlah dia ni tkde kwn2 lelaki... tkkn nak berbual dgn perempuan kot! merepek!
his reply:
"bukan mcm gitulah bebual msg je lahh"
n i replied something like "klw saye ade urusan dgn lelaki, saye sms.. or call klw terpakse. saye tkde urusan dgn awak, bahkan tk kenal pun." and something like, "i hope you respect my principle/decision"..
dia tk reply balik, klw tk silap. so, the end =)
nak kate, i think this is my first time dealing with a total stranger of the opposite sex who wants to start a conversation. n my first impression was, ergh! menyampah nye aku! tapi, mcm nak nasihatkan dia, tegurkan kesilapan dia tu..
hmm.. learnt any lesson, anyone?
^_^
kawan-kawan..
Ya Allah,
betapa aku rindu pada kawan-kawan ku di Alsagoff...
aahh~ i miss you guys soo much. i want to go back. let's go back.
seeing those photos at friendster finally overwhelmed me.
im simply missing the life i had back then. it's just soo different now.
but i cant go back.
betapa aku rindu pada kawan-kawan ku di Alsagoff...
aahh~ i miss you guys soo much. i want to go back. let's go back.
seeing those photos at friendster finally overwhelmed me.
im simply missing the life i had back then. it's just soo different now.
but i cant go back.
Il divo & celine dion - i believe in you
it is one of the truely inspiring songs i've ever heard and fallen in love with =)
Lonely
The path you have chosen
A restless road
No turning back
One day you
Will find you light again
Don't you know
Don't let go
Be strong
Follow you heart
Let you love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you
Follow your dreams
Be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you can not do
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you.
Tout seul
Tu t'en iras tout seul
Coeur ouvert
A L'univers
Poursuis ta quete
Sans regarder derriére
N'attends pas
Que le jour
Se léve
Suis ton étoile
Va jusqu'ou ton reve t'emporte
Un jour tu le toucheras
Si tu croix si tu croix si tu croix
En toi
Suis la lumiére
N'eneins pas la flamme que tu portes
Au fonds de toi souviens-toi
Que je croix que je croix que je croix
Que je croix
En toi
Someday I'll find you
Someday you'll find me to (erm.. to? or, too?)
And when I hold you close
I'll know that is true
Follow your heart
Let you love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe in you
Follow your dreams
Be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you can not do
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you.
Lonely
The path you have chosen
A restless road
No turning back
One day you
Will find you light again
Don't you know
Don't let go
Be strong
Follow you heart
Let you love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you
Follow your dreams
Be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you can not do
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you.
Tout seul
Tu t'en iras tout seul
Coeur ouvert
A L'univers
Poursuis ta quete
Sans regarder derriére
N'attends pas
Que le jour
Se léve
Suis ton étoile
Va jusqu'ou ton reve t'emporte
Un jour tu le toucheras
Si tu croix si tu croix si tu croix
En toi
Suis la lumiére
N'eneins pas la flamme que tu portes
Au fonds de toi souviens-toi
Que je croix que je croix que je croix
Que je croix
En toi
Someday I'll find you
Someday you'll find me to (erm.. to? or, too?)
And when I hold you close
I'll know that is true
Follow your heart
Let you love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you once knew
I believe, I believe, I believe in you
Follow your dreams
Be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you can not do
I believe, I believe, I believe
In you.
nak elakkan osteoporosis!!
skrg nie tgh buat research analysis ttg nutrition for elderly. jadi me bacelah artikel pasal osteoporosis... it means 'porous bones' aka the bones become weak and brittle.
wah~ gue tak nak tu berlaku pada gue bila dah tua nanti.. skrg nie pon, my leg bone mcm ade something wrong. nak kate bruise, bukan. but then again, me tk pasti whether it's my bone or muscle yang rasa sakit occasionally. the 'thing' starts after i took up tkd.. coz of the trainings, the pain, though not usually significant, never subsided completely. till now.
anyway, i got some tips that i read from the health promotion board website:
mcmane nak kurangkan risk of getting osteoporosis..
exercise: weight-bearing exercise - JOGGING, dancing and briskwalking... wah! mudah betul... heh.. nasib baik sejak masuk poly, me dah mula jogging (tp mase tkd training je.. =p)
another type of exercise is resistance exercise - PUSH-UPS and weightlifting. skrg nie, mase training jarang ade push-ups.... so i will have to 'cari semangat' to do it myself. heh.
dari segi makanan plak:
kite2 yang berumur 10-18 tahun perlukan 1000mg of calcium daily. my supervisor says that it's easy to reach that number daily. mula2, me pikir mcm byk sgt gitu... but bila dah tgk kt website HPB... ooh! senang je..
klw ade yg tk minat susu pon, ade food/beverage lain yg provide calcium =)
HIGH CALCIUM MILK POWDER
(brand ape eh?)
LOW FAT YOGURT
(good thing i've started eating yogurt since...last year? or was it last two years..?)
CHEESE
(no comment -.-")
IKAN BILIS
(lalalala.... klw ayah tahu betape BANYAKnye calcium ade dlm ikan bilis... haiz~ tkkn akan stop lah me di'encouraged'nye untuk mkn ikan bilis BANYAK2...)
CANNED SARDINE WITH BONE
(me makan lah jugak.... tapi tk favourite sgt.. klw kombinasi lauk menyelarakan, barulah me suke)
TAU HUAY
(suke suke SUKE nyeeee!!! ^_^)
SOYA BEAN DRINK
(sedap! tapi one glass - 250ml - tk provide byk sgt calcium ar.. 25mg je)
DRIED FIGS
(happy betul bila me dpt tahu yg buah tin adalah sumber calcium yg oomph! 5 biji - 95g - provide 240mg of calcium!! dah terbukti dah bahawa buah tin yang disebutkan dlm alQuran mmg sah khasiatnye! and i'll be happy to eat 10 or more dried figs, doubling the calcium it gives... like 500mg?)
DRIED APRICOT
(waah~ berita gembira lagi! tk sia2 me suke makan dried apricot.. bukan sahaje sedap, tapi ber-calcium! hehe..)
RAISINS
(good news lagi!)
PAPAYA
(pada zaman dahulu kala me tak minat makan buah nie...)
HIGH CALCIUM SOYA BEAN MILK
BREAD
(nak kate, roti nie mmg complete segala nutrients yang kite perlukan... err.. betul atau tidak? anyway, rajin2lah makan roti ye!)
ade byk lagi source of calcium... tapi me tk letak kt sini. cari sendiri. hah!
oh! and get at least 30-60 minutes of sunshine per day. we need vitamin D which increases calcium absorption from the intestines.
plus, i just found out that smoking causes early menopause in women, apart from bone loss.
ok. that's all for now. gotta go! hope this information benefits you!
wah~ gue tak nak tu berlaku pada gue bila dah tua nanti.. skrg nie pon, my leg bone mcm ade something wrong. nak kate bruise, bukan. but then again, me tk pasti whether it's my bone or muscle yang rasa sakit occasionally. the 'thing' starts after i took up tkd.. coz of the trainings, the pain, though not usually significant, never subsided completely. till now.
anyway, i got some tips that i read from the health promotion board website:
mcmane nak kurangkan risk of getting osteoporosis..
exercise: weight-bearing exercise - JOGGING, dancing and briskwalking... wah! mudah betul... heh.. nasib baik sejak masuk poly, me dah mula jogging (tp mase tkd training je.. =p)
another type of exercise is resistance exercise - PUSH-UPS and weightlifting. skrg nie, mase training jarang ade push-ups.... so i will have to 'cari semangat' to do it myself. heh.
dari segi makanan plak:
kite2 yang berumur 10-18 tahun perlukan 1000mg of calcium daily. my supervisor says that it's easy to reach that number daily. mula2, me pikir mcm byk sgt gitu... but bila dah tgk kt website HPB... ooh! senang je..
klw ade yg tk minat susu pon, ade food/beverage lain yg provide calcium =)
HIGH CALCIUM MILK POWDER
(brand ape eh?)
LOW FAT YOGURT
(good thing i've started eating yogurt since...last year? or was it last two years..?)
CHEESE
(no comment -.-")
IKAN BILIS
(lalalala.... klw ayah tahu betape BANYAKnye calcium ade dlm ikan bilis... haiz~ tkkn akan stop lah me di'encouraged'nye untuk mkn ikan bilis BANYAK2...)
CANNED SARDINE WITH BONE
(me makan lah jugak.... tapi tk favourite sgt.. klw kombinasi lauk menyelarakan, barulah me suke)
TAU HUAY
(suke suke SUKE nyeeee!!! ^_^)
SOYA BEAN DRINK
(sedap! tapi one glass - 250ml - tk provide byk sgt calcium ar.. 25mg je)
DRIED FIGS
(happy betul bila me dpt tahu yg buah tin adalah sumber calcium yg oomph! 5 biji - 95g - provide 240mg of calcium!! dah terbukti dah bahawa buah tin yang disebutkan dlm alQuran mmg sah khasiatnye! and i'll be happy to eat 10 or more dried figs, doubling the calcium it gives... like 500mg?)
DRIED APRICOT
(waah~ berita gembira lagi! tk sia2 me suke makan dried apricot.. bukan sahaje sedap, tapi ber-calcium! hehe..)
RAISINS
(good news lagi!)
PAPAYA
(pada zaman dahulu kala me tak minat makan buah nie...)
HIGH CALCIUM SOYA BEAN MILK
BREAD
(nak kate, roti nie mmg complete segala nutrients yang kite perlukan... err.. betul atau tidak? anyway, rajin2lah makan roti ye!)
ade byk lagi source of calcium... tapi me tk letak kt sini. cari sendiri. hah!
oh! and get at least 30-60 minutes of sunshine per day. we need vitamin D which increases calcium absorption from the intestines.
plus, i just found out that smoking causes early menopause in women, apart from bone loss.
ok. that's all for now. gotta go! hope this information benefits you!
into the first week of holiday
1. i am accepted in this semester's differential research program (DRP).. i got my first choice. and apparently, i had forgotten what my 3 choices were, let alone the 1st choice! so, when i got a call from Ms Ong Eng Gim, who introduced herself as my research supervisor, i was like... wow! i got the opportunity this time! but... err.. what did i pick? O_o i checked my tp email just now and found out that the research is on nutrition; something about menu analysis.
2. my schedule from tomorrow till 16 march is packed!! wAaAAArrggghhh~~!! ehem. what i mean by 'packed' is that everyday i go out. NI matters, facilitating in a camp (more of that below), tkd, zoo outing with classmates, DRP briefing and labrador park outing with tahfiz friends. tiring, you know! all these eat up the one week school holiday.. camne nak adekan gathering dgn sec42005?! budak2 kuis, dq, poly ok ah.. tapi mwti, maarif, zuhri, pergas?
3. there was a briefing for Character Building Camp for Underprivileged Children at Sunbeam Place (the camp venue).. this camp is organised by SMU.. and they invite TP Community Club Sub-Comms to be volunteers for the camp.. there are 15 of us. 5 to help in the games, 10 to facilitate the groups. we didnt see the children, though the principal did give us the ground rules, the do's and dont's... oooOoOoOOoo.. the camp is for 2 and a half days, no sleeping over. that's good for me =)
4. now that the tkd ivp's over, it's back to kickin' targets and whatnots.. fuh~ i felt like i was doing the kicks for the first time on tuesday night.. we focused on pattern for like.. more than one month? so, my still-not-improving kicking skills have somewhat wilted. but then again, it felt good to be kicking around again.. lalalalalala... never mind that i improve slower than the others!
5. to be honest, i really dont have high hopes for my semester two results. my gpa was 3.02 last semester, and after some calculations (with actual incidents, not numbers) and measurements, i am afraid i may fall lower than 3.02. disappointed? OF COURSE im disappointed with myself! i have never failed to disappoint, on one occasion or another, havent i?
6. how come i couldnt access to aszafirah's blog page? aiyo~~ mcm tk sah plak klw me tk visit blognye.. heh.
7. the pursuit of happyness is soo ordinary.. soo subtle.. soo human, that my eyes were filled with tears of understanding, empathy and pure joy at the end of the movie.
stay tuned!
young sports leaders seminar at SMU - 3 march 2007
Taekwondo Open at NTU - 2, 3 & 4 march 2007
Taekwondo Open at NTU - 2, 3 & 4 march 2007
on a happier note ^.^
alhamdulillah~ the exams are over. and now im looking forward to the a month and a half holiday. *jumping upanddown with joy!! wheee~~*
ironically though, i dont feel somewhat relieved that the worst is over. instead, the feeling was more of an acknowledgement. like, "oh. ok. exam dah habis." hmm... maybe im at my hyperpolarization state (hah! merepek! sape2 yang belajar hpi tahu2 je lah ape yg me bebelkan!)
ok ok. so as my post title says, today's paper ended on a happier note. better than the other 3 days. not that those 3 previous papers were terrible, horrible, horrendous... but a miracle happened today, and it really left me feeling blessed and cared for..
the truth is, i was not motivated to study for cellb. i ate a lot, slept for 4 hours, ate again, plus i couldnt study in my room coz my grandmother slept there. so, i was deprived of a suitable study area. and then, my stomach was full and it was getting late. plus, i was mentally discouraged, seeing how i had done for the 3 previous papers. simply said, i didnt really study hard for cellb.
but, but, but!!
it was as though someone showed me which topics to cover. i mean, i knew i didnt have enough time, so i had to choose which topics, subtopics, info that were important, by prediction, of course. usually, the topics i covered were not enough, meaning, i missed imporant information here and there, thus affecting my marks.
so, today, a miracle happened. Allah had given me 'ilham' to actually study the certain notes. and indeed, they came out in the exam! structured questions and essay questions... hamdan lillah! i knew the answers, except for one particular question which i didnt put an emphasis on earlier, and which i had some regrets.. but never mind! plus, i never knew which topics were important and which weren't coz i wasnt paying attention during the cellb revision lecture. but you know what? i was really grateful that i didnt! coz... topics 1 and 5 were supposedly not important, but about 2-4 structured/essay questions were on those topics! luckily for me, i had covered the 'sure-come-out-one!' points from those notes. but for some of my friends, it was an unpleasant suprise....
to sum it up, today's paper really sent me sunshine amidst the rain. a wonderful, cheerful sunshine!
and today, i went to alsagoff. after more than... 3 months? and i was happy to see my teachers, nafisah, juniors! yippee!
but most of all, i was really happy to see mardhiah, aszafirah, fadhilah and adibah in the mrt on my way home! for the past one year, i've never ever seen them in the mrt.. mostly because i seldom take the mrt... and that ride with them wrapped up my happy day!
^_^
ironically though, i dont feel somewhat relieved that the worst is over. instead, the feeling was more of an acknowledgement. like, "oh. ok. exam dah habis." hmm... maybe im at my hyperpolarization state (hah! merepek! sape2 yang belajar hpi tahu2 je lah ape yg me bebelkan!)
ok ok. so as my post title says, today's paper ended on a happier note. better than the other 3 days. not that those 3 previous papers were terrible, horrible, horrendous... but a miracle happened today, and it really left me feeling blessed and cared for..
the truth is, i was not motivated to study for cellb. i ate a lot, slept for 4 hours, ate again, plus i couldnt study in my room coz my grandmother slept there. so, i was deprived of a suitable study area. and then, my stomach was full and it was getting late. plus, i was mentally discouraged, seeing how i had done for the 3 previous papers. simply said, i didnt really study hard for cellb.
but, but, but!!
it was as though someone showed me which topics to cover. i mean, i knew i didnt have enough time, so i had to choose which topics, subtopics, info that were important, by prediction, of course. usually, the topics i covered were not enough, meaning, i missed imporant information here and there, thus affecting my marks.
so, today, a miracle happened. Allah had given me 'ilham' to actually study the certain notes. and indeed, they came out in the exam! structured questions and essay questions... hamdan lillah! i knew the answers, except for one particular question which i didnt put an emphasis on earlier, and which i had some regrets.. but never mind! plus, i never knew which topics were important and which weren't coz i wasnt paying attention during the cellb revision lecture. but you know what? i was really grateful that i didnt! coz... topics 1 and 5 were supposedly not important, but about 2-4 structured/essay questions were on those topics! luckily for me, i had covered the 'sure-come-out-one!' points from those notes. but for some of my friends, it was an unpleasant suprise....
to sum it up, today's paper really sent me sunshine amidst the rain. a wonderful, cheerful sunshine!
and today, i went to alsagoff. after more than... 3 months? and i was happy to see my teachers, nafisah, juniors! yippee!
but most of all, i was really happy to see mardhiah, aszafirah, fadhilah and adibah in the mrt on my way home! for the past one year, i've never ever seen them in the mrt.. mostly because i seldom take the mrt... and that ride with them wrapped up my happy day!
^_^
the first leg of race
aaah~ i cant believe the first year of study is nearly over. to tell you the truth, tertiary studies period is definitely shooooorrrter than primary/secondary level. the fact is, we have looooonger holidays and shorter school term. yey! =)
and indeed, second semester's seen the worst change in me. i always woke up late. arrived at school super duper late. skipped lectures. aah~ what a wonderful life! *thick with sarcasm* and the same old habit of mine, that is not doing homework, still persists. yeah, that's me. oh! another thing, i slept more in lectures. couldnt help it, i think.
so yeah, i noticed that i spent most of the time in school learning nothing. err.. that's a bit exaggerating, you know that. but, it's true, one way or another.
leadership and character. class T02. not all were present. standing 3rd from the left-front row is our tutor, Ms Marie Chan. next to her, the girl in white pants, is Uyanga, from Mongolia... yep! i have a friend from Mongolia. how coool is that? but i've yet to get to know her more.. hmmm... so far, i have friends from myanmar, the philippines, china and indonesia. and brunei. and taiwan.
and indeed, second semester's seen the worst change in me. i always woke up late. arrived at school super duper late. skipped lectures. aah~ what a wonderful life! *thick with sarcasm* and the same old habit of mine, that is not doing homework, still persists. yeah, that's me. oh! another thing, i slept more in lectures. couldnt help it, i think.
so yeah, i noticed that i spent most of the time in school learning nothing. err.. that's a bit exaggerating, you know that. but, it's true, one way or another.
above is my arts appreciation tutor, Ms Sandra Lim. sitting beside her is sheena. then, me, xue mei and man lin. all applied science students. man lin lives just two blocks away from my house! it was very very very suprising when i saw her in 969 shortly after boarding the bus from my home bustop! just imagine, all your life, you never knew this person exist...n tada! one day, you're in the same class as her, and you found out she's practically your neighbour!! what a small world. what a small world!!
leadership and character. class T02. not all were present. standing 3rd from the left-front row is our tutor, Ms Marie Chan. next to her, the girl in white pants, is Uyanga, from Mongolia... yep! i have a friend from Mongolia. how coool is that? but i've yet to get to know her more.. hmmm... so far, i have friends from myanmar, the philippines, china and indonesia. and brunei. and taiwan.
and here are the 5 out of 6 malay girls in my class. with our communication skills tutor, Ms Jocelyn Lee. this semester's comm skills is the best class yet! wheee~~ it definitely helped me boost my presentation skills, plus confidence and formal etiquettes. overall, i had 3 presentations this semester. alhamdulillah~ i did ok (minus the content factor, of course. i think i screw up/waste a lot of the marks there).
oh! speaking of presentations..... in leadership and character, my group did on Alex Ferguson, ManU's manager. the picture above was taken on our presentation day. it was the last class for the subject too. anyway, prior to our turn, i was shivering like mad. serious!! it's been a looooooooooooooong time since i felt the same degree of nervousness. in 2003, when i was one of the supporters for Alsagoff in the PSTE quiz, i felt the strong, uncontrollable shaking too. the feeling was tremendous, really! to think of it, i didnt know why i was damn nervous about the leadership presentation. my legs were literally shaking, like the vortex machine in the lab. fuh~
the end of semester also marks the end of TP life for several of my seniors whom i've come to know and enjoy being with... especially kak khadijah, kak haswani, kak fadzillah... all of them from NI.... haiz~ suddenly, i feel a sense of foreboding... hmmm... how will NI be without our near-to-graduation brothers and sisters. kite2 yang 1st year and 2nd year masih agak mentah lagi.... plus our networking is not strong.
ok ok.... next topic:
i heard from a friend of mine that my alsagoff juniors did not-so-good in english. and maths. hmm.. im sure some of them fared well.. and i am indeed very proud and happy for my sec42005 friends who did far better than their previous attempt. and for those who didnt do well, i shall not offer you sympathy or apology. coz i know that you wont accept that. so let me just say this: you did good.
hmmm... i must say, im still quite amazed that i got A1 for English. seeing that some of my juniors didnt do well, i thought, " how could mine have been so easy? was it easier than this recent one? or are we all justified? " and i must say, that getting A1 for English in the best thing that has happened to me. it surpasses everything i've achieved, be it medals, trophies, top position in class, whatever! i dont care about all that. even the C5 for biology doesnt hamper the joy that i felt and feel. getting that A1 for that particular subject really lifts up my mood, my spirits.
and i am forever thankful to You for this suprising, yet wonderful gift. =)
ok, i think this is long enough for my readers' and my own reading satisfaction. so i shall end here.
to farahin: you feel honoured?? hehe.... kenape plak? kite bukannye princess ke celebrity =p *ish~ kelakar lah dekni..hehe*
dah halal certified rupenye!
i just found out that
CAFE GALILEE and ROTIBOY
are halal!
alhamdulillah~~
cafe galilee: libraries @ bedok, orchard, ang mo kio, jurong east, queenstown, pasir ris, sengkang, woodlands
rotiboy: ang mo kio, beach road, bedok, bugis junction, china square, marina square, parkway parade, raffles place, tampines mall
and rupe2nye, ade pizza hut stall kt singapore polytechnic.... (soh kan?)
CAFE GALILEE and ROTIBOY
are halal!
alhamdulillah~~
cafe galilee: libraries @ bedok, orchard, ang mo kio, jurong east, queenstown, pasir ris, sengkang, woodlands
rotiboy: ang mo kio, beach road, bedok, bugis junction, china square, marina square, parkway parade, raffles place, tampines mall
and rupe2nye, ade pizza hut stall kt singapore polytechnic.... (soh kan?)
o level result jumaat ni!!!
oh.my.god. oh my god ohmygod ohmygod OMG OMG OMG!!!
eh, kejap!
kenape aku yg kecoh pasal result o level ni??! kan dah lame over...
pfft.
never mind.
anyway, especially to my juniors, dan kepada muslims yg ambil o level tahun lepas amnye:
it seems that you can now do nothing to change your result. the outcome. wonderful or dreadful. i just want to share with you one thing: pray. du'a.
yes. that's the key..... in reality, you can still make du'a..... not pray so that your grades will change miraculously, but pray that you can, will, accept whatever verdict that you may get.
it's hard, you know. sometimes you are just bogged down with regret, shame, that you might have not done enough for your o level.... or tied with uncertainty, or suddenly bloated with confidence... it's mixed up.
the most important thing is, you redha with your result. however hard, saddening, disappointing it may be......... that's why you must pray to Allah...ask Him for the utmost strength, to face the reality, to try not to quelch in anger, humiliation...whatsoever.
i mean, you dont know what to expect right? you could get a not-so-good result when you were confident that you would pass with flying colours. or you could just crack under the pressure of not knowing.... wanttoknow, dontwanttoknow.
that was what i did. du'a. coz i was just so worried that i might react irrationally/emotionally when the result comes. i prayed that Allah will strengthen my heart, mind and body to go through the result day, n days after that, and to not give up and give in to syaitan..
*ish~ sebenarnye, susah betul me nak sampaikan ape yg terbuku dlm hati... leceh betul ah tulis dlm bahase inggeris nih!*
pendek kata:
jangan lupa doa ye?
agar Allah tenangkan hati, beri kesabaran dan juga ketabahan pada diri. oh! dan tk lupa juga, kekuatan untuk harungi hari2 yg akan dtg. klw putus asa pon, biarlah rase putus asa itu hilang dgn segera, jadi kite tk dwell dlm kesedihan dan langsung terpengaruh dgn emosi.. jika kite memang layak terima result yg tk baik disebabkan kurang usaha, kurniakanlah rase redha atas kesilapan kite tu... sbb kite manusia ni selalu aje kesal dgn kesilapan lalu... bila dah kesal, tk boleh nak move on... jadi kite mesti berdoa agar rase kesal tu tk terbawak2 smpi menjejas judgement kite..
"Ya Allah, jika aku mendapat keputusan yang baik, lindungilah aku dari rase riak... bangga.."
"walau ape pon keputusannye, kuatkanlah hati ini.."
dan minta kepada Allah, tunjukkan jalan yang terbaik untuk kite ambil...bukakan hati kite, lapangkan dada kite untuk lihat pilihan yang Allah dah tetapkan..... moga2 kite mendapat pimpinan Allah dalam membuat keputusan seterusnya..
Amiin...
it's the least you can do, yet the best thing you should do while waiting for the Big-O day~~
p/s: actually, i still cant get over my o level days.... up until the time when i saw the result... *huge sigh*
eh, kejap!
kenape aku yg kecoh pasal result o level ni??! kan dah lame over...
pfft.
never mind.
anyway, especially to my juniors, dan kepada muslims yg ambil o level tahun lepas amnye:
it seems that you can now do nothing to change your result. the outcome. wonderful or dreadful. i just want to share with you one thing: pray. du'a.
yes. that's the key..... in reality, you can still make du'a..... not pray so that your grades will change miraculously, but pray that you can, will, accept whatever verdict that you may get.
it's hard, you know. sometimes you are just bogged down with regret, shame, that you might have not done enough for your o level.... or tied with uncertainty, or suddenly bloated with confidence... it's mixed up.
the most important thing is, you redha with your result. however hard, saddening, disappointing it may be......... that's why you must pray to Allah...ask Him for the utmost strength, to face the reality, to try not to quelch in anger, humiliation...whatsoever.
i mean, you dont know what to expect right? you could get a not-so-good result when you were confident that you would pass with flying colours. or you could just crack under the pressure of not knowing.... wanttoknow, dontwanttoknow.
that was what i did. du'a. coz i was just so worried that i might react irrationally/emotionally when the result comes. i prayed that Allah will strengthen my heart, mind and body to go through the result day, n days after that, and to not give up and give in to syaitan..
*ish~ sebenarnye, susah betul me nak sampaikan ape yg terbuku dlm hati... leceh betul ah tulis dlm bahase inggeris nih!*
pendek kata:
jangan lupa doa ye?
agar Allah tenangkan hati, beri kesabaran dan juga ketabahan pada diri. oh! dan tk lupa juga, kekuatan untuk harungi hari2 yg akan dtg. klw putus asa pon, biarlah rase putus asa itu hilang dgn segera, jadi kite tk dwell dlm kesedihan dan langsung terpengaruh dgn emosi.. jika kite memang layak terima result yg tk baik disebabkan kurang usaha, kurniakanlah rase redha atas kesilapan kite tu... sbb kite manusia ni selalu aje kesal dgn kesilapan lalu... bila dah kesal, tk boleh nak move on... jadi kite mesti berdoa agar rase kesal tu tk terbawak2 smpi menjejas judgement kite..
"Ya Allah, jika aku mendapat keputusan yang baik, lindungilah aku dari rase riak... bangga.."
"walau ape pon keputusannye, kuatkanlah hati ini.."
dan minta kepada Allah, tunjukkan jalan yang terbaik untuk kite ambil...bukakan hati kite, lapangkan dada kite untuk lihat pilihan yang Allah dah tetapkan..... moga2 kite mendapat pimpinan Allah dalam membuat keputusan seterusnya..
Amiin...
it's the least you can do, yet the best thing you should do while waiting for the Big-O day~~
p/s: actually, i still cant get over my o level days.... up until the time when i saw the result... *huge sigh*
i couldn't have imagined
i attended sapphite today (or is it 'tonight'?), an appreciation night organised by saff-perdaus.
it was all ok =) not much in the aturcara, however, overall, it was fine with me.. i got a certificate (recognising individual's contribution to saff in the past year).. but it was not mine. there was another liana (different spelling ya!), so the certificate was meant for her. but the emcee didnt say the full name. nvm, i wasnt really embarrassed anyway. afterwards, i gave the cert to liana, and i got mine eventually =)
i received another unofficial proposal some time during the event... hmmm... i will have to think about it...
oh, yes. about the title of this post:
you see... i cant really believe that i am now involved in a youth-student body/organization/department. i mean, 3 years ago i was busy looking after my school's student society..other than that, competitions and studies...
starting from zip project, i became an observer. and i had a kind of ambition, i think, that one day, i would like to be part of the youth activism (is there such a word??), to actually organize events for other youths/children, to be in the project team.. bla bla bla..
n now, here i am. studying in TP has indeed opened a doorway to this ambition of mine. first, i was introduced to Nur Ikhwan, then NYPMS, n somehow, i got to be a part of ramadhan rocks, a ramadhan project by saff. if you notice, the muslim youth organisations are indeed networking with each other. i mean, from what i know and see, a person in NI is also involved in NYPMS (MVAC, that is) n also contributes in saff, and sometimes, fmsa. or maybe, mendaki.
ingat lagi... zip project was the first experience for me, as to be involved in youth volunteering. at that time, i was sure that i was the only alsagoffian to be involved in the workforce. heh. it was like a special opportunity for me. maybe what i had seen and learn would be useful for my managerial and organisational skills in prisma. oh! n there were alsagoffians involved: they volunteered in zip to streets, i think (i remembered 'ziptoschool' je..)..
i did not know anyone. everything was new to me. so it wasnt a suprise that my part was minute. i couldnt really recall the significance of my role. i was posted to saff centre, which was one of the 'zipcentres'... i did packing of items into the ziplock bags, received and passed few phonecalls. that was it, i guess.
of course, this was also the time i started to become aware of youth activities.. n the familiar faces that were behind them.. i still remember some of the people whom i met during the zip project, n though some of them do not know me, i remember their faces. and those faces i saw/see/will see again about 1+ year(s) later and beyond.
yesterday, i was unknown. and i did not really make friends with the sisters. today, i was part of them, and tomorrow i'll get to meet, properly introduce myself and know more of those familiar faces =)
im not involved in any mosque's youth wing, though. coz i choose not to. for some reasons.
well, i guess, what im trying to say is, baru sekaranglah..bila dah keluar sekolah..akhirnye me dapat libatkan diri dlm aktiviti2 belia...bukanlah maksudnye, mase kt alsagoff dulu, i was restricted/prevented from joining, tapi it was more like, i didnt have the real intentions, nor the right channels and contacts. sekarang, alhamdulillah~, me diberi peluang...
and like i said, these muslim youths im talking about, they're interconnected. =)
it's kinda amazing - all the things that have happened around, and finally, to me. it's God's beautiful and subtle work =)
talk about fate! =p
it was all ok =) not much in the aturcara, however, overall, it was fine with me.. i got a certificate (recognising individual's contribution to saff in the past year).. but it was not mine. there was another liana (different spelling ya!), so the certificate was meant for her. but the emcee didnt say the full name. nvm, i wasnt really embarrassed anyway. afterwards, i gave the cert to liana, and i got mine eventually =)
i received another unofficial proposal some time during the event... hmmm... i will have to think about it...
oh, yes. about the title of this post:
you see... i cant really believe that i am now involved in a youth-student body/organization/department. i mean, 3 years ago i was busy looking after my school's student society..other than that, competitions and studies...
starting from zip project, i became an observer. and i had a kind of ambition, i think, that one day, i would like to be part of the youth activism (is there such a word??), to actually organize events for other youths/children, to be in the project team.. bla bla bla..
n now, here i am. studying in TP has indeed opened a doorway to this ambition of mine. first, i was introduced to Nur Ikhwan, then NYPMS, n somehow, i got to be a part of ramadhan rocks, a ramadhan project by saff. if you notice, the muslim youth organisations are indeed networking with each other. i mean, from what i know and see, a person in NI is also involved in NYPMS (MVAC, that is) n also contributes in saff, and sometimes, fmsa. or maybe, mendaki.
ingat lagi... zip project was the first experience for me, as to be involved in youth volunteering. at that time, i was sure that i was the only alsagoffian to be involved in the workforce. heh. it was like a special opportunity for me. maybe what i had seen and learn would be useful for my managerial and organisational skills in prisma. oh! n there were alsagoffians involved: they volunteered in zip to streets, i think (i remembered 'ziptoschool' je..)..
i did not know anyone. everything was new to me. so it wasnt a suprise that my part was minute. i couldnt really recall the significance of my role. i was posted to saff centre, which was one of the 'zipcentres'... i did packing of items into the ziplock bags, received and passed few phonecalls. that was it, i guess.
of course, this was also the time i started to become aware of youth activities.. n the familiar faces that were behind them.. i still remember some of the people whom i met during the zip project, n though some of them do not know me, i remember their faces. and those faces i saw/see/will see again about 1+ year(s) later and beyond.
yesterday, i was unknown. and i did not really make friends with the sisters. today, i was part of them, and tomorrow i'll get to meet, properly introduce myself and know more of those familiar faces =)
im not involved in any mosque's youth wing, though. coz i choose not to. for some reasons.
well, i guess, what im trying to say is, baru sekaranglah..bila dah keluar sekolah..akhirnye me dapat libatkan diri dlm aktiviti2 belia...bukanlah maksudnye, mase kt alsagoff dulu, i was restricted/prevented from joining, tapi it was more like, i didnt have the real intentions, nor the right channels and contacts. sekarang, alhamdulillah~, me diberi peluang...
and like i said, these muslim youths im talking about, they're interconnected. =)
it's kinda amazing - all the things that have happened around, and finally, to me. it's God's beautiful and subtle work =)
talk about fate! =p
an Invitation to me
i just dont know what to say!
with school, school work, more school, school, studies, taekwondo trainings, tutoring, group presentationssss.... i just dont know if i can accept this invitation.
my shoulders felt heavy immediately as i read the invitation letter, was told about the reasons my being invited. my heart still feels heavy. no, wait! it's my thoracic cavity that feels heavy. hah!
heavy with what?? i know, i dunno, i know.... ergh! maybe discouragement, dread... *why is my body having a shivering sensation now?* dissatisfaction...
" I am now pleased to invite you to be part of this vibrant Saff management team. You have been specially recommended by your peers in Saff, to head the the Ramadhan project , under the Programme Management Division . This is testament to your strong leadership and managerial skills, as well as our confidence in your commitment to da'wah and volunteer work. We believe that we have much to learn from you, and that this will be a wonderful learning opportunity for us as a team. "
i dont have to make a decision hastily, of course. n to think of it, this task is some sort of a long term one... it's after my exams anyway..
but, there is something that disturbs me. a lot. that i cant voice it out to anyone. not without the doubt that anyone would want to listen and understand.
with school, school work, more school, school, studies, taekwondo trainings, tutoring, group presentationssss.... i just dont know if i can accept this invitation.
my shoulders felt heavy immediately as i read the invitation letter, was told about the reasons my being invited. my heart still feels heavy. no, wait! it's my thoracic cavity that feels heavy. hah!
heavy with what?? i know, i dunno, i know.... ergh! maybe discouragement, dread... *why is my body having a shivering sensation now?* dissatisfaction...
" I am now pleased to invite you to be part of this vibrant Saff management team. You have been specially recommended by your peers in Saff, to head the the Ramadhan project , under the Programme Management Division . This is testament to your strong leadership and managerial skills, as well as our confidence in your commitment to da'wah and volunteer work. We believe that we have much to learn from you, and that this will be a wonderful learning opportunity for us as a team. "
i dont have to make a decision hastily, of course. n to think of it, this task is some sort of a long term one... it's after my exams anyway..
but, there is something that disturbs me. a lot. that i cant voice it out to anyone. not without the doubt that anyone would want to listen and understand.
my third TKD grading
i was damn nervous yesterday (sunday, 7 jan 07)... nervous-wrecked, to be more accurate... it was quite unnerving, to see myself getting nervous, scared, worried, coz for all i know, i had practised quite well for the grading pattern.
looking deeper, i realised that the feeling bubbled like a boiling pot coz i felt more pressured.. i wanted to get a double promotion.. yes, my little self had whispered to my bigger self that i should get the double promo this time.. considering my moves had more strength..
oh! how humiliating it was! I was humiliated by my own self! you should know your place, young lady! just go bit by bit lah~! why must you crave for that double promotion?? want to get on the fast track is it?? duh!
anyway...im having strong feelings that i will not get the double promo. coz.. hmm.. 3 of my tkd friends were asked to do their patterns again. this usually means that there is a possibility of getting double promotion. 2 guys, as i watched them, did well. 1 girl, i didnt see, coz she stood behind me.. but i reckon she did well too.. but, repeating ur pattern can also mean that you did not fare well the first time. so the judge will ask you to do it again, to see if you'll do better or the same or worse. and this will lead to whether you pass or fail.
no double promo..i guess it's ok.. at least i know that i pass this grading. i just know, you know =) coz there werent really any glitches when i was doing my pattern. *ermmm...do i sound over-confident?? coz im not. im being realistic*
ok, so.. i took pictures! yey! =)
most of the year 1 tkdians who went for the grading.. another 3 or 4 people not in the picture..
i like this picture most! see the background, the station where my friends n i were graded is not in the picture (it's wayy on the right side)
the girls.. not in the picture: shin rong
the guys.. sickos! i said dont move, right???! now look what happen to the picture!
stubborn! serve you right to be displayed here in my blog..with all you antics! boys~~ -_-'
we were all not ready!
supposed to be a serious-face shot.. but who cares! haha!
with jia ling.. black-belt. she was from ITE..*fuh~ mesti budak pandai ar* now in TPenggineering.. =)
with pei yong, the girl who possibly will get a double promotion =) we get along well with each other =)
and by the way, this is my IVP pattern team: janice, pei yong, liyana and yanning. though it is still subject to change.. coach will the select the best to represent TP.. mmMmMmm.. ::
bye!
looking deeper, i realised that the feeling bubbled like a boiling pot coz i felt more pressured.. i wanted to get a double promotion.. yes, my little self had whispered to my bigger self that i should get the double promo this time.. considering my moves had more strength..
oh! how humiliating it was! I was humiliated by my own self! you should know your place, young lady! just go bit by bit lah~! why must you crave for that double promotion?? want to get on the fast track is it?? duh!
anyway...im having strong feelings that i will not get the double promo. coz.. hmm.. 3 of my tkd friends were asked to do their patterns again. this usually means that there is a possibility of getting double promotion. 2 guys, as i watched them, did well. 1 girl, i didnt see, coz she stood behind me.. but i reckon she did well too.. but, repeating ur pattern can also mean that you did not fare well the first time. so the judge will ask you to do it again, to see if you'll do better or the same or worse. and this will lead to whether you pass or fail.
no double promo..i guess it's ok.. at least i know that i pass this grading. i just know, you know =) coz there werent really any glitches when i was doing my pattern. *ermmm...do i sound over-confident?? coz im not. im being realistic*
ok, so.. i took pictures! yey! =)
most of the year 1 tkdians who went for the grading.. another 3 or 4 people not in the picture..
i like this picture most! see the background, the station where my friends n i were graded is not in the picture (it's wayy on the right side)
the girls.. not in the picture: shin rong
the guys.. sickos! i said dont move, right???! now look what happen to the picture!
stubborn! serve you right to be displayed here in my blog..with all you antics! boys~~ -_-'
we were all not ready!
supposed to be a serious-face shot.. but who cares! haha!
with jia ling.. black-belt. she was from ITE..*fuh~ mesti budak pandai ar* now in TPenggineering.. =)
with pei yong, the girl who possibly will get a double promotion =) we get along well with each other =)
and by the way, this is my IVP pattern team: janice, pei yong, liyana and yanning. though it is still subject to change.. coach will the select the best to represent TP.. mmMmMmm.. ::
bye!
disorganized.
i need to clean up the mess in my life.
my everyday schedule..
my commitments..
all are now jumbled up.. i need to organize them into suitable routines.
naik pening sey biler pikir pasal ni!
main subjects, cds, cca, tutoring, tahfiz, MS, social life... and the-most-probable-thing-to-happen dpi.
shrug.
*newest update*
tk jadi nak enrol for DPI *huge relief for me, really!* coz of... not sure if it's appropriate to be mentioned here. sorry.
*end of newest update*
ok, another week is upon us..
so have a good week ahead!
my everyday schedule..
my commitments..
all are now jumbled up.. i need to organize them into suitable routines.
naik pening sey biler pikir pasal ni!
main subjects, cds, cca, tutoring, tahfiz, MS, social life... and the-most-probable-thing-to-happen dpi.
shrug.
*newest update*
tk jadi nak enrol for DPI *huge relief for me, really!* coz of... not sure if it's appropriate to be mentioned here. sorry.
*end of newest update*
ok, another week is upon us..
so have a good week ahead!
The Attraction
ah, yes, ladies and gentlemen... after months of waiting, we're finally here to witness the most anticipating confession by none other by the writer herself.
*winks*
haha..ok, cut the crap!
hmmm..one of the challenges in poly for me, personally, is facing beautiful and good-looking creatures of the male homo sapien sapiens. beautiful? well, yes. i shall not take back that word, albeit using it to describe men..
again, cut the crap! nak gunekan bahase purely english susah ah....susah nak explain ape yg kite nak sampaikan! blergh!
ok, so... mmg hari2 ujian kt sekolah... tapi tk heran jugak ah... sbb dah biase.. lagipon, me bukan jenis yg nampak lelaki wasim je terus "eh! handsomenye lelaki nie" or "tgk kt situ..yang pakai baju merah tu... handsome sey.." YUCK! sakit telinge dengar... tapi... unfortunately, me ade kwn2 sekolah yg macam gitu..jadi terpakselah buat muke selamba bila diorg ckp mcm gitu... kadang2 tu... topic lelaki boleh memanjang plak.... bagi me, isinye cukup tk penting... baik dari memberi gelaran kpd si fulan, kepada cerite "semalam aku chat dgn dekni..." bla bla bla..
kawan2 yg dah kenal me lame mungkin tahu lelaki bagaiman yg me tertarik.. alamak..me tersenyum2 sendiri plak kt sini!... klw tkde yg tahu pon, tkpe.. biar hati me mnie, hanye Tuhan je yg tahu =)
that's why bila ade gathering MSes (Muslim Societies)...or ape2 je event yg melibatkan belia Melayu Islam...me hesitant nak join... walaupon ilmu/pengalaman menunggu disana...tapi me selalu pikir... ramai lelaki ke tidak eh... takut tergugat iman.. silap2, baik niat kite nak tuntun ilmu, niat kite dicemari dgn actions dan pikiran2 yang tk betul..
haiz~
ok... i remembered a cousion of mine (you know who you are!) asking me if i have had crushes before..i answered something like "of course! im a human.." n dia nak tahu sape.. haha! no way that im gonna tell you! but..thinking about it.. i dont think i mind sharing it with my readers... coz it's my past, when i was still quite naive and...i dunno..it's funny when i remember all these..the days of yore.. and i dont think most of you will know who i'll be talking about.. maybe some, or few, of you..
here goes:
my first crush, i think, was a friend of my brother. hah! i was...maybe 7,8,9 or 10 years old back then.. hehe.. dia wasim.. mmg tk dinafikan. as i got older, rase crush2 nie sume dgn sendirinye hilang. lagipon, me tk tahu ape khabar dia skrg.. pendek kate, semuanye normal.. if you ask me, kecil2 dah suke2 org..kwn abang sendiri plak tu, ape yg menariknye ttg dia? hahaha... maaf, me tk dpt nak jwb tu.. sbb me pon tk tahu! haha!
then, my next crush was a relative of me. yes.. as some of you might know.. i dont really talk to my male relatives... dari kecil lagi dah malu2 sakan... plus the fact that me jarang jumpe sedare-mare.. haha! mungkin period yang ketare ialah pri - secondary.. skrg nie, although rase malu masih ade, tapi me dah boleh anggap mereka sbg "just another human being and relative". i dont think you know what i mean. never mind. plus, i have more confidence to talk to them.. yeah..i think another factor would be my level of confidence...dulu2 tu masih low..
so, anyway, klw tk silap bila me ade crush dgn si fulan yg pertama tu overlap dgn yg si fulan kedua.. astaghfirullah~~ bila me pikir balik, camnelah perasaan nie boleh timbul dlm diri me yg masih budak2 nie! setan ni jahat betul! muda2 lagi dia dah kacau kite! and of course, perasaan tu pudar dgn sendirinye. tapi lame tau! bertahun2 baru dah ok. ade jugak penyebab kenape rase suka tu lame hilang. tapi me tk nk disclose kt sini sbb perkare tu adelah satu clue yg obvious skali =)
then...........................
haaa~~ the next one... me pasti some of my friends tahu.. you know who you are my friends... and you know who that person is... klw tk silap, i first saw this person when i was in primary 5. mase tu tk rase ape2...then, ntah eh bila, perasaan suka tu ade... ianya berlarutan sampai menengah 3 gitu...time menengah 4 pon mase ade sisa2 kot.
it was, i daresay, the strongest feeling i had for someone. yes, childish and immature as it sounds, that was what happened. the person doesnt know i exist. i do not know the person personally. all i know is, he's intelligent. n that's what turns me on, usually. it was a hopeless thing, indeed. n a particular friend of mine knows how i actually felt, coz i did confide in her. yes, you know who you are... and im asking you now, if you read this, to keep the matter to yourself ok? forever. coz i know i can trust you.
hmmm... intense feeling, it was. there was no happiness. just empty longings. timid hopes that...urgh~ i dunno what!..i finally got over this person... he is doing well now. and i pray that he is happy and successful, his faith remains strong.
now?
well... mainly infatuation, i admit. poly students.. even org yg tk pernah me jumpe, tp pernah chat, me ade 'crush' ..tk ke merepek tu! kesian bro tu, jadi mangsa! haha..
*4.33am now*
ironinye, org2 yang me ade crush nie adelah org2 yg me tk kenal. what i mean is, they're not my friends n im not their friend.
bila pikir2 balik.... org2 yg single mcm me nie pon tk lepas dari ujian. ye, mmg kite bersih dari maksiat "berpegangan tangan, bergayut kt talipon, etc etc dgn matair".. tapi pada hakikatnye, kite diuji sejauh mane kite mampu menundukkan pandangan, bercakap dgn rajul bila perlu, jage pergaulan, jage hati jgn smpi perasaan yg tk elok timbul, jaga penampilan dan perilaku agar tidak menarik perhatian lelaki.... masya Allah! mmg susah sgt!! sangat2 sukar!
sedangkan dgn sepupu lelaki sendiri, apakah kite jage pergaulan kite dgn dia/mereka????
~sebenarnye, yang biase tu lah yang luarbiase..~
me selalu ingat kate2 nie....sape yg cakap eh? is it mase one of the NI usrah??
sedangkan aku ni seorang hafizah... betape sukarnye untukku menegakkan pendirianku, membela akhlak dan didikan yg telah lama disemai dlm diri, mempraktikkan Islam. betape sukarnye untukku melaksanakan tanggungjawabku sebagai seorg muslimah yg hafizah!! sedangkan al-Quran ade di bahuku..!
Ya Allah~ lindungilah aku daripada menjadi fitnah kepada lelaki... dan jauhkanlah mereka daripadaku, agar hatiku terpelihara...Ya Allah~~
ok, itu je, kawan2...
me bukanlah seorg yg all-round baik... me pasti, ade junior2 yang bace nie akan terkejut bhw kakak kite yg satu nie ade crush kt org... yelah, kt alsagoff dulu selalu strict, berdisiplin.. hehe... simply said, im not an angel, ok?
ape yg penting, kite kena curb feeling2 nie sume... me sendiri tk approve org2 yang bercintan-cintun nie, biarpun mereka kwn2 me sendiri..or my juniors/seniors.. me pelik, do you actually chuck out all that religious knowledge that you've learned? and, without guilty, erase the awareness from you heart and mind? are you denying that God is All-Seeing and All-knowing?
me sedih bile pikirkan nie sume...lebih sedih lagi bila pikir yg me masih kekurangan courage untuk berdepan dgn org mcm gini... ~sikit demi sedikit wahai diri, Allah akan beri kekuatan..~
*4.57am now*
walau apepun, me tetap anggap kamu sebagai kwn... like i said, in the end, you are simply you =)
baiklah, sampai sini je me nak tulis. dah tk smpi hati nak pakse diri untuk stay awake.. aniaya diri jek!
ok... see you around!
p/s: ape yg me tulis nie mungkin tk clear, atau agak draggy..paham2 je lah ye, pagi2 bute me tulis...jadi tahap pemikiran dan rasionaliti tidak optimal.
*winks*
haha..ok, cut the crap!
hmmm..one of the challenges in poly for me, personally, is facing beautiful and good-looking creatures of the male homo sapien sapiens. beautiful? well, yes. i shall not take back that word, albeit using it to describe men..
again, cut the crap! nak gunekan bahase purely english susah ah....susah nak explain ape yg kite nak sampaikan! blergh!
ok, so... mmg hari2 ujian kt sekolah... tapi tk heran jugak ah... sbb dah biase.. lagipon, me bukan jenis yg nampak lelaki wasim je terus "eh! handsomenye lelaki nie" or "tgk kt situ..yang pakai baju merah tu... handsome sey.." YUCK! sakit telinge dengar... tapi... unfortunately, me ade kwn2 sekolah yg macam gitu..jadi terpakselah buat muke selamba bila diorg ckp mcm gitu... kadang2 tu... topic lelaki boleh memanjang plak.... bagi me, isinye cukup tk penting... baik dari memberi gelaran kpd si fulan, kepada cerite "semalam aku chat dgn dekni..." bla bla bla..
kawan2 yg dah kenal me lame mungkin tahu lelaki bagaiman yg me tertarik.. alamak..me tersenyum2 sendiri plak kt sini!... klw tkde yg tahu pon, tkpe.. biar hati me mnie, hanye Tuhan je yg tahu =)
that's why bila ade gathering MSes (Muslim Societies)...or ape2 je event yg melibatkan belia Melayu Islam...me hesitant nak join... walaupon ilmu/pengalaman menunggu disana...tapi me selalu pikir... ramai lelaki ke tidak eh... takut tergugat iman.. silap2, baik niat kite nak tuntun ilmu, niat kite dicemari dgn actions dan pikiran2 yang tk betul..
haiz~
ok... i remembered a cousion of mine (you know who you are!) asking me if i have had crushes before..i answered something like "of course! im a human.." n dia nak tahu sape.. haha! no way that im gonna tell you! but..thinking about it.. i dont think i mind sharing it with my readers... coz it's my past, when i was still quite naive and...i dunno..it's funny when i remember all these..the days of yore.. and i dont think most of you will know who i'll be talking about.. maybe some, or few, of you..
here goes:
my first crush, i think, was a friend of my brother. hah! i was...maybe 7,8,9 or 10 years old back then.. hehe.. dia wasim.. mmg tk dinafikan. as i got older, rase crush2 nie sume dgn sendirinye hilang. lagipon, me tk tahu ape khabar dia skrg.. pendek kate, semuanye normal.. if you ask me, kecil2 dah suke2 org..kwn abang sendiri plak tu, ape yg menariknye ttg dia? hahaha... maaf, me tk dpt nak jwb tu.. sbb me pon tk tahu! haha!
then, my next crush was a relative of me. yes.. as some of you might know.. i dont really talk to my male relatives... dari kecil lagi dah malu2 sakan... plus the fact that me jarang jumpe sedare-mare.. haha! mungkin period yang ketare ialah pri - secondary.. skrg nie, although rase malu masih ade, tapi me dah boleh anggap mereka sbg "just another human being and relative". i dont think you know what i mean. never mind. plus, i have more confidence to talk to them.. yeah..i think another factor would be my level of confidence...dulu2 tu masih low..
so, anyway, klw tk silap bila me ade crush dgn si fulan yg pertama tu overlap dgn yg si fulan kedua.. astaghfirullah~~ bila me pikir balik, camnelah perasaan nie boleh timbul dlm diri me yg masih budak2 nie! setan ni jahat betul! muda2 lagi dia dah kacau kite! and of course, perasaan tu pudar dgn sendirinye. tapi lame tau! bertahun2 baru dah ok. ade jugak penyebab kenape rase suka tu lame hilang. tapi me tk nk disclose kt sini sbb perkare tu adelah satu clue yg obvious skali =)
then...........................
haaa~~ the next one... me pasti some of my friends tahu.. you know who you are my friends... and you know who that person is... klw tk silap, i first saw this person when i was in primary 5. mase tu tk rase ape2...then, ntah eh bila, perasaan suka tu ade... ianya berlarutan sampai menengah 3 gitu...time menengah 4 pon mase ade sisa2 kot.
it was, i daresay, the strongest feeling i had for someone. yes, childish and immature as it sounds, that was what happened. the person doesnt know i exist. i do not know the person personally. all i know is, he's intelligent. n that's what turns me on, usually. it was a hopeless thing, indeed. n a particular friend of mine knows how i actually felt, coz i did confide in her. yes, you know who you are... and im asking you now, if you read this, to keep the matter to yourself ok? forever. coz i know i can trust you.
hmmm... intense feeling, it was. there was no happiness. just empty longings. timid hopes that...urgh~ i dunno what!..i finally got over this person... he is doing well now. and i pray that he is happy and successful, his faith remains strong.
now?
well... mainly infatuation, i admit. poly students.. even org yg tk pernah me jumpe, tp pernah chat, me ade 'crush' ..tk ke merepek tu! kesian bro tu, jadi mangsa! haha..
*4.33am now*
ironinye, org2 yang me ade crush nie adelah org2 yg me tk kenal. what i mean is, they're not my friends n im not their friend.
bila pikir2 balik.... org2 yg single mcm me nie pon tk lepas dari ujian. ye, mmg kite bersih dari maksiat "berpegangan tangan, bergayut kt talipon, etc etc dgn matair".. tapi pada hakikatnye, kite diuji sejauh mane kite mampu menundukkan pandangan, bercakap dgn rajul bila perlu, jage pergaulan, jage hati jgn smpi perasaan yg tk elok timbul, jaga penampilan dan perilaku agar tidak menarik perhatian lelaki.... masya Allah! mmg susah sgt!! sangat2 sukar!
sedangkan dgn sepupu lelaki sendiri, apakah kite jage pergaulan kite dgn dia/mereka????
~sebenarnye, yang biase tu lah yang luarbiase..~
me selalu ingat kate2 nie....sape yg cakap eh? is it mase one of the NI usrah??
sedangkan aku ni seorang hafizah... betape sukarnye untukku menegakkan pendirianku, membela akhlak dan didikan yg telah lama disemai dlm diri, mempraktikkan Islam. betape sukarnye untukku melaksanakan tanggungjawabku sebagai seorg muslimah yg hafizah!! sedangkan al-Quran ade di bahuku..!
Ya Allah~ lindungilah aku daripada menjadi fitnah kepada lelaki... dan jauhkanlah mereka daripadaku, agar hatiku terpelihara...Ya Allah~~
ok, itu je, kawan2...
me bukanlah seorg yg all-round baik... me pasti, ade junior2 yang bace nie akan terkejut bhw kakak kite yg satu nie ade crush kt org... yelah, kt alsagoff dulu selalu strict, berdisiplin.. hehe... simply said, im not an angel, ok?
ape yg penting, kite kena curb feeling2 nie sume... me sendiri tk approve org2 yang bercintan-cintun nie, biarpun mereka kwn2 me sendiri..or my juniors/seniors.. me pelik, do you actually chuck out all that religious knowledge that you've learned? and, without guilty, erase the awareness from you heart and mind? are you denying that God is All-Seeing and All-knowing?
me sedih bile pikirkan nie sume...lebih sedih lagi bila pikir yg me masih kekurangan courage untuk berdepan dgn org mcm gini... ~sikit demi sedikit wahai diri, Allah akan beri kekuatan..~
*4.57am now*
walau apepun, me tetap anggap kamu sebagai kwn... like i said, in the end, you are simply you =)
baiklah, sampai sini je me nak tulis. dah tk smpi hati nak pakse diri untuk stay awake.. aniaya diri jek!
ok... see you around!
p/s: ape yg me tulis nie mungkin tk clear, atau agak draggy..paham2 je lah ye, pagi2 bute me tulis...jadi tahap pemikiran dan rasionaliti tidak optimal.
insomniac?
urgghh~
im damn tired now. it's 3am in the morning and i still havent closed my eyes. i spent the night editing Communication Skills presentation PPT slides... putting in the animation n stuff. but what took me sooo long was choosing the right headings, with designs from flamingtext.com. in the process, i discovered quite a number of attractive and pleasant-to-my-eyes designs blended into 1 by myself...though the gallery for headings has limited designs, the fonts are interesting to look at... =)
hah~~ i just thought...why dont i stay up the whole night? that would be nice, wouldnt it? -.-" and later, i will get a nice dark rings around my eyes. *3.24am now*
oo... i've added few of my favourite songs here. except for 'winter' and 'victory'... i enjoy listening to those songs, but the ones i put here are different from what i prefer. n im just too lazy to change songs. it's ironic, but im thankful.. that there is finally a way to play several songs at one go.. i still remember that few years ago, i was frustrated coz the music player can only cater for 1 music.. that was YEARS ago.. n now, voila! everything's made simple. thanks to.... umm... whoever those people are...im grateful! =)
actually, i dont have any class today...so my 'firstdayofschool' is tomorrow..but i have a group discussion later at 11am... then, tkd training at 6.30pm...in between, im gonna do some errands... *heaven!* hehe...this is the good thing about poly life... whenever there's break time, you can just get out to anywhere you want..provided that the break is long ah....2 hours..3 hours..4 hours.. yeah, definitely a good thing.
*3.31am now*
2007's here and it seems...
it seems as though it was just now, or yesterday, or the day before yesterday, that i was 'free'....in the sense that i was without any school, or job, happy and yet confused and worried... i was in that position, indeed. how far have i come now? hmmm... i've moved on... and now it's my juniors turn to be in my shoes, n the shoes of all my predecessors.. i guess all of us must go through that particular stage.
looking back,
ouh~
i just dont know what to say...
as much as i want to return to that place, to embrace those moments, to relive the past... as much i want to keep them all..
i could only touch the wind.. the memories carress in between my fingers.. n fade away...
as much as i want to hold dear to those memories, to play them again and again in my mind...
i could only look from afar... wishing againt all odds that i was there again..
when i remember little stuff about my past.... or think of my friends... there is always a knot in my heart... tightness in my chest.. is it longing? yes, i do think of you, my friend. oh, how i remember your smile and laugh! it doesnt matter if our principles are different, or that you do things that are of my disliking..in the end, you are simply you =)
*3.46am now*
ok, my head feels a bit tight right now. tight? err...i dunno how else to describe the sensation.. pardon my lack of vocabulary..
i shall stop now. though i would love to write another post =p
im damn tired now. it's 3am in the morning and i still havent closed my eyes. i spent the night editing Communication Skills presentation PPT slides... putting in the animation n stuff. but what took me sooo long was choosing the right headings, with designs from flamingtext.com. in the process, i discovered quite a number of attractive and pleasant-to-my-eyes designs blended into 1 by myself...though the gallery for headings has limited designs, the fonts are interesting to look at... =)
hah~~ i just thought...why dont i stay up the whole night? that would be nice, wouldnt it? -.-" and later, i will get a nice dark rings around my eyes. *3.24am now*
oo... i've added few of my favourite songs here. except for 'winter' and 'victory'... i enjoy listening to those songs, but the ones i put here are different from what i prefer. n im just too lazy to change songs. it's ironic, but im thankful.. that there is finally a way to play several songs at one go.. i still remember that few years ago, i was frustrated coz the music player can only cater for 1 music.. that was YEARS ago.. n now, voila! everything's made simple. thanks to.... umm... whoever those people are...im grateful! =)
actually, i dont have any class today...so my 'firstdayofschool' is tomorrow..but i have a group discussion later at 11am... then, tkd training at 6.30pm...in between, im gonna do some errands... *heaven!* hehe...this is the good thing about poly life... whenever there's break time, you can just get out to anywhere you want..provided that the break is long ah....2 hours..3 hours..4 hours.. yeah, definitely a good thing.
*3.31am now*
2007's here and it seems...
it seems as though it was just now, or yesterday, or the day before yesterday, that i was 'free'....in the sense that i was without any school, or job, happy and yet confused and worried... i was in that position, indeed. how far have i come now? hmmm... i've moved on... and now it's my juniors turn to be in my shoes, n the shoes of all my predecessors.. i guess all of us must go through that particular stage.
looking back,
ouh~
i just dont know what to say...
as much as i want to return to that place, to embrace those moments, to relive the past... as much i want to keep them all..
i could only touch the wind.. the memories carress in between my fingers.. n fade away...
as much as i want to hold dear to those memories, to play them again and again in my mind...
i could only look from afar... wishing againt all odds that i was there again..
when i remember little stuff about my past.... or think of my friends... there is always a knot in my heart... tightness in my chest.. is it longing? yes, i do think of you, my friend. oh, how i remember your smile and laugh! it doesnt matter if our principles are different, or that you do things that are of my disliking..in the end, you are simply you =)
*3.46am now*
ok, my head feels a bit tight right now. tight? err...i dunno how else to describe the sensation.. pardon my lack of vocabulary..
i shall stop now. though i would love to write another post =p
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